I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Episode 34

Shouldn't couples approach, but already know each other if love each other is a natural thing if you start dating? I can't wait to be Jester's girlfriend, but she seems too shy to date. It's okay - anything, maybe a little aggressive can make the brother Jester sensitive.xixixi..

After tying the promise that morning, I returned to my classroom with a new purpose. Yes... become a solo singer for this school, if I was chosen it is likely that I will be more preoccupied with choir activities that often perform at school events. I don't understand what's cool, but all the students say that it's a cool position comparable to being the head of an osis.

Somehow my spirit flared up, I began to strengthen my arms to snatch the position from a second-rate student. With Jester's help, I feel like it'll be okay to compete with him. Selena also Alvin gave support and so did some of my classmates, I became even more excited.

The days I went through were good, taking medicine, going to school, vocal training, taking medicine, hanging out with Jester's sister Justin, Harry's sister and Luke's sister. Everything went very well even though I occasionally had a nosebleed, but it did not make me faint.

Sunday came, early in the morning, Brother Justin picked me up at home to go to the place that brother Justin wanted to show me. Immediately I prepared, wearing black leggings, a white oversized hoodie, and white sneakers. Don't forget I tied my long hair to a ponytail and...

I accidentally pulled out a few strands of my hair just like that, "collapse? tumben.." I said in my heart, but I let it go and went back to prepare by wearing lipbalm so that my lips do not look dry. "Okay I'm ready!" I murmured as I looked at myself from the mirror.

Like in every television drama, right? leukaemia sufferers like me should start getting used to nosebleeds, fainting even hair that starts to fall out. Soiii.it's not a terrible thing anymore for me.

I say goodbye to my mom and dad, and then immediately run on Justin's motorcycle. We went to the nearest station, and as usual, Justin asked me to wait for him because he was going to buy us our tickets.

After getting the ticket, we walked up to the waiting room. It didn't take long for the train to arrive, we rode the train with enthusiasm and excitement. Inside my mobile phone car rang a sign there was a chat coming in, I chatted with Selena and sister Jester.

Asking their news, asking for their activities and basic stories so that time does not seem to run fast enough. We reached the destination city in two hours and fourteen minutes, I got off the train and immediately told Justin that I could not wait for where we were going after him.

Brother Justin just laughed and asked me to find breakfast, in a cafeteria near the station I and brother Justin also had breakfast together. After breakfast, not forgetting brother Justin asked me to take medicine immediately. This time without any drama I drank it with pleasure, after fifteen minutes we continued our journey.

We walked down an urban road, the traffic was quite heavy our sights. All that made my heart uncomfortable, I felt stress with the sound of exhaust and the roar of the engine alternating. I asked Justin where we were going and when? because I feel if it's far away then it would be more convenient if we use an online taxi.

But Justin just said, "Just enjoy the process, I do need the stress of your mind and heart", I'm getting confused but I'm still curious about our goals this morning. Maybe twenty minutes walk down the urban road, in front of me now there is a cafe that is quite crowded with visitors.

The cafe looked so simple, with chairs and tables made of wood. The menu offered them is also only simple drinks such as tea and coffee and small food, but visitors look very enthusiastic in that place. I didn't get it and when I asked Justin, he just said, "You'll soon find out why this place is so crowded with visitors".

After ordering some drinks and snacks, not long at a small stage in the area I saw four people preparing to play music. "A live performance? why did you have to get here?" ask me in my heart, but I keep that question in my heart.

They began to play some songs that were popular in their time but with an updated arrangement, the singer also sang the song very well. Everything was going normally, except for one thing that made me ask a little question. "Why is the singer's voice so in my heart?" she sounded so passionate about the song that - until my eyes and ears were hard to turn away from their appearance, I guess I was the only one who felt it but it wasn't.

When they perform spirit songs, some of them are also excited by dancing in front of the stage. When they performed a sad song, I saw some people seem to be crying for some reason. "How do they do that? they could easily play our minds all with their music, wow" I cried in my heart

Thirty minutes passed and the band's performance on the small stage said that if they were going to take a break, Justin's brother pulled me over and took me backstage where the band members were resting. There I met with singers and other personnel, but it seems like Justin's brother is very familiar with the vocalist.

"Yoo!! Justin, how are we doing today?!" exclaim the vocalist at Justin's sister

"As usual, you guys are amazing. I want to get to this point soon" replied Justin sounding so happy

"You'll soon be able to at this point, you've got a knack for it" the lead singer said

"Talk about talent, meet my friend. Luna, she's got talent like you" said brother Justin introducing me to the vocalist, I immediately stuck out my hand to shake hands with her.

"Luna Lincoln, great performance" I exclaimed excitedly, the vocalist smiled at me and returned my handshake.

"No. No, he's the Gates family's son's lover" Justin replied

"Sister Justin!!" I was embarrassed, and they laughed at me.

"Well, what is it that you brought the Gates family's son-in-law here?" ask brother Anthony to tease us

It's a very influential Gates surname, but I don't want it to be like aji mumpung for me. Honestly, I'm embarrassed, however, from my appearance it must look as far as how my social status is different from that of Brother Jester. Even though Jester did show his love for me.

"I'm not the son-in-law of the Gates family!" I rebutted with a snapshot, I was quite misbehaved then.

"He wants to be a solo singer for our school, as a former solo singer in your era I think you can give him good tips" Justin told Anthony

"Huh?! he's a former solo school singer?!" I was surprised by Justin's words

"Ahaha..my appearance is not convincing yes can school in such a place" said brother Anthony responded to my shock.

"Eeh no. Not so, I just didn't expect that position to ever be filled by a man" I said

"Well, it's quite surprising, I didn't think I could beat my rival at the time" said brother Anthony sounding sad when saying, I slightly tilted my head indicating I was confused by his tone.

"He's curious about your story" said brother Justin, I was surprised because again - again brother Justin managed to penetrate the contents of my head.

Being at Justin's side is creepy and fun, right?! It's scary because he's always been a psychic who can read my mind and is fun because it feels easy to be with him, he also knows me very well. Brother Justin....is it possible that he will cry over my departure someday if I fail to survive?

"Well?!! no! no, I just.." I'm not done yet I said, brother Anthony cut it.

"I auditioned just to chase the woman I knew I would never get" said Anthony, and I stared silently at her sad face, not long ago Anthony sighed.

"It all started when I wanted to attract his attention, when I failed to become the head of the osis at that time I shifted my goal to become a solo school singer because that position was the position where all the school students would be headed. I trained hard to seize the position despite many obstacles, some students began to bother me often because I was not from the rich" said brother Anthony, for a moment he fell silent and looked at the sky - the cafe sky.

"But in the end what prevented me was the woman I liked, she insulted me, stomped on me and demeaned me. The humiliation wastes my spirit, but if I remember the essence of singing again I continue my audition until I finally get the position" said brother Anthony continued the story.

The world is not only evil to me, there are still many injured and hurt. But they can change their lives well and even become a happy source for the people around them, then what about me? I was stupid to give up. Ok. it's time.. I will find it, I will give meaning to the people closest to me.

"Singing essence?" ask me for wonder

"Luna.living is not just about you, if you live only for yourself then you do not understand the true meaning of life. We live to imprint on the heart of every person we have ever met, whether it be good, bad, sad, happy, or whatever it is, we let out our voices to imprint in the hearts of listeners so that they can feel what we want to convey with music" Anthony replied

"Getting in my heart.." I looked up, and I began to contemplate what singing meant...

"Sing as if you want someone to feel what you really want to tell them, sing and say in your heart if that person should know what you are feeling and you want him to understand, and sing by involving your whole heart on every note that is spread beautifully until your voice is conveyed to the person you are going to" said brother Anthony again

My brother Anthony's words to me felt so impenetrable, I understood about the essence of my life that I had forgotten. When I learned of my illness, I wanted to live alone by living it without having any bond with anyone, but now I want to imprint on the heart of everyone who has ever known me. I want to live with memories with all of them, that's how I want to live for the rest of my time...