I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Season 2: Episode 18

Peter said something I never expected to say in front of Manda, after he found out everything about me. Shouldn't he have stayed away from me? I could not say anything more and at that moment I remembered Justin's brother, yes, he was just like Justin's brother at that time.

No idea where and since when, at my lowest point when it was..Justin suddenly declared his love for me, "What do these men really think? why do you seem obsessed with this sick woman?" I asked in my heart when my eyes could not escape the gaze of Peter's eyes.

"I thought it would be like this." chirped Manda in a trembling voice, I gasped and then I turned my eyes to Manda.

"Ma.. Manda... this is not as you imagine, I also do not know it will be.." my dream was stamped.

"Congratulations..may you guys.lasting.." chirped Manda again then he walked past me and hit his shoulder hard, I almost fell down at that moment.

I was too shocked by what happened back then, even I let Manda go with all the misunderstandings between us. I was silent petrified staring at the ground just below my feet, my body suddenly shook for some reason. Maybe because I was so emotional, or because I realized one thing at that time, wherever I ran away from my problems... I will never be able to leave the guilt of what I have done.

I experienced de javu. What happened to me always reminds me of my past, about Brother Jester, Brother Justin, and Selena... in the midst of my daydreams arrived - Peter patted me on the shoulder and woke me from my daydream, I slowly raised my head to look at his face.

"Let's go home first, it's not good for you to stand like this for too long." said Peter at the time, I seemed to have no power and energy again to say anything.

I just walked by Peter's hand to me, he took me back in the car and we headed home. At home I got off Peter's car and just passed by to get into the house, my feet I quickly headed to the room, opened the door and closed it again when I was inside. I went to the bed and I laid my body there, as usual when I was in a state of worry like this.

Not long after I heard a knock on the door, I looked up at the door and I saw the faces of my father and mother emerge from the open door. The father and mother who were worried about me when it made me want to laugh, come on. They did that at their age who was no longer young, how could I hold back my laughter at that time.

"What?" ask me with a little snapping even though the sense of wanting to laugh is so strong

"Eeh no no. so. gini, father, how do you say it.." replied the father stammered and looked confused.

"Let's just say, you're a father. Why is it that there is no such thing?!" timpal sounded annoyed

"Yes this is just about to say, be patient" said the father as he scratched his head

"What?!" ask me again with a little bit of a clash

"Dad hear you want to go to the city to see Miss Selena, what.... do you still want to go to the capital?" father asked, I was silent for a moment looking at the faces of my father and mother who were looking at me with worried faces.

"Are you going to take me there?" much

"Yes.. actually I will definitely take you there, but.." father's answer stopped and hung, some time father seemed to be pinched by mother because of the expression of the face of the father who arrived - suddenly moaning in pain.

"But? what's?" much

"You know that if we need a short time if we head to the capital, we're worried about your health. Besides it's about the competition you're in, tomorrow you have to perform again.. Do you feel you still have time to travel to the capital?" mother said then they simultaneously closed their eyes, maybe they thought I would be angry or cry at that time.

"Then it is not necessary, I undo my intention to meet Selena" I replied resignedly, I again buried my face in the pillow.

"Eeh.hmm, baby, I have an idea and maybe you want to hear" he told me, I turned back to look at the faces of my father and mother.

"What's that?" much

"After you're done with your competition, let's take a vacation to the capital. We went to Parker's house and you could meet Miss Selena with more time" replied the father, at once I felt it was a good idea.

"Can?" I asked enthusiastically, father and mother smiled at me and nodded their heads.

We also chatted about other things that we might do when we were in the capital, I said if I wanted to eat - the food that was in some restaurants there, I also told my father that if I wanted to go to the square festival and some places that are a memory for me, my father and mother agreed to all my requests but at that time I remembered that we were not a wealthy family.

I told my father that if I canceled all my requests, I felt that I would be the least self-aware child if I would just say all my requests in the midst of our family's economic hardship. But at that time the mother showed me the amount of savings they had and I was surprised, the father said that the fruits of the garden were bought entirely by Mr. Jhonson and paid cash in advance.

At that time the father also told me that since the competition was running, foreigners from various regions began to come to visit this village. Lodging began to be full on the day of the competition, the restaurant around often visited by visitors from outside the village, and, and foreigners start looking for - find out about the village that holds singing competitions and enter television even if it is only local media.

The villagers were very happy with all the developments that were happening, father also left many greetings from the villagers to me. "It seems that the plans of Mr. West, Mr. Jhonson, and Grece worked.. Does that mean I'm done with my work here?" ask in my heart

"Well if you could maintain the number of visitors like this, this remote village would soon be famous all the way to the corners of the country donk?" said the mother who broke my daydream, I looked at the face of the mother who was happy with the development of the village.

"Of course, that way our fruits will be increasingly in demand in the supermarket Mr. Jhonson. Therefore I thought of expanding the garden" said the happy-sounding father

"But... I just had a fight with Manda... Is that going to be a problem for mom and dad?" I asked, I'm so sorry about what just happened between me, Manda and Peter.

"You fought with Manda? wh why? is it because of Peter?" mother asked, it seems like mother immediately understood what was going on between me and Manda.

"I.iya.mom allowed me to go with him, in the middle of the road I met Manda and Peter to make things worse." I replied.

"What's going on, baby?" ask dad to me

"Peter said he didn't love Manda and in front of Manda Peter said he was in love with me.." I answered, instantly the shocked faces of father and mother were so clearly visible.

We were silent for a moment, I don't know what my father and mother thought of what happened to me, Manda and Peter. We are all connected not only to the personal, even to the work of the father and mother. Maybe I'll mess up again, especially before this happens. Mr. Jhonson Manda's father also warned if Peter and Manda had been betrothed, "I screwed up again..." I said in my heart.

"How do you feel about Peter?" mother asked to break the silence between us, I sighed and threw away my face to avoid looking at my mother.

"Honestly, I still can't move on from Brother Jester, I don't have any feelings for him because my memories are always remembered for Brother Jester." I replied.

"Have you said that to Peter?" mother asked again, I shook my head several times in response to mother's question.

"When he said it I was too shocked, not to mention Manda who was so angry with me. I was confused at the time what to do.." I replied.

"Do you need your mom and dad to talk to them?" ask dad

"If so, what will we tell them? teenage romance like this shouldn't involve parents, should I?" I asked my mom and dad

We began to fall silent again, for a moment I thought about why Brother Justin, Alvin and this time Peter suddenly fell in love with me? if it's Jester I can still find the reason, Jester didn't know about the disease I was dreaming of and moreover Jester also said that I was the type of woman he liked. But for Justin, Alvin and Peter? what do they see of me?

"Dad.." I chirped as it broke our silence

"Yes, honey?" timpal father, I turned to look at my father's eyes with a serious expression because there was one thing that was so bothering me.

"Why did you fall in love with your mother? what do you see from your mother until you fall in love with your mother? how did you meet until you finally decided to get married?" I asked my father, at once the father and mother were surprised and their faces both turned red with shame.

I have to know a man's point of view if he's in love with a woman, even if that woman is a girl like me. "What do you really think of me? why did you fall in love with me?" I asked in my heart, I must get this answer before I think in the way I thought before - before.