I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Episode 7's

Justin's answer to my question yesterday bothered my mind, I asked him about the meaning behind Justin's answer that afternoon. Does that mean there is indeed a man like that in his school or he just wants to make me curious then I am more active in studying to graduate with good grades and be able to attend private High School?

Not wanting to be dizzy alone, I asked Selena to talk about it when she visited me at Scott's hospital. But Selena just laughs and says if the man I want is only in my imagination, honestly I'm upset with Selena's answer but I also think it's realistic if what Selena says is true.

But I don't know why I'm sure if my imaginary man is real and I'll find him one day, you know what I'd say if I met him? "hi my riding prince, I have finally found you" Ahaha.

Until arriving at the time of determination, the day of the final school exam began the next day. However...happened again...

I fell unconscious and had to be taken back to Scott's hospital even though I just got out of there...

When I came to my senses, from behind the window of Scott's hospital room, I saw the sun shining so brightly....

"How many days did I faint? is the exam done? I failed.." in my mind I said like that, not even my tears...

Maybe I was over-expecting, I didn't know myself about my situation. I stomped my feet on the bed because I was so angry and disappointed, I soon heard my mother's voice startled by the sound of my feet snapping. Mom ran up to me and stroked my head gently, mother perfectly understood how disappointed I was.

"Please, focus on healing first yes. let's control your health routine again like before, so you're healthy" said my mother while continuing to stroke my hair, I shook my head with tears so hard.

Do you know what was so painful to me at that time? it was a smile that my parents forced me to present even though I knew their hearts were crying. I knew my mother's heart was wounded because I had no spirit to heal as she wished, but my never-before-improved condition made me feel that even a spirit would be in vain.

"Make what...? do what else?!! when will I really die?!! I'm tired like this keep mom!!! this pain has tortured me so much, pain in every joint, bruises that arise suddenly, dizziness that is very much.." I suffered." I told my mother.

You can only cry next to me after hearing my words, to be honest my heart hurts when my words make you cry like that. But I'm tired of it all. I'm starting to think that no - no. I may die sooner it will make me free from this suffering....

The fact that I am just a leukaemia girl with an age sentence that will not last long makes it difficult for me to have a spirit of life. But my parents would have suffered if I gave up on my illness.

I began to moody again, not wanting to talk, eat, drink, even any medicine I threw away on the floor. Only the infusion left in my hands that was the source of my nutrition and medicine that day, the persuasion of my father, mother, Selena, brother Justin, Doctor Richard and Doctor Ellie had no effect whatsoever on me.

Until one morning I had my teachers at school, maybe there were six teachers who visited me at that time. There they said that I had the right to take a follow-up exam because of my health condition, but at the same time I saw Mr Parker and Selena behind the teachers. Selena also seemed so excited when the teachers said if I could take the follow-up exam, now I know who is behind my follow-up exam.

The presence of Selena and her parents at that time made me realize that there are still many people who care so much about me. They seem to give full spirit so that I am again excited to reach my goals. As soon as I have the spirit to heal, well besides the girl with leukemia I am also a girl who is unstable to the spirit of life.

But trust me, it's not just my parents, Selena and her parents, Justin's sister, and Doctor Ellie who have made me come back excited to fight for my recovery. Harry Potter, that man of my imagination, that man who managed to fulfill my mind these days, the man who managed to make this unstable girl again eager to heal. We'll meet and I'm sure of it. I'll soon find that new hopeful man in my life.

On the bed of the hospital, I started to do all those exams, although I wasn't sure I was going to pass well but at least I struggled so that I didn't have any regrets. Four days I was always visited by a team of teachers who brought test papers and became my supervisor, I worked on them with great enthusiasm so as not to disappoint Mr. Parker and Selena.

And... A month passed since my last exam, today the announcement of the results of the exam will be shared...

I was out of the hospital two weeks ago with Selena coming to school to take our exam results, after receiving the exam results, Selena and I sat in the school garden to open the letter. With the three counts we spoke together, Selena and I simultaneously opened the letter and read the results.

I was declared "Graduate With Satisfying Value"

"There is no such thing as a futile struggle!! go back to Luna!!" snapped Selena to me, I just laughed in response to Selena's words.

Selena stood up and walked over to me with a leg that was so audible, she immediately hugged me and cried in my arms. I don't know why he was crying at the time, maybe because he was moved or. he was so upset with me that he had lost the spirit to live...

We went home after that, as usual I went home with Selena to the Parker family home waiting for my father to finish work. Just arrived in Selena's room, when Selena's mother called Selena to come down because Naomi was looking for her. Selena had asked me to accompany her to meet Naomi, but I refused because I was ashamed to face the child of a family that was so famous in this country.

I spent my time waiting for my father to finish working in Selena's room alone, until the night he finished working and Selena just got home from Naomi's house. Regretfully Selena apologized to me for leaving me alone, but I said I was okay.

After hugging, I went home with my father. At home that night, mom welcomed us in the courtyard of the house and there was something different on that day... My mother smiled at me like never before. Well if I say as usual it's because since the last time I did healing therapy and was declared not to experience development, the mother is more often seen crying and sad face.

But tonight is different, the mother smiled to see my return with father "Does mother already know if I graduated with satisfactory grades? it means I'm going to a prestigious school and I'm happy with that" I thought as I walked closer to my mother, but suddenly I saw Brother Justin who was carrying a birthday cake with a burning candle numbering fifteen.

I was surprised not because of the presence of Brother Justin who brought a birthday cake but because of the candle!! it was too much for such a small cake!!

"Sister! you want to burn down my house?!!" I asked in a panic, Justin's brother just laughed and then a little ran up to me

"Eat him quickly blow" he replied, I immediately blew the candle with all my strength until the fire was out.

"But my birthday is still tomorrow" chirped me as she stared at Justin's sister and mother alternately, mother hugged me tightly before answering my anxiety.

"Dad, mom and Justin agreed to advance your birthday because Miss Selena will be celebrating your big birthday tomorrow. This plan Miss Selena had planned for when you passed out back then, so we wanted to have a birthday that was just us here" my mother said as she gently stroked my back

"Huh? why didn't Selena tell me?" ask me for wonder

"eeh? miss Selena didn't tell you?" asked back to my mother in wonder, mother let go of her embrace and looked at me question markingly.

"Any, even though your party clothes only arrived this afternoon at home" Justin's sister who was also surprised, we also looked at the same father who was seen trying to hold back his tears.

"What's? I don't know" my father replied because we were staring at him

Then my father walked up to me and my mother, with his broad arms he hugged us both.

"Father's son is already a teenager, soon will feel his first love. I'm so sad to remember that, happy birthday dear" my dad said as he hugged us

"Father overdo iiih~" I refute father's words

Almost at the same time my father and mother shed tears, although they did not say it frankly but I understand very well why they were crying. All because of my attitude that refused to try to heal when my parents wanted me to keep trying to heal, I knew they were disappointed with my decision but I was really tired by then... if there was a shortcut for me to leave immediately, I would have already taken that path...

But at that time I had no courage. In my mind I said "maybe someday..."