I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Season 3: Episode 40

Naomi's words of help got me back excited to really help her get back up, mentally destroyed by what Daniel had done to her. But this is no reason for Naomi to break off her relationship with Jester's sister, she can't be like me falling into the abyss of despair. I gently stroked Naomi's hair to soothe her cries, said help from her is my main capital so that Naomi is able to maintain her relationship with Brother Jester.

"What do you need help with? I will help you with all my might." I said softly.

"Luna. Even those touches were hard for me to forget, I really crumbled even to the point that I hated myself and I felt unworthy of Jester. This trauma will only torment him, I fear that if I continue to be with him I will hurt his heart and become a figure he does not know at all. I was afraid.I couldn't imagine it would be a burden" said Naomi, as soon as her cries broke and sounded so bitter in my ears.

"I'm traumatized.I'm a severe trauma that I've never even imagined before... because this trauma will make me easily emotional and sometimes make me become selfish unconsciously" Naomi said again after she could control her crying even a little, his voice was not very clear due to the hiccups he was experiencing.

I paused for a moment while looking at the sky - the sky of the room, I tried to understand what Naomi was saying so that my advice really hit her. About the woman with the trauma.perhaps true, the trauma will interfere when the trigger is ignited. Sometimes it makes us hysterical, overreacting, or even worse, it may make us strangers to our partners, because the trauma is not something that is easy to explain.

"But the trauma was not without reason, it was a form of self-defense of your heart" I said, turning my eyes back to look at Naomi who was still folding her legs and leaning on the couch. His head back he rested on the two hands that were hugging the legs, I sighed then I said...

"Naomi. Listen to me, I understand how you feel. This incident will definitely continue to unfold throughout your life but trust me, Brother Jester will definitely understand you. She loves you so much and she will definitely accept whatever your circumstances are" I said gently, Naomi shaking her head several times to respond negatively to my words.

"No. Although Jester accepted me. I will not be up to the heart to be his burden, he deserves better than me" Naomi said with a sobbing cry, I took a breath and I said..

"I know you think that way, you don't want to bother him.. But Naomi, the one who loves you will understand your condition, will always accept and accompany you or will even be a person who is able to treat the wounds in your heart. And I'm sure you know who that figure is, I'm sure" I said confidently without the slightest hesitation, my words made Naomi turn to me with a look of wonder and I replied with a smile.

"Who...?" ask Naomi curiously.

That stupid question made me laugh out loud, I held her tight and let her head now lean on my shoulder. I stroked her hair gently, while I felt like I was advising myself. Yes, yes, I feel that I am advising my old self, Naomi is a reflection that closely resembles me.

Naomi made me even more confident that I could break my chain of misdirection that I had been responsible for by helping Naomi to become the lover of Jester's sister, seeing him be happy with Jester is like seeing myself with him. Because we... are so similar, am I right? :)

"You ask who? let me give you a hint, he's a stupid man who if he falls in love then he'll be a slave of love to the woman he loves. The first letter of her name starts with the letter 'J'" I said with a slight tease, while Naomi again threw away her face but I could see her smile line lifted.

"If you know the answer, well. I'll add the letter 'E' after the letter 'J'" I said again teasing him, this time I heard a little laugh from Naomi.

There was no stopping - I stopped teasing Naomi that day, I continued to provoke the sound of her laughter even though it was very small I heard. But at least. I managed to reduce the mental burden he was carrying, I don't know how long we chatted with each other like this. Well I mean, I don't know how long I've been chatting one way with him like this. Ahaha... Naomi could only laugh with all my words, if only....

Suppose that....

If I had Luna in my life first, maybe I didn't have to experience something like this and could be with Jester not long, but it's too late. I must not regret, I will continue down my path until the end of my life so that there will be no more regrets.:)

No sooner did Naomi fall back asleep on my shoulder, slowly I laid her body as comfortable as possible and did not wake her up. After successfully laying it down, I remembered that Brother Jester might not have eaten at all after breakfast with us earlier. I turned my eyes to stare at the alarm clock next to the bed and I found it was late in the afternoon, "Oh... What kind of lunch did you have?" I said in my heart.

I opened the door to prepare lunch for Jester's sister, but when I almost reached the dining room that became one with the kitchen, I smiled at that moment and returned to the room. In the room, I lay down my body next to Naomi. But it didn't last long until the sound of knocking on the door sounded, I got up from my fall and I opened the door for the knocker.

Selena knocks on the door to tell me that lunch is available, she asks me to join up with Brother Jester. But I refused, I knew she would only ask about Naomi. Not that I don't want to tell him, but it's also about Jester's heart. He who is emotional, will certainly be more emotional if he knows how Naomi is currently.

I told Selena that I would be there soon after her, I wanted to let Brother Jester eat first to avoid looking at her. After a while, I stepped into the kitchen to pick up the lunch menu made by Selena. My goal was clear, go to the kitchen, grab a plate, grab a side dish and go back into the room. But true to my guess, Brother Jester asked about Naomi's circumstances. I just smiled at him, and then I ignored the question Jester asked. Although I was worried that Jester would be angry with me, but in reality, Jester really entrusted Naomi to me.

In the room I ate as necessary so that I could take medicine, not long after Selena followed me into the room. He asked me why I was so upset with Jester and I said, "I'm lazy to talk to him" with a laugh, the answer made Selena annoyed me.

I let the day pass by, waiting for Naomi to wake up and trying to keep me next to her when Naomi's eyes opened. All to make sure to Naomi that I will always be there for her, according to my promise that says if I will help her to rise again.

In the morning, I fell asleep quite well today. When I opened my eyes, I did not see Selena in this room, only Naomi fell asleep curled up. I don't know how long he's been asleep like that, but isn't that a sleeping position where we're scared? I don't understand this kind of problem, I just hope Naomi gets up.

"Aaa yes... that is. You know? me and him often together.from yesterday I could not meet him, now it feels lonely at home.." said brother Jester stammered.

I chuckled to hear it, but Brother Jester was no longer a teenager. She's old enough not to be shy - shy about saying she misses Naomi, but Jester's sister is still Jester's sister and that's what her character is like.

"Sister, what age are you? how can you still act like a high school kid who's in love? if you miss just say you miss, the prestige is very" said Selena with her laughter, it turns out Selena has the same thoughts as me

"I'm not a prestige to say I miss him, but I just.." Jester's brother's words hung.

"Just...?" selena asked after the words of Brother Jester, I was getting less powerful to hold my laughter but I could not be found out if I was eavesdropping on their conversation.

Jester remained unanswered until I heard Selena's laughter. At the same time I stepped back to meet the two in the dining room, realizing that my existence was almost the same time Selena and sister Jester turned to look at me.

"Morning.." I said to both of them.

"How's Naomi doing?" ask Jester without a base - stale

"She's good.it's just not yet time for you to meet her" I was a little annoyed at her, I saw her sad at the time.

"Sister, be calm, it doesn't mean Naomi doesn't want to meet you, hate you, or avoid you. He just wants to set his heart to face you" I said again after sighing

"Until when? didn't you tell me I didn't have a problem with anything that happened to her?" tanyu sounds annoyed

"It's not as easy as you think, brother, Naomi's mentality is completely destroyed at this time. Be patient, I will help as much as I can" I replied as I brought some dishes to pick up the dishes Selena made

"She misses Naomi so much, so it's impatient" in a seductive tone Selena said, I laughed at Selena's words but not with Jester's sister who looks more upset.

"Hey, you guys have a lecture, right? all alone go together to a place to spend time, let's not be a little bit - little Naomi" said I gave advice to brother Jester and also Selena, as well, hearing my idea made Selena surprised to look at me with her eyes glaring at me.

"Good idea anyway, are you gaka da show?" ask brother Jester who approved of my idea, the more surprised Selena was made by brother Jester.

"Eeh. no show at all, but.." replied Selena hanging.

"But what?" ask brother Jester chasing, Selena also threw away her face to avoid looking in the eye with brother Jester.

"Sister.I still feel awkward when I'm around you, after what we've been through. I think that feeling is still difficult for me to be quiet" Selena replied, I was also quite surprised by Selena's reply.

"You should get used to it, sister you should understand your heart already belongs to Naomi so you should behave that Selena is only tean an for you Selena. You know friends do not eat friends, take care of your heart" firmly I said, Selena also looked at me with her sad face.

"I understand" Selena replied, I sighed and brought some dishes with side dishes that I would bring into the room.

"I expect the best from you, Selena.I hope you really understand your position and do not cause new problems" I said, then I walked away leaving them both in the dining room.

I don't know if my decision has been made or not, but I don't want Selena to be heartbroken again with everything that's happened. Naomi and Jester couldn't possibly be separated, they both loved each other and if Selena forced them to, she would only hurt herself, I'd be the most sorry if that happened. Not for the second time...