I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Season 3: Episode 46

Naomi's impact when it made Jester's sister surprised, as well as me and Selena. We were silent for a while until Brother Jester was heard sighing, then he said...

"I just don't want anyone to misunderstand me anymore" replied Mr. Jester sounding calm

"Not in that way! you're too cold, you know?!" naomi's snaps again chimed in on Jester's brother's excuse

"There's nothing wrong with my attitude, why are you telling me to be nice to another woman?" said brother Jester sounding annoyed, Naomi momentarily silent and then heard him sigh.

"here! I'd like to talk to you both!" still with a snatch Naomi said it, with a gesture Naomi gave the order for brother Jester to approach him.

Brother Jester looked objected when he was about to get up from his seat, slowly walking towards Naomi. Somewhat rudely Naomi pulls Jester's arm when they're close together, Naomi takes Jester's sister out of the living room and it looks like they're going towards the room. I heard the sound of the door closing from the room, quite loud because someone might slam it. Whether it's Naomi or Brother Jester. I feel bad again - again I bring trouble.

"Luna... How is this?" selena asked suddenly breaking the silence between us, I turned to look at her and smiled.

"Give it to Naomi.." I answered briefly, but I can't lie to my heart if I feel. I'm hurt by Jester's attitude, not long after, the two shed tears...

"Luna...~" said Selena sounding sad, I wiped my tears and laughed.

"Ahaha... aah shit... I cried again...why am I cry like this anyway?" muttering as she continued to wipe away every tear that was dripping and wetting my cheeks, Selena grabbed me while patting me gently on the shoulder.

"I want to go to the bathroom first" I said at that time, slowly Selena let go of her embrace and then I stood up and walked towards the bathroom.

I must not be seen crying in front of Jester and Naomi, for a while I must be able to rearrange this broken heart. With what had just happened to my body, I felt more and more frail as if my death had stayed counting the hours without being able to do what was to be my last dream, my eyes were getting darker than yesterday.My feet seemed to drift through the day until I was often unable to maintain my balance, and what was so felt was...

My hands I could hardly use to write, so vibrating and so powerless.from this day on my writing became more and more unreadable, even by myself. But I am sure that if one day I have died and this book has been owned by Brother Jester, he will still be able to read it well.:).

In the bathroom I looked at my face from the reflection of the mirror, I touched the reflection of my face behind the mirror that felt blurry for me to look at with these eyes. When my heart was broken again because in my mind asked, "With eyes like this, can I enjoy the beauty of Paris? was it in the end that I couldn't finish everything and died in a state of regret? why was I born with this fate?".

At once I heard the voice of Justin's older friend named Anthony... He once said to me "Life is not just about you, if you live only for yourself then you never understand the true meaning of life. We live to imprint on the hearts of everyone we've ever met, whether it's good, bad, sad, happy or whatever..." Anthony's words to me I remember and will never forget, because that's what I live for and that view has been my goal to live.

"Why do I doubt?! why am I still crying over my fate?! Why Luna?! Rise up!! Rise up my heart!!" I said with a clap on my own reflection behind the mirror, at once my tears stopped.

I immediately wiped away the tears left on my cheeks and chin, washed my face with water and repaired the thick makeup that adorned my pale face. When I was sure I was not looking like a sick person and did not look like I had just cried, I went out of the bathroom to the living room. Not yet, I heard the voice of Jester's sister Naomi and Selena speaking.

"YESY!! Naomi!!" shouted Jester's brother in pain, I don't know what happened until he shouted like that.

"I'm angry with you!! Really!!" snapped Naomi

"Duuh yes. yes. Don't be angry anymore." lambs Jester sounded sorry, I was almost at the entrance of the living room when Brother Jester said...

"Why does it have to involve me? I also have a life of my own that I have to live" sounded annoyed when Brother Jester said it, I sighed then went into the living room to say...

"Sorry to interrupt, Luna and I were saying goodbye" Selena said, then she walked up to me to take me home.

Selena pulled my arm hard enough that I had no power to hold it, plus the sense of drifting I felt on both my legs made me unable to stop Selena's pull. Thinking not to make Selena worry about me, I just shut up and follow Selena's pull until we're in front of her car. In front of the car, Selena took her hand off my arm, but she just kept quiet without saying anything and still turned her back on me.

"Selena.." I tried to get her attention.

"Is there any other way you can possibly be happy without involving Jester?" selena asked a little pressuring me, I know where this conversation is going.

"Selena, you have to understand that what Jester did was right. As a man who already has a partner, being close to another woman is a wrong action" I replied, Selena looked upset and turned to look at me.

"But you are different!! you have no purpose to separate them and you just want to. You just want to finish your dream." Selena said with her tears.

Well, I know and understand how Selena feels, but I can't ignore Jester's principles either. They are all right, I am wrong. All because of my stupidity, I regret it. But that regret will not make my heart weaken again, I have strengthened my heart with a goal that is more important than just my last dream. I want to be remembered by all of you, I want to live and imprint in your hearts even though my life is not long.

"Selena, enough. If indeed this age does not reach the point where I can complete my dreams, I will not regret" I said firmly while shaping both shoulders with my hands, Selena was surprised to hear my words.

"I remember the words of Justin's old friend who is now the reason for me to survive, indeed I had forgotten it but. I have remembered it back" I said again to convince him that I was okay

"What...that?" selena asked, I sighed and smiled sweetly at her.

"I just want my life to stick in the hearts of all of you" I replied to Selena's question, and at once Selena frowned.

"What does that mean? you're trying to switch the conversation?!" sounding annoyed when Selena said it, I laughed and walked to get into the car in the front passenger seat.

"No, that's right. I've stuck it in your heart because we're friends from infancy to now, I've stuck it in Jester's heart because of my past with him, I've stuck it in Luke's heart, brother Harry and brother Justin because of our story together until now, I stuck in Grece's heart because of the audition, and I definitely stuck in Naomi's heart because of me and her... it has a similar nature." I replied as I opened the car door, then I turned my attention to Selena who was stunned looking at me.

"I will continue to live in your hearts even though this body is gone, so I am like. That alone has made me satisfied with my short life, because all that is the purpose of man to live" I continued my sentence earlier.

I saw Selena trembling, her tears getting soaked in her face, then she ran over to me and hugged me tightly without saying anything. I gently stroked her hair then returned her embrace tightly, I chuckled back then so that she would not continue to dissolve in sadness. So slowly I listened to her laughter, along with the release of Selena's embrace on me.

"Come home" asked me, Selena nodded as she wiped her tears.

We went back on our way to my house, I no longer wanted to think about my last dream when it was. Until suddenly, the sound of the ringing of Selena's phone sounded so clear. Selena pulled the car over and immediately took the phone from her bag, after looking at the phone screen I saw Selena's face was surprised which made me curious.

"Who?" much

"Sister... Jester.." replied Selena while showing me the screen