I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Season 3: Episode 51

Sunny afternoon in a cluster of luxury housing, looks one of the houses that is so interesting because there are several accents typical of Japanese culture as the decoration of the house. Inside the house, Naomi and Jester were sitting on a sofa in the family room while reading a pink diary with gold lines that decorated it, Naomi who listened to Jester read out sheet after sheet of diary belonging to Luna could not resist her crying, tears wet her cheeks even occasionally Naomi a jolt considering how hard Luna struggle so far to realize her dream.

"Why did he stop writing again? wasn't this when you and him went to Paris? then what's that streak?" naomi asked as she wiped her tears

"I don't know, but if I remember back then, I think this is the part where I found him lying in a blood-soaked room" jester replies trying to recall the incident three weeks ago when Jester and Luna were in paris.

"What's really going on? I only know when you called me in the middle of the night and sounded panicked" asked Naomi again, her eyes now turning to look at Jester who was still glued to the diary.

"As Luna wrote, I, I asked her to regroup in the lobby but after an hour or so Luna was not present at that time all I had in mind was Luna falling asleep or worst she slipped in the bathroom. So I took the initiative to ask the receptionist to take me to his room" Jester replied

"When the room was opened. You saw Luna lying and bleeding. Now I understand why you were so panicked that night, sorry that time I forced you to calm down without knowing what you were really looking at.." Naomi sounded regretful, Jester turned her eyes to look at Naomi to caress Naomi's hair while sighing.

"May I know what happened while Luna and I were on the plane?" ask Jester

"Selena gave Luke and Harry the same laxative in their food, which made the two arrive - suddenly in need of a toilet. Besides Selena threw away my ticket and Grece, when we were confused I took the initiative to buy a new ticket on the next flight but.... Selena and Justin locked us in a room that Selena rented until the last flight to Paris" Naomi replied explaining what happened when they missed the flight

"Then? how did you finally get out?" ask Jester curiously

"Aaa~ was terrible, Justin was hit with Luke until he bled on his nose and lips. Grece also cries hysterically seeing his girlfriend being beaten up like that, but Justin ends up making Grece his shield so Luke can't keep beating him. Besides Selena wants a duel with Luke, I know Selena has a martial base but... Luke is like a gorilla, I believe Selena lost even though Luke was mules" Naomi replied with a sigh, Jester laughed at the story.

"After that, I shouted to everyone to stop fighting, I told Selena if I wanted to believe her on the condition that she would tell me everything that was really going on between her, you and Luna... up to that point, I had absolutely no idea why Luna was so hard fighting to be with you in Paris." Naomi said again, this time her tone sounded so sad.

"Selena agreed to the terms I gave her and she told me everything, about her and Luna's promise, about why Luna left you first, and about her last dream before the end... she died..." Naomi continues her story, her hands clenched tightly as she tried to remember everything.

"I'm the only one who doesn't know what happened at that time.why can I be so stupid.." Jester chirped with regret.

"Aahs.. Eeh.no, it's not like that. Luna did manage to fool us all, right? it's not your fault, Jess!" timpal Naomi

"Thank you, then what happened?" ask Jester

"Selena drove us to meet both of Luna's parents, from where we were given the facts about Luna... After that, you know what I'm asking of you? I know you were confused and even then I was ready to accept all your anger when you and Luna came home, all I did for the sake of... Luna.." answered Naomi.

"I was angry then, my thoughts about you leaving me also re-remembered.

"I don't want to tell you right away, but Selena said Luna wants to be with you without you knowing she has an illness, so you can be normal and not overdo it" Naomi said.

"It's probably true, I did it after seeing Luna in the hospital. I was moody all day long until you came to see me" Jester said.

"We're always going to be together, right? of course I will definitely come when you need me" Naomi said with a smile and gently touched Jester's cheek, Jester smiled at that.

"Thank you" he said

"Hey, then is there anything else in the book? try to find" pinta Naomi, slowly Jester was flipping sheet by sheet and look back Luna's writing that was increasingly illegible at that time.

"There's a sort of... scribble... What is it? unreadable" Naomi said as she continued to stare at the sheet with so much focus, but the writing really looked like just a scratch - a hand stroke.

"Why can't I read it." Jester said, Naomi turned her eyes to Jester with a surprised look.

"really?" ask Naomi

"The last days before Luna died.meaning when we were going to go to an open-air cinema in Paris." replied Jester.

"Can you read it, Jess?" naomi Pinta

"Let's see if my heart is strong, but I'll try it." replied Jester, with a deep breath Jester was preparing to read the contents of the writing.

***FURTHER PASSWORD WILL USE FIRST PERSON POINT OF VIEW AS LINCOLN** LUNA***

Hii...

Me again...

Day One...

Brother Jester finally found out about my illness, all because I arrived - suddenly dizzy and vomited a lot of blood when it. I had wanted to ask for help but my body and consciousness were no longer able to maintain, I had run to the phone and wanted to ask for help at the receptionist. Unfortunately, I passed out first, and when I thought it was the end of my life, I woke up in a hospital room.

The same scene with a different place, the hospital's signature scent that I'll never forget. Never could I have imagined I would experience all this, my very hard work finally led me to the point I feared. The prince who was always in my heart (:(. Jester finally knew I had the disease.

How am I supposed to deal with Jester's sister after this? is he still accompanying me or is he leaving me because my lies have finally been revealed?! I can't imagine when that moment came. One more thing that bothered my mind to make me cry, I was afraid that I had been returned to my country without even completing my last dream, even though I really hoped that at least one of my dreams in Paris could be done for me...

But all my sadness was denied, when these eyes opened I saw two nurses who spoke to me in a foreign language and I did not understand. "It's still in Paris" I said in my heart, lucky that one of them understood my language and I told him I wanted to meet with Brother Jester.

I don't know how many days I've been in a coma, but I only have three days here....

Right a day after I came out of my coma, early in the morning, Jester came to my room to visit. With my appearance like this, made Brother Jester surprised until he was petrified quietly in front of the entrance of the room, the look on his face also looks shocked as if he does not believe that in front of him is Luna Lincoln who once stole his heart when he was still in High School.

I will not forget the look of that face, the face that has always been a shade to my heart now looks shabby and uninspired, like too many questions in his mind. Can I hate that face? I just couldn't bear to go back to hurting her heart and I'd be sorry if I was the reason behind the look on that face, so far the effort I've made... drugs - drugs with high doses I always consume in order to be able to cover all of brother Jester as if in vain.

My looks? well, I've not used my wig somewhere, not only that... the thick makeup that covered my pale face was also clean until I was surprised when I first woke up to see the reflection of my reflection in the mirror, some bruises on my body were clearly visible. This thin body was also not covered by thick clothes and there were only comfortable but thin hospital clothes.

The first day I woke up. The first day was visited by Brother Jester...

It all started that morning when Brother Jester opened the door to my room, I was enjoying a television broadcast featuring a humorous show. I sat leaning against the bed that I was slightly erecting so that I could see the television in front of me, at that time I laughed because of the funny scene that was displayed behind the screen until I did not realize that Jester was already in front of the entrance.

He looked up at me, didn't say anything and just petrified in front of the entrance. I know what he's thinking, he still can't believe the person before him is the same person after all this time we've been close to each other. My lies feel so perfect...

"Hi brother Jester... strange who saw me without hair? until I look at me like that!" my chirps broke the silence, but my efforts to melt the atmosphere failed because the look on my brother Jester's face continued to look sad at me.

"Come on, brother.would you stay there until when?" ask me while taking my eyes off staring at the television screen

Tell me the most powerful way to hold back tears under these circumstances!! It's very hard, isn't it? I didn't dare to look at him for too long, the humor show was supposed to be very helpful but:(By holding back tears and replacing them with a smile so that Brother Jester knows I am a strong and kind Luna - fine. I made it at this point and I'm proud of myself. At least I hope my lie this time will work out perfectly and will not make Brother Jester worry.

When that brother Jester entered and closed the door slowly, he pulled the chair to be close to me who was still on the mattress. When he sat down, Brother Jester just kept quiet and lowered his head without saying a word to me. This is what I feared when my circumstances were known to him, Brother Jester would grieve excessively for me even when our relationship was not as good as it is now. I can't imagine this happening when we're doing well, it must feel more broken.

"You see I'm just keeping quiet - at a place like this?" ask me with innuendo

"Why didn't you say it earlier?" asked back, Brother Jester pressed me, I sighed for a moment before answering his question.

How can I answer it, I'm not even prepared to get that question. That sigh was like strength to me finally deciding to be honest with Brother Jester.

"Because you used to love me." answered me.

"What...he means...?" asked Brother Jester again surprised by my answer, I felt brother Jester at last dared to look at me but I still avoided the look in his eyes.

"It was your love that made me not dare to tell you the truth.I fell deeply in love with you and when I thought about my long life I felt so claustrophobic..." I haven't finished my sentence yet, Brother Jester cut it.

"Then you thought I wouldn't be hurt by the way you left me first?!! why did you come back to me if you think that way?!! why don't you just say it from the beginning, this will happen?!! why?!!" with the clasping of Brother Jester cutting my words, I slowly turned my eyes to look at him.

"I'm sorry" I said with a smile

Can this smile change everything?

I know it hurts you a lot, brother, but that's what I was meant to do. Making you hate me, making you who used to love me so sincerely end up not leaving even a little heart for me to occupy. What else can be expected of a girl like me, who has little life expectancy, he said, at least that's what I thought before I finally regretted and wanted to fix everything well even though I failed again in the end.

I failed because my prince finally had to see me in a troubling condition right now. Loving you is the most beautiful thing I have ever had, the prince in my beautiful dream who turned out to be a real figure. Falling in love at first sight makes my life full of meaning and passion until the doctor's verdict destroys it all.:(:(:(

I'm sorry my prince.I'm sorry brother !!

Sorry that I've left you deep wounds again, sorry that your pandora opens with the addition of a story that comes back to hurt you, I'm sorry for disappointing you even I wasted your love, but I don't want to take you down with me. Although my heart continues to cry with all the consequences of my actions, but all I do because I love you...

Our story will not be finished with togetherness because I will definitely leave you soon for good, but believe me this is best for us. Promise to always be happy without me, find your happiness, but let me have a little bit of the most beautiful place in your heart for our love story. FOREVER !!!