I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Episode 40's

After a tearful conversation between me and Brother Jester, we together tried to stop our tears. Not long after we went back into the classroom to do the follow-up exams for the other subjects, ninety minutes passed and we went back out of the class as the break bell rang.

I walked over to ignore Jester's brother to return to class, but then Jester's brother clasped my arm and pulled me up to a garden with a gazebo in the middle of a fish pond. Slowly Brother Jester let go of his hand but still he did not turn to look me in the eye, he turned his back on me for a moment in our silence.

"What... will it end? we haven't even started yet." said Brother Jester breaking the silence.

"I told you, you don't know what you're going to face in the future. Forget me brother! you can find something better than me!" answer me with a little snatch

"But I just want you!!" a bit of screaming, Jester said it while turning around and now he looks me in the eye, we are the same looking at each other with glassy eyes.

I only shook my head a few times in response to his words, then Brother Jester vented his emotions by hitting a wooden pole that became the support of the gazebo. I turned around and walked to leave her there, with tears I tried to strengthen my every step while saying in my heart "You must end this Luna! don't involve your prince any further!"

Is there a way that makes him feel no pain and hurt for me to leave behind? if you please tell me, why does this hurt to hurt the heart of someone who loves us sincerely.

You evil Luna. You are attractive and involve him in your life, give a comfortable space in you and then you easily throw him away. Why are you so bad as Luna? isn't there still a way to be honest with the real situation?! SELFISH.. VERY SELFISH!

I continued to run until in front of my class, I went straight into the classroom and sat on my bench and put my head on both hands that I folded on the table. I didn't care who was next to me at the time, I was so absorbed in my grief and crying that an unfamiliar voice could catch my attention.

"Why you?" asked Alvin to me, I gasped and immediately looked at Alvin who was sitting next to me reading a book.

"Kyaa... Why are you here?!!" I snapped at him because I was surprised, slowly he turned his head to look at my still shocked face.

"I'm here because I have no friends but you and Selena. Selena's at the moment in the cafeteria with our other classmates, when I wanted to come along they said that I was just annoying. So I'm here until the school break is over" he replied in a very flat tone, I sighed and then put my head back on the two hands I folded on the table.

"Are you crying because of the Gates family's son?" alvin asked me, I turned my head slightly to look at him.

"It's none of your business" I replied

"That means all because of the illness you are suffering from" he chanted and I was immediately shocked until I stood up from my seat and looked at him who was still busy reading what book it was

What other problems will I face this time? This shitty man should not know my circumstances so as not to be a bad thing in the future.

"Where do you know?" I stammered, slowly Alvin turned to look me in the eye.

"From the pack of drugs that you accidentally dropped before arriving - you didn't go in for two weeks more" he replied flatly, I ran out of words to hear the answer.

"You're worried about telling Gates' son about your illness or keeping him hidden, and you're ultimately choosing the dumbest option of leaving Gates' son without any clarity" he said again and then refocused on the book he had read since

"Is that really a stupid choice?" ask him

"I'm not sure, but from what I've seen and observed, I think the answer is yes" he replied flatly.

"Then what do you think I should do? letting him grumble with my death that could come - just happened?" ask me again with a pressing voice, Alvin sighed and turned to look at me.

"What do you really want to do to lie to the son of the Gates family so far? is that important to you? why did you decide to stop your lies and not her?" he asked me, his normally flat voice this time felt pressing down on me...

I looked into his eyes, I didn't know what to answer...

Why do I keep lying about my illness? is Brother Jester important to me? or do I just need a touch of someone to color my days that have been empty? Why is it that after all the lies have gone, I give up? all those questions echoed in my head for a moment.

"Aa.. I. can't answer.. all that.." chirped I stammered, Alvin looked back at the book he read without responding to anything from my chirps.

I sat back down and folded my hands on the table and put my dizzy head on my folded hands, I wanted to throw all of Alvin's questions out of my mind but none of Alvin's questions I could afford to lose. Not long after I heard Selena enter the classroom and greet me, she immediately ran and pushed Alvin away from her bench.

Selena and I also chatted casually, discussing the exam I just went through and other trivial things. The school bell again rang the mark of the school lesson will be held again, I stood up and returned to the classroom where it became a place for students and students to take the next exam.

There I met up again with Brother Jester, we were like people who didn't know each other. I was sad but I had to toughen my resolve to leave him, I kept my conviction that I should not make him fall too deep to love me.

All I went through well, until I arrived at school. I finished my exam and went to class to meet Selena, I passed Luke's and Harry's in the corridor but I ignored them and kept walking quickly to avoid them. I felt their disappointment so much from the look on the face I had seen, they showed it so clearly when our eyes met.

In front of the class I saw Selena sitting in a chair playing her cell phone, I knew she was waiting for me. Not long after I also saw Brother Justin out of our class and they both seemed to be chatting, I was so curious about what they were talking about. "When have they both been that familiar?" in my heart I asked.

"Hey, what are you talking about?" I asked, I looked at Justin and Selena's sister was surprised and then looked at me simultaneously.

"There's a little bad, the jacket you used to hold your blood was caught by the janitor and he took it to the school guard. Now the school is a little excited to find the owner of the jacket" replied Justin

"Huh?! how do you keep going?!" just panic

"That's it we're both trying to make sure that there's no blood in the classroom, but it looks like we're safe unless someone realizes that it's my jacket" selena replied that she also felt panicked, I sighed and then sat leaning back to rest the body that began to feel pain again.

"You okay?" selena asked worriedly, I shook my head several times in response to Selena's question.

"Selena, take Luna home. She needs to rest, business here let me take care of it" Justin said, and then Selena asked me to leave school.

In front of the school fence I saw my father getting out of the car and running towards me who was being held by Selena, his face seemed so worried about me. Then with a swift father carrying me was about to put me in the car. At that time I felt the most pain in my body, I did not even understand which part was the most painful at that time.

I squeezed my father's shirt and shouted "Aaaaaaaaaa!!!!"

Not long after I choked.I vomited blood that soaked my father's shirt....

My ears are buzzing...

My eyes were twitching and slowly getting darker....

I thought it was my last day to see this world....