I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Season 2: Episode 20

I passed the competition very well, became the first champion in the third day competition with points adrift of Manda who became the second champion and Peter who became the sixth champion. Today one of our friends fell and thirteen others had to prepare for the fourth day of the challenge, the day the other participants started looking at me differently.

They see me as a champion and no longer a potential champion, friends including Peter and Manda are very intimidated by what I just displayed in front of them. I sang Mariah Carey's song with the title Emotions perfectly, as well as the judges' judgments of Grece, Yohan and Mr. Jhonson.

One comment by Grece at that time that made me think until now, when Grece told me about the selection of songs that I chose to perform on this third day. Grece said that it seemed like I wanted to become a champion immediately by performing a difficult song to be performed perfectly, but I succeeded. At that time I just laughed in response to Grece's words, but after that day passed.

Ever since my father said he would drive me to the capital when this competition was over, I was too excited to finish this competition soon. It seems like my bad side has re-emerged and started to mess up my current focus, wanting to end the competition as soon as possible is very passionate. Believe me.. Even my desire is no longer in this competition.

Two days passed and now that it was my fourth competition day, I had no spirit like before. As usual, my father drove me to the village multipurpose building and we saw a throng of spectators, but the nervousness was not in my heart. Dad worried about my passion for competition until he said about responsibility and regret, I understood what he meant at the time that I wanted to stay focused on my competition.

But sometimes I think about me who already has a contract with Tamamo Group, other participants have also considered myself not overtaken even by Manda though, and the village has also begun to be visited by tourists... didn't my goal have I finished it all?

Well, I know if the competition has not even reached the eighth final, there are still four finals and the last final to determine the top three, he said, but my competitors have given up on competing with me. I just have to wait for the confirmation as a winner, nothing more...

It may sound arrogant.but I didn't make it - there was, on the fourth day when I performed a song from The Cranberries under the title Zombie, I was again the winner on the fourth day of the competition, leaving Manda's points in third and Peter in second, and one more knockout that day.

I went all the way back to the eighth final with Manda and Peter with a score that was not overtaken by the second champion, on the eighth day of the competition there was a slight change on the stage of our event. Originally carried out inside the building, Grece now builds a magnificent stage outside the building to accommodate all the more vanishing visitors.

I had half the journey to confirm my status as the winner of this competition, but the more days I lost my passion, the more, I was getting less and less into this struggle because every day I started to get distracted with my desire to get to the capital. I'm a person with a bad personality.

Yes, I feel the void with everything. The cheering sound of the audience was unable to increase my passion for competition, which was there I always asked about what happened to me. Is this not my mind? what the hell's going on? why am I not excited to get it? why is it empty with all these victories? I can't answer it...

Maybe this spirit will be felt again when I approach the final, but that doesn't change when I get to the fourth quarter of the final. I felt the emptiness in my heart....

The big three were executed, this being the thirteenth day I competed, and about what my heart felt? still the same, or even more empty it feels....

The change came back when Peter, Manda, and I were the last participants to decide who was the winner between us, the competition that was originally held in the morning was now turned into held at night, the stage was increasingly made lively with lights - floodlights are increasingly diverse like the stage for famous musicians, namely, and the audience is also increasingly unstoppable until now Mr. West must limit the audience who can enter the stage area.

In the morning just before the evening of the final competition, Grece, Yohan and Aiko came to my house....

"Congratulations you've reached the final!!" grace exclaimed at me so excitedly, I smiled at him without saying anything.

"I wasn't sure you were staying, now I'm seeing you get to the final. Congratulations to Lunar" said Yohan

"Lunar spirit yes, although out there many say you can win without appearing but everything can change if you are off guard" said Aiko

"Thank you" I said with a smile

"hey hey Lunar, what song are you going to perform at the competition today? you know, every competition starts I'm always curious about the song you're going to perform" Grece enthusiastically said

"I'm going to sing Adele when we were young, Whitney Houston I will love you and lastly Celine Dion All by myself, I hope you like those songs" I replied, suddenly Grece, Yohan and Aiko seemed happy with my song selection.

"I'm sure you will win when you perform all three songs" Yohan said with confidence

"Hey hey Lunar, can I ask you something?" grece asked, I tilted my head slightly with an astonished expression.

"What's that?" much

"You know that only you use your stage name in the competition, may I know why you use your stage name and not your real name?" grece asked me, I was silent and pensive at the thought of the reason I used that name.

As the struggle to bury every memory with my prince returned, my heart suddenly felt cramped. Two more years is not a short and easy time to become a Lunar with its piloted story.

"Lunar... Another word from moon is the moon, I liken myself indeed like the moon... It looks beautiful at night but will sink when the morning has come, why? because Lunar has no light of its own.. like me.." I replied, at once Grece's smile, Aiko and Yohan were gone replaced with worried expressions and maybe it was because of my sad-sounding tone.

"The moon can illuminate the earth because of the sunlight reflected by the moon, but unfortunately I am not with my eyes... now I am just a crescent moon that will soon lose its beauty even when night has come." I said again continuing my previous sentence that I had hung for a moment.

"Lunar.." chirped Grece when it sounded he was very worried about me, I smiled at him and I said...

"I will use the rest of my sunlight that still bounces on me so that the inhabitants of the earth can remember if this crescent moon ever shines on them at night even though in the end I will not shine on them again one day when" I said again with a smile

"Where....your sunshine? i... do not want you to disappear. I will bring your sun to come back close to you if necessary.." asked Grece stammered, I laughed a little at the words of Grece at that time.

"You won't be able to do it, Grece. I've put my eyes out and can't shine on me anymore" I replied with a smile again

I don't know what Grece, Yohan and Aiko thought back then about me because all of us were silent for a while, before saying goodbye to go home, Grece asked me to change the song I was going to sing. Grece asked me to sing a song by Adele under the title All I Ask, saying that it would be a perfect match for me and as a song that does not really highlight the singing technique.

Indeed before - before I sang with high technique so that I quickly won the competition, but in the end I still had to go through everything one by one. I told Grece that if I would consider it, the three of them decided to go home.

All I Ask by Adele... Aah, well, of course, the song that suits me according to what I said to Grece, I started listening to that song from a paternal flash drive... I shed my tears while listening to that song...