I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Season 3: Episode 25

Twilight...

The sun began to sink and the sky slowly darkened, the lights in the park began to light up to each other, the right bells in the park began to clink loudly so melodious, melodious, the festive atmosphere at that time was unable to take my eyes off the face of Brother Jester who was right standing in front of me. We've been staring at each other in silence since my last words about our meeting in the park for the second time, Brother Jester is still looking for a gap to refute my words.

"We promise to accompany each other under any circumstances.sad, happy, slumped, to rise, to death that will separate us.." I said breaking the silence between us, my brother Jester's face was shocked when he heard my words.

Maybe the curse made his memory return, the shocked face as if to say that Brother Jester remembered something. I ignored his expression, and then I resumed the promise we had made in this place.

"We promised.." but I didn't finish saying, suddenly Brother Jester interrupted me.

"... will always love each other under any circumstances.angry, sad, disappointed, jealous, to death that separates us.." lambal kak Jester with a voice that sounded vibrating, and, my eyes also glazed over to hear Brother Jester chiming in my words.

He remembered about our promise we had together - together we said in this place, it seemed like the pandora's box was completely open. I wanted to hug her and say sorry, but I knew it wasn't the right time to do it. My lips began to tremble again to say the continuation of the promise, but it seemed that Jester felt the same way.

"We promise that only death will separate us, for whatever sake.we make this promise consciously and without coercion.." simultaneously we say the same thing.

The same promise is said so smoothly without forgetting one sentence, the different is the way he speaks. Two years ago, we made that promise cheerfully but this time it was full of sadness and regret. Don't ask me again about what I feel with my heart.It immediately felt like I wanted to hasten my death because the regret was too great for me, but I remember having to continue what was left. Right. I have to finish the unresolved thing well.

At that instant this cry was no longer able for me to weep, my tears were rushing down all over my cheeks. As for Brother Jester, he just fell silent with a sad face looking at me. Not long after her tears flowed blankly to me, I knew she was in great shock at having recalled the memories she had buried deep inside all this time.

What else can I do? no. I can only regret giving that wound to her, I can only regret that it broke her heart, and I can only regret it...

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I broke our promise. forgive me.." my voice trembled as I said it, my crying became even more so - so in that instant and I had no power to endure it.

"To. napa... Why are you this bad to me?!!! Explain everything, Luna!!" jester snapped at me so angry, even so I watched him keep shedding his tears and it hurt me.

I think my rejection of Brother Jester was the most painful thing I ever did for him, I was wrong. Today I hurt him even more by forcibly opening Jester's pandora box. But.. I was also tormented with all this, my heart was broken like it could no longer be whole and melted together all the regrets of the painful love story I made.

"Sister.I can only ask you to forgive me. I'm sorry.." I replied dejectedly and stammered at a whim.

At that instant, Brother Jester held his head very firmly while lowering his head as if he was venting all his anger on the squeeze of his hand. Not long ago brother Jester was shouting loudly, along with that I saw the swift teardrops of the brother Jester who fell to the ground. Similarly to me, I could only be silent, crying, and regretting everything, I will end it all and I don't think there will be any more regrets even if I have to die today...

The festive atmosphere of the festival square that night was unable to comfort our feelings of sadness, we could only continue to dissolve in our cries until a few minutes passed....

When we could master our own grief, we sat next to each other in a chair with a heart-shaped flower frame behind it. We were still silent for a while even though we were no longer crying, I was confused as to what to say at that time. Until I remembered that it was time for me to tell you the truth about what happened to me so that this could end up like this, I promised him and I'm determined to end this whatever happens.

"I was curious but now my curiosity was gone in an instant" said Jester with a sigh, hearing his answer I turned my gaze to the dark sky of the night.

"Then I don't need to tell you. I can only hope that your heart has been healed since tonight" I said with a little laugh, we were silent for a while.

"Do you believe in the myths of this place, brother?" in the midst of silence between us, the sound of laughter Kak Jester was suddenly heard.

"No, even if I forced myself to believe it. In fact you first left me, both me and Naomi also met in this garden, and do you think I would have two wives?" replied Brother Jester with a laugh as if mocking me if I believed the myth, I sighed for a moment before chiming in.

"I believe the same myth, maybe I'll actually be your wife if I still have time, but when I didn't have that time then your other soul mate was eventually reunited in this park in my place" answer me calmly as possible so that what I want to convey can be well received by him.

"Then what do you want now? I did love you so deeply, but now that this space in my heart can no longer be filled by you" asked Brother Jester firmly without the slightest hesitation, I chuckled at his words.

"I'm sorry.it's all my fault." I replied regretfully.

"No, it's not your fault. I just feel like there's something empty in my heart and it's like there's something lacking when you're not around, but now Naomi's filled that void" Jester said, hearing his words honestly makes me sad but I keep trying to keep smiling so as not to be a burden to Brother Jester if he knows I am sad about that fact.

"I understand." I said resignedly

"I don't know what you're going to do after this, but I don't want to give you false hope. Thank you for everything" said Brother Jester then he stood up from his seat to leave this place.

The answer was so painful I felt, I really lost the love of Jester but at that time I felt relieved because Jester finally managed to love someone again. Naomi is a good girl and very appropriate for Brother Jester, I think I will be really calm to leave Brother Jester with my death in a moment.

I stood up and followed Jester to get out of the labyrinth garden, several times we were lost and confused to find a way out but in the end we managed to get out of the labyrinth garden by leaving all our memories there. With the gesture of his brother Jester asking to go home, I just nodded my head to approve his request.

On that night our journey home was heartbreaking, full of sadness, disappointment, and regret. The two of us could only be silent throughout the trip which took quite a long time huh? it's not really that long, but it's this sad atmosphere that makes me feel like we've been traveling for so long.

When we got to Jester and Naomi's house, I happened to see Naomi and Selena just got home. I saw Naomi and Selena smilingly welcoming our arrival, but when the car was perfectly parked at that time my brother and I did not return the smile of the two until it made Naomi and Selena lose their smiles and look at me with worry.

Without saying anything Naomi immediately opened the entrance to the house for brother Jester and brother Jester entered the house without saying anything, when I was about to catch up with Jester's sister to enter the house when Selena's hand blocked me and held me in the house. Selena immediately hugged my body and somehow the hug made my cry break again, I cried in Selena's arms all over again.

Along with that, Naomi's hand felt so soft that it touched my head wrapped in fake hair. The three of us were in that place until my crying managed to subside, slowly Selena let go of her embrace and we looked at each other. I know they're curious about what's really going on between me and Jester, but they both understand very well that I don't want to talk about anything.

We entered the house and decided to rest and let the night pass until morning...