I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Season 3: Episode 2

Forty days huh? ahaha. isn't that a short time? how do I complete all my checklists? what should I do at a time like this? all those questions ring in my head, all I think about when I get home. I was pensive as I sat on the window sill I opened so that the night breeze could enter my room which felt so stuffy, I could not stop crying that night.

Until midnight I could not answer my own questions that kept ringing in my head, I missed the figure of brother Justin who was always present to solve all problems with just my complaints only. But I can't continue to depend on him, I have to finish it myself in my own way.

It should have been when I decided to go back to this town and see my old doctor, I was ready with all the bad things I had to hear right? But for some reason it felt like I was ignoring that, was it possible that my spirit was too burning to meet my prince again? I just wish my body could help me realize my last remaining dream. Already so far, I should be able to and I should be able to bring my body to work well together.

The next morning, I bought a small note to write down my wish that I had to complete in the next forty days. Maybe it won't be all done, but with a clear purpose I probably won't waste any more time. At my study desk that morning, I wrote down all my wishes on the little pink note I had just bought. The same color as the diary that Jester chose:)

I wrote my first word in that little note under the title "My Last Dream"

***Last Dreams***

Apologize to Jester

Putting Jester's sister together with Selena

Visit to festival square

Enter the labyrinth garden and make promises that have been said both together and without Jester

Celebrating Jester's birthday

Vacation to Paris together with brother Jester as promised

Watching an open-air cinema like my brother Jester told me

Visiting cafes - popular cafes that kak Jester told me about

Sailing on the Seine river

visit the Modern Art Museum, Victor-Hugo and Balzac Houses, Bourdelle Museum, Carnavalet Museum, Cernuschi Museum, Marechal Leclerc Memorial, Petit Palais, Zadkine Museum, and the Museum of Romantic Life

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I smiled to myself as I wrote down all my wishes, "You dream too far, Luna" I muttered with a slight sound of laughter coming from my lips. But I don't want to care too much about it, I just want to focus on my goals so that I don't waste time in vain anymore. After I finished writing down my last dream, I immediately walked out of the room to look for father. I needed his phone to call Parker's house, but when I was about to knock on my mom and dad's room door, I heard my mother's crying.

From behind the faint doorway I could hear the conversation of the two of them, I could not write down exactly what they were talking about... but I can understand that if mom and dad were disappointed with all my decisions, my decision to leave doctor Ellie yesterday without accepting her request.

Yesterday afternoon I told Dr. Ellie that I had no problem with my age, which was forty days away, I will live to enjoy the rest of my days without thinking about my illness.

But all my decisions seemed to hurt my father and mother..I came back with my selfishness without thinking about my father and mother's feelings, "Why am I....as stubborn as this?" I turned to go back into my room, in my room I sat leaning against the door waiting for my mom and dad to come out of the room to apologize to them.

Apologizing to my father and mother who always obeyed all my selfishness, I regretted my useless self and also became a burden in the lives of my parents. At least at the end of my life.I don't want my parents to be disappointed in me, at least, I heard the door to my mom and dad's room open.

I immediately stood up from my seat then I opened the door of the room and sure enough I could immediately see the father and mother who had just come out of their room, I looked at the faces of my father and mother who, without me noticing, had been getting older. Although their eyes were shocked to see me who suddenly opened the door, but from the look of their eyes I also felt that they were both tired of everything but tried to stay strong to be a buffer of my spirit.

"Dad.. mother.pardon my selfishness.." I said in a trembling voice, I sincerely apologized to both of them.

"Luna.." muttered the mother who was getting shocked I suddenly apologized to them

"I know I'm selfish, I always impose my will without thinking about how father and mother feel! i knew!! I know that..I'm sorry.I'm sorry.." I said with my cry that was not contained anymore.

Mom immediately ran to hug my thin body at that time, mother held me so firmly while kissing my cheeks many times. Mother said she forgave all my selfishness without exception, just one request of mother back then to me. Mother wanted me to obey what Dr. Richard and Dr. Ellie said without exception, although I was heavy-hearted in accepting my mother's request.

I just hope that accepting my mother's request won't make me lose any time to pursue my wish, so I immediately borrowed my father's phone to call Parker's house. That afternoon I brought my father's cell phone to my front porch, my hand immediately operated my father's cell phone to call Parker's house.

I waited a little while for someone to pick up my phone, until a woman's greeting sounded in my ear and I really wished it was Selena

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"Hello, the Parker family is here" Selena's mother said, sounding so friendly

"Hello mrs Parker" I replied kindly, although at that time I was a little disappointed it was not Selena who picked up the phone, but I really memorized this voice.

"Loh loh? long time this voice is not heard, how are you?" selena's mother asked me, and it turns out that Parker's mistress still memorizes my voice. Well, I spent my childhood at the Parker family home, so I'm not too surprised to know that Mrs Parker still remembers my voice.

"Well, Mrs Parker, can I talk to Selena? I lost the phone number" I asked

"Selena is. I don't know what happened to her, but it looks like Selena is heartbroken and now she's locked herself in the room" Parker replied, I was shocked at the words of Mrs Parker.

What happened to Jester and Selena? are they okay? did Selena make a mistake or did Jester make a mistake? duuh´s... Selena, hang on. I'm sure you can fit in with each other.

"Is that? this is my fault, well, Mrs Parker.Maybe in the next few days I'm going to visit. I'm sorry I might go back to bother Mr Parker, is that okay?" much

"It will never be troublesome, I will wait for your arrival. Don't be long yes, I miss you" replied Mrs Parker with a slight sound of laughter.

"Well, I'll see you again, Mrs Parker" I said, then hung up on us.

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I looked at my father's phone reflecting my face, I was worried about Selena's relationship with Jester's sister. However, Selena does not have an interest in men, maybe because Selena's never gentle attitude makes angry brother Jester who always demands her woman to be graceful. "Duuh.. hopefully your relationship is good - fine" I murmured.

"What's up, Luna?" father asked me, I turned to look at my father who was standing behind me with an appearance that was ready to leave.

"Selena.." I said hanging.

"Is it the same Miss Parker?" ask dad again

"Selena seemed to be fighting with Jester, now that she was very sad and locked herself in the room, I wanted to meet her today and give her some spirit" I replied, then father sighed.

"Today you have a schedule for chemotherapy, doctor Ellie and doctor Richard are waiting for you at Scott's hospital" he said

"I understand you. I'm not sulking." I replied.

Not long after Mom came out of the house and I saw that she was ready to leave to take me to Scott's hospital, I had to go back to chemotherapy and comply with my father's and mother's requests on the advice of Dr. Richard and Dr. Ellie. All I have to do is to have no more regrets in my life, all for the sake of perfecting my short life.

That day I was in chemotherapy, there was not much I could write two days later because my body felt so weak and I did not do much activity during those two days. I spent two days with a fall and.. vomited again - vomited blood, have my condition worsened since taking chemotherapy? I just stress when I have to go back to doing my horrible habits, it was always like this when I first did it and in the end I will get used to it again.

The second day after the chemo I cut my hair again, as well as the father who cut his hair to the same extent as me. Dad did it to support me and not let me bald myself in the family. Actually mom wanted to do it too, but me and dad compact refused mother's request.

On the second day I was able to move back, I asked my father to take me to the Parker family home. When I don't forget to apply my makeup as natural as possible to cover my pale face, don't forget I'm back wearing a wig with the same hairstyle as my hair when I was in High School. The hair that managed to attract my prince, all for the sake of my last dream.