I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
season 3: episode 11

I don't know what Jester was talking about with Naomi when Selena and I were waiting for her in the dining room, long enough I waited for them to finish talking. Until finally after a few minutes passed, Naomi opened the door and peeked at us from the opening of the door. I thought we were going to meet Jester's sister in the next room, but it turns out that Naomi took Jester's sister to meet us in the dining room.

At that time I sat on one of the four dining table chairs that were there next to Selena, we could immediately look at Jester and Naomi's sister who entered the room. The look in my eyes, I looked into his eyes and tried to say that I was the Luna you knew first and not when you shot me.

"By the big brother" I said to him

I tried to dilute this awkward atmosphere by greeting her first, but what happened was that her brother Jester lowered his gaze and remained silent without a word. His steps looked heavy approaching the dining table and he sat right in front of me, his eyes still bowed as if he really thought I was a disgusting woman that was not worth seeing.

Not long after Naomi was sitting next to Jester's sister looking at Selena, I saw her flirting with Selena without a word. But I knew what Naomi wanted when we were just speechless, she wanted someone from us to start a conversation.

"Sorry, I'm confused where to start. I'm the one with you but I'm having trouble speaking" I chanted, breaking the silence in this room, the atmosphere was so awkward that it made me even less aware of what to say in front of them.

"You. Just tell me your reason, I will accept whatever you say and you will soon go far away from my life" said Mr. Jester, his voice sounding trembling and sad.

"Sister, don't be so hard on her. Listen first to the reason and accept she's by your side la.." Selena's not done saying, Brother Jester cut.

"Accept her by my side? there is no place for her, I already have Naomi by my side!!" timpal Jester snapped and his hand slammed against the table in front of us, when I saw Naomi stroking the back of Jester's sister to calm her down and said....

"I won't let you by her side either" Naomi said, annoyed at what Selena said, smiling at Naomi's words.

"No, it's not like that. You guys are wrong to catch what Selena wants to say" I said as calmly as possible so as not to re-stiff their emotions

I patted Selena's shoulder that was already emotional because of Jester's attitude towards me, Selena's head slowly turned to look at me and I smiled at her. The look in his eyes looked sad, I knew he was very worried about me.

"Selena, this is my job. I know you want to help, but the more people who interfere, the more chaos there will be. Leave it to me here, okay?" I asked her, Selena threw away her face when I said that.

Maybe for him all I would do was a futile thing because Jester's refusal was so thick, but he could not convey because of my hard desire to keep completing all my last dreams. All I can do right now for Selena is convince her that I'm okay no matter what happens, he just needs to hold back all his feelings when he sees Brother Jester being rude to me.

After making sure Selena understood what I wanted from her, I looked back at Jester and Naomi. I smiled at them, and then I said...

"I only have one more month before I'm going far away and I'll never be able to see you again" I said with a sigh

"Good, go now and don't come back" said Jester, and at the same time, Selena kicked the table saying...

"Sister! you.." said Selena when I cut her with a light pat on her back and I chimed in with...

"Unfortunately my departure schedule has been determined, brother, so sorry I can not leave immediately" said I, I was a little disappointed by Jester's response but I couldn't protest or get angry because he was acting like that because of me.

"Where are you going?" asked Naomi curiously, I turned my eyes to look at Naomi.

"I will go far abroad and stay there forever" I replied as calmly as possible

"You can still go back, any flight goes smoothly without a hitch" Naomi said with a hint of ridicule to me, laughing in response to her taunts at me.

What Naomi said was right, I know my reasons don't make sense to them. But there is one thing they do not know, even if I did not die and would only move, then the price of airline tickets for my family is not something cheap. Both Brother Jester and Naomi are children of rich families, of course they will regard my reasons as a form of silliness. So I responded to Naomi's taunts with...

"Naomi, I come from a family that is not rich. The plane ticket was expensive for me and again when we moved then the consequence was that I would lose my citizenship, every return here I needed a passport and also a visa" my words sounded as calm as possible and did not want to be provoked taunts Naomi to me, when Naomi was silent looking at me flat.

"The hurt was so deep, I realized how evil I was at that moment to you. I regret it so much and now I just want to heal that wound" I said regretfully, I looked into the face of Brother Jester who now looked me in the eye.

"For what? no need, I'm fine when you never show up" said Mr. Jester, expecting to get that answer. But I don't want to give up, I have to keep pushing.

"It's not just about you, brother, but for me as well. My lifelong regret is my evil deed to you, if you don't forgive me then I will carry this regret for the rest of my life" I replied, suddenly, Naomi suddenly seemed to realize something from her body. Naomi also said...

"You used to turn Jester down because you knew you'd move out of the country?" naomi asked me over my serious conversation with Brother Jester, she seemed like she wanted to confirm something with her question.

"Yes, imagine that time I received it. I knew I could not accompany him for a long time, how could I accept the fact we would be separated by circumstances" I replied, in response, but suddenly Brother Jester stood up to leave us. Naomi's hand restrained Jester's arm so she wouldn't leave, for a moment we were silent until Jester said...

"It doesn't make sense, if it's like that you can still be in this country with me" Jester said

"Jester.. This is related to Luna's parents, no matter what happens. parting with parents can not be considered trivial like your words, Luna's consideration is also heavy" timpal Naomi tried to calm Jester's emotions and kept him there.

"I can buy him a round-trip ticket any way he wants!! there is no reason for such a ridiculous thing!!" snapped brother Jester to Naomi

"Then you got your heart to insult me like that?!!!" snapped by Jester

Jester's anger made my body tremble, but it seemed not only that I was afraid to see him so angry. Naomi stood up and hugged Jester tightly to ease her emotions, Selena held my hand on the table as if she wanted to invite me to leave the place immediately. The breath of Brother Jester sounded so heavy and hunting, I was afraid.I never saw it like that, but I kept my stance.

"She didn't say it that way Jess.pacify yourself first and listen to the reason.Your goal here is for you to be at peace with your heart" said Naomi who tried to calm her brother Jester with words and also a hug, Naomi led Jester brother will return to sit slowly.

When Brother Jester sat down, I again got the chance to explain. Explaining my lies again, I still can not give an honest reason because I do not want.he accepted my request out of pity, I want him to accept my request because it is his heart that wants.

"When I rejected you on that stage, Selena warned me that I should explain it to you. But I was too young back then, I couldn't think clearly and normally when I was faced with choosing you or my parents, I choose to insult you like that and hope you will hate me for the rest of your life so that you can forget me" I explained the reason for my rejection on stage

A new lie from Luna.:).

"You got what you expected" said Brother Jester, sounding so cranky to me, I responded with a smile.

"You're right, brother, I deeply feel your hatred for me. At that time I was faced with two heavy choices, the first choice I chose at that time or the second choice Selena offered me but I did not choose it" I said calmly as possible

"What's that second choice?" naomi asked, I turned my eyes to Naomi and smiled at her.

"Selena said, if my time is determined to part with him.Why do I not give good memories with him, memories that we will not regret because we have known each other, and happy until the last second" I answered, immediately Naomi turned her eyes to look at Selena but they both did not speak.

"The rest of the month, brother, I just want to wipe your wounds and get rid of the regrets of my entire life. I hope you.." I'm not done talking yet, Brother Jester regained his emotions and he said...

"What do you think my heart is?!! do you think this heart can be used to come and go as you please?!!" snapped by Jester, he vented all his anger at me in one breath. But I don't want to give up, I'm sure Brother Jester can understand...

I'm sure Brother Jester will understand...

"Not so big brother, you don't think I take your heart." My words were cut back by Brother Jester...

"GO YOU!!" snapping Brother Jester sounded very emotional to me, his anger getting out of control.

After Naomi stood up and held Jester's head in her arms, for a moment we all fell silent and heard the roar of Jester's brother in the room. I never thought my prince's figure would be this angry, Well I know...

I understand. :(.

"Jess..set your anger, I know you are very disappointed. The Jester I know isn't like this, he's not gonna yell at women like this. Set your breath like you taught me" said Naomi gently as she continued to hold the head of Brother Jester in her arms

I felt the sincerity of Naomi's love for my prince.I could feel it so much, I could also imagine me in Naomi's position. Being a tranquilizer for the one I love, I should have been there if I hadn't chosen my stupid choice just yet.

I can. :).

"I'm sorry I yelled at you. I just want you to go and let me live in peace with my heart even though this wound is still there" Jester said.

My heartache heard it so sad, the wound seemed to be much deeper than what I had expected before. It seems that Brother Jester was traumatized by my actions to him, forgive me.

"You can leave us? we will talk about this again later" said Naomi evicted us, Naomi's words made Selena react.

"Luna had none.." Selena said, I pulled her arm while standing up from my seat.

"We understand, good morning, brother Jester.... Naomi.." With a smile I say goodbye to them

I pulled Selena's arm out of this place and left Jester and Naomi alone, it's now impossible to continue discussing what I want. Although Selena initially refused to leave, but my smile was able to make her move and leave the place. On our way out of Jester and Naomi's house, Selena held back her steps and pulled my arm so I turned and looked at her.

"Luna! you don't have time!!" selena snapped, I fell silent for a moment and smiled back at her.

"It's okay, I've tried my best. Maybe it can reduce my regret, yakan?" I turned around and walked out of the house.

I wanted to shed my tears that had felt so hard for me to weave, but I always held my heart to my own promise if I would never cry again...

My heart is strong: ').