I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Episode 38's

In the morning exactly two weeks and three days I was not going to school, missed the first semester exam and also my competition which I had just participated in and just stayed. My heart was beating so fast for some reason, I was like a transfer student who was just about to go to school for the first time. Departing with Selena, I got off Selena's car and stared at the school gate.

"Why?" selena asked me while patting my left shoulder, I turned to look at Selena with a face so tense.

"I was nervous." I answered, Selena laughed and pulled me inside the school gate.

Within the school corridor some students and schoolgirls looked at me with astonished faces, "Oh my goodness? is there something strange about me?" in my heart I said. I just kept getting Selena pulled into the classroom, until the class when Selena opened the door.

"Yes my... Luna, I'm so sorry about your grandmother's death"

"Luna~ you're finally in school, you're patient.."

"Luna, have you learned? you have to take the next exam, right?"

That's how the students - my classmates who arrived - suddenly swarmed me, I was surprised by the reception. Honestly in my shadow I saw a cold, indifferent attitude, but what happened was a warm welcome from my classmates. I answered each of their questions politely and kindly, even though I knew I was lying to them.

I sat in my chair next to Selena, when a touch of a finger touched my shoulder. I was surprised by the touch and immediately looked back to find out who was poking me, it turns out Alvin with his flat face trying to attract my attention.

"We are friends, right? why don't you greet me after two more weeks of not attending school?" asked with a flat tone typical of Alvin, I immediately put on my best jutek face to welcome his question.

"Why didn't you greet me first? you saw that all the girls greeted me and welcomed me first" I replied in annoyance

"Because we are friends, I should have a privilege compared to the girls" he replied

"Mu's nyebelin is not lost, even if we don't meet for more than two weeks" I said

"Thank you" still annoyingly Alvin chimed in on my taunts

That one man..... If only she wasn't Selena's friend, I would have left her. The desire to push him was very strong.

"That's not a compliment!!" selena snapped so annoyed, I sighed and then turned back to face forward.

"The son of the Gates family is looking for you and he hit our big brother Justin on the cheek, do you know?" chirps Alvin

I was surprised by the apron, while Selena glared and turned back to look at Alvin. Selena's reaction at the time made me believe that between her and Justin's sister hid the incident from me, I immediately looked at Selena sharply so that she would speak honestly to me.

What's the matter? why are they lying to me? is what that shitty man said? The sadness was felt twice, first because two of my best friends lied to me and the second because if true Justin's leg must be in pain because of Jester's leg. Pangeraaa....! why do you have to be arrogant again?!

"Selena! is that true?!" I asked in a very pressing voice

"Eeh. i. that's not the story.. Luna you heard my explanation first." she answered stammered, then Selena hung up her sentence while looking at Alvin who had a flat face as if innocent with so sharp anger.

"Selena!! explain quickly!!" I said again with coercion, Selena looked back at me but she just kept quiet.

How can I stand to be lied to let alone it concerns events caused because of me. I was so upset with myself, why did I have to make those two amazingly good men endure such unpleasant things because of me?!

"I. and your neighbor have agreed not to tell you this, your friend is afraid that if you know about this then you will hate Brother Jester." he replied.

It broke my heart to hear Selena's answer, the trait I hated so much about the rich kid couldn't be lost even if it was from the prince of my dreams. So arrogant they feel that if everything has to go according to what they want, can't they just be a little more human?

I supported my head with both hands that I pointed at the head. Thinking about all the things about Brother Jester, where I could no longer do anything to overcome all my disappointments to him. But on the other hand I love him so much, I'm so comfortable when I'm around him. I don't know what to do in the future, about my relationship with Brother Jester.

In the middle of my mind I felt a warm liquid coming out of my nose....

Panicking, I immediately covered my nose with both hands. Selena understood that if I was having a nosebleed, she immediately gave her jacket to me to be blood-absorbing so as not to splatter anywhere and then led me to the nearest bathroom in our class.

I went to the sink and let the blood out of my nose and mouth, and Selena was also ready to support me in case I fainted. My joints began to feel so painful and bruises - bruises began to appear more clearly on the skin of my hands, I fell down with gasping breath. Selena supported me and leaned against the wall.

He tried to call someone and soon Brother Justin went into the ladies' room while bringing me my medicines and bottled mineral water. My trembling hands I directed to take the drugs, then immediately drink them. In a position still sitting leaning against the wall near the sink I tried to forget the pain, my hand I directed holding Justin's arm.

"A... What happened..... between you... and Brother Jester?" I asked with breath gasping - gasping and groaning in pain

"It's not time we discussed that, I will definitely explain when.." not finished brother Justin replied, I cut it because it's not the answer I want.

"Coral.." I forced him to, then Brother Justin sighed.

Anyone who is me would of course do the same right? forced to tell the truth because the guilt inside is so great. Justin, I'm sorry! (

"Jester wasn't happy that I was covering up for you, he was overreacting to me because it was so emotional. Naturally, because he misses you so much and he feels useless being a man for not being able to find you. He looked very confused, if I have to describe then just imagine the male goose who lost his partner" he said, I slowly release my hand from Justin's leg.

"No!! I can't accept that. I don't want to accept that reason.nothing is natural in violence.." I said and my tears broke, Selena clasped my head in a hand circle and put it on her shoulder.

"Luna.. don't talk about it first yes, your emotions are still not stable." Selena tried to calm me down.

I tried to stop my crying, but it was useless.My tears were really not able to hold me. Until the bell rang and I was not yet able to stop my crying, I stared at Justin and Selena's legs alternately while gesturing for them to leave me in that place but both were compact to refuse my request.

Is it still possible that I can be strong with this situation? the barrage of sickness that afflicted me caused various problems for the people I loved. Is it still possible that I can hold back my tears from falling on the ground? so that the universe does not know that I am not well, so that the universe does not know that my heart is very sick with this situation!

But if I don't drop it on the ground every drop of my tears, isn't there still a gentle wind blowing on the face that I'm soaking with my tears and wiping before it finally falls on the ground? a gust that causes a cold sensation on the skin of the cheeks that are wet because so strong this hand removes the teardrops.

Until a few minutes passed since the school bell rang, I was finally able to stop my crying. Slowly I stood up and was followed by Selena and Justin's sister, I washed my face in the sink, not forgetting I tidied up my makeup to cover my pale face, and also justifying the slightly tilted wig position on my head that.

When I was ready, I turned around and looked at Selena and Brother Justin with a smile and walked past them just like that. I opened the bathroom door and was surprised by the presence of Brother Jester, brother Luke and brother Harry who seemed to be waiting for me since, we looked deeply into our eyes but still fell silent without a word.

"Luna.." chapped Brother Jester and I gave him a gesture to keep him quiet.

"Take me off, I don't want to have any more relationship with you" I firmly chimed in without the slightest hesitation.

I saw the surprised face of Brother Jester after hearing what I had just said to him firmly, I knew it was shocking to him but I was no longer able to tolerate his arrogance. I started to understand a little bit what mom forbid from rich families, now it's getting clear and obvious why mom forbid me to have a relationship with them except with Selena's family.