I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Season 3: Episode 42
The tense moments passed by for me, Brother Jester believed in what I had told him. Of course I can't write it plainly here, Selena will be mad at me~
About my body.When I had breakfast with Jester, Naomi and Selena, I felt very fit despite the occasional pain in my back and hips. But I managed to hold on so as not to make me moan in pain, all because of breakfast this morning I was always trying to laugh. What laugh? of course laughing at brother Jester and Selena who misbehaved each other avoid eye contact, both can only be silent with a reddened face.
"What...what happened to you?" naomi asked curiously, Naomi's question made me unable to help but laugh.
"Sister Jester earlier." I didn't finish answering, Selena cut my words in anger.
"Luna!!!" snapped Selena with a reddened face
I laughed even more - bahak to make Brother Jester no longer lust after eating, he was seen walking out of the dining room with a weak bow. Naomi was increasingly curious about everything that happened, while Selena folded her hands on the table and leaned her head on the fold of her hand.
"Ahahaha, oh my goodness, yes I'm sorry.nothing happened, Naomi" said after laughing, but of course Naomi did not believe what I said.
Not long after I heard a knock from the main door of the house, Naomi and Selena stared at the dining room exit at Brother Jester who was walking out of this room. Not long after Jester opened the door, I heard the voice of Marrie. "Mrs Marrie?" I said in my heart.
Me, Naomi and Selena got up from our seats and walked over to greet us, when we came out of the dining room I saw Marrie and Miss Scott walking down the aisle with Jester. Selena and I immediately bowed to greet the two, I had no idea that Miss Marrie and Miss Scott would come to visit this morning.
"For mama.
"Hey kids, are you guys having fun?" mrs Marrie asked all of us, her voice sounding cheerful and happy as usual.
Selena and I chuckled at the words of Marrie, slowly raising our heads to look at Marrie and Scott. But Miss Scott's sharp gaze made me lose my smile, she always looked at me very sharply. Somehow I have to say it, I don't feel like Mrs Scott hates me or is angry at me but she always stares differently than most people I know. So sharp and intimidating, "How's your daily life with mom like this, Naomi?" my question is in my heart.
"Has Sarah responded to your chat, Marrie?" mrs Scott asked, the question made Ms. Marrie reach into the bag to retrieve her phone.
"Sarah says she is still on a business trip and will soon meet us at her office, we are asked to go there first because the division is ready to welcome us" replied Marrie, the lady, after saying that Madame Marrie looked back at Brother Jester and Naomi.
"You guys ready?" madam Marrie asked, almost simultaneously brother Jester and Naomi stared at each other.
At that time I could feel the worry of Brother Jester on Naomi and the fear of the look on Naomi's face, well of course, the trauma will not go away.
"I have already." replied Brother Jester hanging, at that moment the look on the face of Madame Marrie and mistress Scott showed astonishment.
I wanted to help Jester find an excuse for Naomi not to leave the house, but it seemed like Selena realized I wanted to chim in with their words. Selena's hand pulled my arm until it made me turn my attention to Selena who was slightly lowered, even though she didn't say anything but I understood that my decision to chim in on their conversation was a stupid idea. Finally I undo my intentions, slowly I bow my head again and hope that Brother Jester can help Naomi.
"I.. am ready." Naomi said, I was surprised by Naomi's decision.
"Ayoo's leaving!!" timpal mistress Marrie as she pulls Miss Scott's hand out of the house.
Naomi was petrified then, I knew she was forcing herself to accept the invitation of Miss Marrie and Miss Scott. I wanted to strengthen his heart, but Brother Jester was ahead of me. Brother Jester walked up to Naomi and clasped Naomi's hands tightly, his smile greeted Naomi's eyes.
"Don't be far from me, I will try to give you a sense of security" said Brother Jester sounding soft, Naomi smiled at the words of Brother Jester and then she nodded several times to respond.
"We stay first yes" said Brother Jester to me and Luna, looking into Jester's eyes.
"Oke~ me and Selena will also leave" my timps, then Naomi turns to look me in the eye with her smile.
"Thank you for the advice last night, Luna... Ittekimasu" said Naomi
I smiled as I waved my hand to let go of Brother Jester and Naomi, I saw the two walk side by side until the door. When they closed the door and left, my smile was gone. My breathing was irregular, my body was shaking violently, and my legs were in pain.
Lately I have had to fight more to hide my pain, actually I'm strong and it's okay to do it all. But... I was just afraid my body refused and had to faint in front of all of them, really I don't want that to happen.
"You've been pushing yourself since, isn't that a problem?" selena asked so worriedly, with gasping breath I tried to answer Selena's question.
"It's okay, get ready" I replied as I turned and walked towards the room to prepare.
After preparing for a long time because I also had to fight with pain, Selena and I went to the doctor Richard's house. I called my dad on Selena's phone to make an appointment in front of Dr. Richard's house, and he agreed to my request and we left immediately.
It might take me about forty-five minutes to get to doctor Richard's house, I saw a car parked in front of the house and soon my mom and dad got out of the car. It turns out that the father and mother used an online taxi at that time, no matter what happened until the two did not use a private car.
As soon as he got out of the car, mom and dad immediately ran to greet me. Maybe the instinct of the parents that made them arrive - suddenly panic, no one said if my disease relapsed but as if they knew I was not well - fine. My mom and dad led me out of the car and took me inside the porch of Dr. Richard's house, where I saw Dr. Richard and Dr. Ellie waiting for us to arrive.
After a stale reaction between father, mother, doctor Richard and doctor Ellie, we entered the examination room. These two doctors examined me in turn and explained the details of what he found from the basic examination they did, and the results were...
"Luna's condition has deteriorated greatly, Luna must be treated intensively and continuously" said Dr. Richard
"I can't" I said firmly
"But Luna, your body is already unable to keep you forced. You need to get treatment right away" Ellie's doctor told me
"No!! I can't do that!! everything has gone according to my will and I do not want my efforts to be in vain!! me!! i... I can not. this time I can not.." my dream with tears coming out.
I don't want it to end, I don't want it all to come - it's done here. There's still something I have to do, there's still a dream I haven't checked.... I don't want this to end, I need to be more able to survive even though it means that I hastened my death though.
Does it have to be that hard for me to make my last dream come true? my death was in sight but they didn't understand that it was the dream that made me survive this hard. Why do they always reject reality and still hope that I am healed, you are all wrong.You do not understand how much this means to me (:(:(please do not stop me from pursuing the rest of my remaining dreams..i beg!!!
In the midst of his fear I sound like the father's voice that again hurts my heart, the father who is always sure if his daughter will recover.
"Luna.. after your recovery.." I didn't finish saying, I turned to look at her and said...
"It won't heal, dad!! I will not be healed!! my death was obviously going to.." when it came - Selena cut my words.
"Luna!!" snapped Selena to me, I was silent looking at the face of Selena who seemed emotional to me.
I sighed and then looked back at Dr. Richard and Doctor Ellie, slowly I lowered my gaze and I said...
"How sure are you that I'll heal when you follow your advice?" much
"Medical science does not guarantee what doctors suggest will provide a cure, but we only increase the percentage of healing that was originally zero to be higher than that" Dr. Richard said
"Doctor Richard!" snapped doctor Ellie
"Luna is not the type of patient who can be lied to, we have to say honestly so that she understands what we are working on" said Dr Richard
"I want to talk to you without your father.mom.and Selena.." chirped me, at once my father, mother and Selena were shocked.
Despite their heavy hearts, they accepted my request, and her father, mother and Selena regularly walked out of the doctor's office. I, Dr. Richard and Dr. Ellie were left in the room, and the sound of Doctor Richard's breathing broke the silence of the room.
"What's Luna? what do you want to talk to us about?" ask Dr. Richard
"Tell me honestly. Is it true that I still have a chance to stay....live?" I asked, for a moment the room again felt quiet until the sound of doctor Richard's breath was heard again.
"No doctor will say if his patients have a small chance of survival, we always say that all patients will be cured" Dr Richard said
"That means I don't have a chance to live any longer, right?" ask me again with pressure
"Luna..that's not what Dr. Ri wanted." Ellie's doctor said, Richard reached into her doctor's suit pocket and gave me six caplets of medicine.
"I know where this is going, Luna" Richard said as the doctor offered the drug to me, as Ellie's doctor stared at the drug and he was furious.
"Doctor Richard!! what are you doing?!!" doctor Ellie snapped, but Dr. Richard did not take his eyes off my eyes.
"What....this...?" much
"Luna!! do not take the medicine!! dr. Richard is not normal!!" doctor Ellie snapped, but neither I nor Dr. Richard could be sidetracked again.
"The medicine you need so much" replied Dr. Richard firmly, Ellie's doctor pounding the table so hard showing how angry he was.
"I'll report you to the doctor's board!!" doctor Ellie snapped, I took the medicine and I was stunned to see it.
"Luna, listen to me! the medicine will only manipulate your pain!!! you will lose your pain response and make you feel all right - fine!! the side effects are more terrible than you can imagine! please listen to me, it's not good for you!!" when Ellie tried to persuade me, I smiled and I looked into Ellie's eyes.
"So that's it. I get it.." I timpal.
I was proud and happy to be handled by these two great doctors, despite having to get the two to argue but in the end they understood what I wanted. If my time has come, I hope you know that you are two people who are also very meritorious for me to achieve dreams.
"Do as you please, you know the side effects and I pray. I will always pray that you can fulfill your dream, Luna" sounds sad Ellie's doctor said, I looked back at Doctor Richard still with my smile.
"It's nice to meet you, Luna. Your determination that makes me want to break the doctor's oath, I also hope you can fulfill your last dream and die in a smile without any regrets, that's my request as your doctor" said Dr. Richard, I nodded then looked back at the six medicinal caplets in my hand.
In my heart I said... "Defend the body.I'm sorry if I keep forcing you to stay strong, I heard the sound of all of you. But for the last time, fulfill my dream, I believe in you"