I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Season 2: Episode 15

Grece, Yohan and even Mr. Jhonson made positive comments to me, probably because I started to think of this competition with a different point of view so I could finally get out everything I had. Now that I put all my concentration on this competition, I listened to all the comments of the judges who gave me advice and also constructive criticism even though for today's competition I didn't get that much.

I left the stage feeling happy, in the waiting room all the participants welcomed me and said that I was growing very fast compared to the first day. I thanked all of them and also encouraged them not to lose to me, at that time Manda approached me with an angry face. She said...

"I'll avenge you on the third appearance!!" snapping at me, I laughed a little and then looked at her cynically.

"Just prove it" my timp with a cynical tone, the other participants immediately heated the atmosphere by chiming in the word "Wuuuu"

But in the end we laughed together, in the midst of my happiness arrived - suddenly I felt a great pain in my waist. "Great!" I said in my heart, I immediately walked by dragging my feet towards the bag I had placed on a table.

Maybe because of my strange behavior, when Peter and Manda immediately approached me and helped me to walk. I told Peter to get the medicine in my bag, without wasting any time when Peter ran to get the medicine in the bag and also the mineral water available in the waiting room. There was panic in the waiting room, some of them asked what was going on.

"It's your medicine?" peter asked me while giving six pieces of medicine that had been collected into one bag of medicine.

"I. yes. ter.thank you.." I was stammered as I tried to endure the pain that kept attacking me.

I took all the drugs and tried to open them quickly, but because of the shaking hands I began to have difficulty opening the drugs from the wrapper. Manda who helped me to tear the medicine packs one after another and immediately gave them to me, I felt very helped because I only needed to swallow the drugs one by one. They all fell silent and I felt their concern for me, with a gesture I gave a sign that I was fine.

The event continued but unfortunately I spent the time to sit hugging my knees and was silent on a sofa in the waiting room participants, I did not have time to watch the appearance of other participants. It may have been thirty minutes and I finally began to feel the pain gradually disappear, I began to straighten my legs.

"Are you all right, Lunar?" manda asked me, she sounded very worried about me.

"Good, thank you for helping me" I replied with a smile

"You why? suddenly there was such pain" asked Manda again, I chuckled in response to her question.

"Gakpapa, I'm fine. Sorry for worrying you guys" I replied

"Hey nothing is good - it's fine if the medicine you consume is that much" Peter told me, I turned to look at Peter with my smile.

"Most of it is vitamins, I. often have pain when I can, Manda must understand" I replied.

"But I didn't take the medicine, Lunar" Manda's chimpanzee was upset, and I laughed back at Manda's regret for me.

Not long ago the last participant who performed today was done performing and then he ran over to me, he asked about my situation and I replied if I was okay. Simultaneously the woman called us all to go up on stage, while the other participants prepared to enter the stage.

As for me. I was still silent on the sofa and staring at my two feet, I was afraid that I would not be able to walk again because I felt numbness in my legs. I tried to move them alternately and they could move as I wanted although I often felt pain, slowly I stood up and I succeeded. At that time I could breathe a sigh of relief, then I walked together with other participants to go to the stage.

Today there are two eliminated participants, we give spirit to that eliminated participant. After that the event was finished, as usual I waited for my father in a garden chair in the multipurpose building area. While waiting for my father, I also practiced regulating my breath which is definitely my weakness now. I often run out of breath when I finish singing, maybe this will be my obstacle to being able to continue fighting in this competition.

Amidst my activity at that moment, I heard the sound of someone calling me from a distance. I looked for the source of the voice and I found Peter and Manda walking over to me, Peter waving at me while Manda lowered her head all the way as she approached me. I was quite astonished by Manda's attitude, I never saw her looking down like that when she and I were meeting.

"Hi, are you waiting for an invitation as usual?" peter asked me kindly, but my eyes were more on Manda who was still down with a slight tilt of her head.

"Eeh.. i.yeah, you haven't come home yet? I thought you guys were home from earlier" I said

"So we were chatting, so we were late to go home. Do you have time? we want to go to the best cafe in the village, maybe you will be happy to be there" Peter asked

"Sorry. I have an appointment, you two have fun" I refused.

"Well, what a pity, then. Come on Man.." Peter said, Manda cut him off.

"Huh? how's it?" peter asked in astonishment

"I said I wanted to be here with Lunar, you go" Manda somewhat snapped

I was quite surprised by what happened, weren't they planning a date together? isn't that good for Manda who loves Peter? this is an opportunity, right? but in the end when I looked Manda in the eyes. I understood what was going on, I immediately said...

"Peter, I want to talk to both Manda. You go first" I said firmly, as Peter and Manda looked at me.

"Huh? but.." It wasn't over Peter said, I smiled at him.

"Please leave us, I beg you." I asked him.

As if he had no choice, Peter decided to leave me and Manda in the park. Manda was sitting right next to me but we didn't look at each other then she sighed hard enough that I could hear her, for a moment we fell silent and didn't say anything. I was confused to start with, I just knew that Manda had just stopped crying.

"How do you become an attractive woman like you?" manda's chirps arrived - arrived at me, I was jerked and turned my eyes to look at Manda who was still looking far ahead.

"What do you mean?" much

"You know what I mean!" manda answered with a snatch, I was silent as we looked at each other.

"I've loved Peter since we were Junior High, I chased him with everything I had but it was all in vain, maybe he just looked at me as his friend and nothing more" said Manda, now I know where this conversation is going.

"Did you.. declare your love for her?" ask her to make sure if what I think is true, Manda's surprised face when it answers all my curiosity.

"Well..I get it, what did Peter say when he rejected you?" ask me again to him, Manda was silent for a moment and slowly his gaze now turned to the ground below him.

"He said he couldn't accept me because he didn't want to ruin the good relationship between me and himself, for him love couldn't be forced even if I changed everything in me" he replied, I frowned and kept looking at Manda's face.

"You knew? I'm not supposed to look like this, I'm not supposed to behave like this. I'm a free woman before I finally get to know love" she said again, as soon as I remembered about Selena...

Manda is like Selena, she's used to living the way she wants and selfishly I asked her to be me and love Jester. "Did Selena suffer because of me? is this like a rebuke to me about what I did to Selena?" ask in my heart

"I suffer with my love.I want to escape from this curse.." said Manda with a tone that shook with tears, at once my heart ached. I don't know what to say at a time like this, I even forced my own best friend into a condition that Selena would never expect.

"Tell me how to be you. She seems to be interested in you, Lunar." said Manda forcing me, she even turned to look at me and clasped both of my shoulders.

"Manda... I. I don't know.." I answered.

"Lied!!! tell me!!! what should I do?!! you don't like it, do you?!! let me get it!!!" snatch it again at me

"You calm down. Let's talk.." I'm not done saying, Manda cut my words.

"I don't need to calm down!!! I need to chase my love!!!" he snapped again, now Manda's tears came out so hard.

I hugged her tightly, I still didn't know what to say and answer. My head was filled with worry for Selena, I just want to calm Manda's crying that is getting into my arms. Not long after my father came to pick me up, he offered Manda a ride and Manda accepted.

After driving Manda to her house, my father and I went back to our house. In the room I began to think of all the things that Selena and Manda had in common, I did not know whether or not Selena was happy with her new life, "Selena... are you happy now? or are you suffering like what happened to Manda?" muttered