I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Season 2: Episode 23

The cheers of the audience accompanied me who had sung the song well, it seemed that the void in my heart did not affect my ability to sing. When I was gasping for breath because my breath was completely gone, I was like I had just run around the field. Not long Aiko and Mr West came to me and asked me if I was okay, I smiled at them and replied that everything was okay.

The lights started to come back to life where I could see the audience and the judges from this stage clearly, after which my performances were judged by Grece, Yohan and also Mr. Jhonson. But unfortunately I don't really remember what they said, all because I was a little dreamy back then. I only realized when Aiko's light pat on my shoulder felt, she excited me and said that I should make good use of the time to rest.

I walked back to the backstage, and Peter and Manda were waiting for me from behind the curtain connecting the stage with the waiting room. They both praised my performance, but once again I don't remember what they said, I just remember when I said thank you and then I walked over to the sofa to sit there. I rested my head with the hand I put on the armrest of the sofa, then closed my eyes afterwards.

"Luna... Are you okay?" manda asked me while trying to ascertain my body temperature with her hands which she placed on some parts of my body

"I'm fine" I replied

"You're a little hot, it looks like we have to find a cure for you" Manda said again.

"I'll try to find a cure for it." Peter said, I cut it off.

"No need, I'm just smitten. Let me fall asleep until I perform, please wake up when the time comes.." I asked them, both Peter and Manda just nodded in acceptance of my request.

I closed my eyes and I don't know what happened at that time I forgot. I remember there was a moment where there was a commotion that was so audible in my ear when I was still between conscious and not. I'm sure that the commotion that happened at that time was very close to me, or maybe you could say it happened between Manda, Peter, and some of the organizers.

I was anxious to find out what was happening but unfortunately I was unable to open my eyes, these two eyes felt so heavy to open. My body is also unable to move, I like floating and can not feel my limbs well.

When I woke up, I was lying on a stretcher bed near the sofa I was sitting on. Accompanied by doctor Alora, father, mother and Manda who gathered near me, Manda who saw me first woke up at that time. Manda ran over to me with tears streaming down her face, then in a panic she said...

"Luna~! you okay?!" manda asked me frantically, I was confused by Manda's question at the time.

"Fainting? no. I just fell asleep, right?" in my heart, I still look dazed maybe until doctor Alora immediately examined my eyes with a flashlight and asked me to follow the direction of the light. "What's really going on?" ask me again in my heart.

"Luna looks like you have to go home, your body has now reached your limit" Alora said with a sigh, I was surprised to hear the words of Dr. Alora who arrived - arrived.

"Huh? no. no way, it's just one more step.." I chimed in a hoarse voice, I could barely speak at the time and I was again surprised by my circumstances.

"Your voice is no longer able to come out, how will you perform?" persuade doctor Alora, hear the words of doctor Alora when it makes me emotional.

"I can still perform!! I still can do that!! don't stop me!!" I snatched at him

"Luna.. patiently dear.." I'm not done yet mother said, I cut it.

"patience?!! I've been patient ever since I knew I had leukemia!! patience where else do you want from me?!! I just need one more step to complete my wish!!" I snapped and then I got out of my bed to get ready to perform, and immediately my father tried to help me stand up.

"No need! i.." I haven't finished saying, I suddenly felt pain in my hips until my legs felt so limp.

Fortunately, at that time my father concentrated my body, I also did not have to fall down. But the pain I felt at that moment made me unable to endure it, I shouted out loud and this hand squeezed my father's arm very strongly. Dad grabbed me tightly and let me squeeze my arm until my nail felt stuck on my skin, until some time the pain began to subside.

"Is it okay, baby?" father asked me, I nodded in my arms.

"Doctor.." chirped mom as she sounded worried.

"There is no other choice, Luna is no longer able to. His body is drastically weakened, unlike before - before.you should immediately take him to the city" Dr. Alora said.

"I don't want to. I don't want to. I have to finish this competition so I don't have any regrets in my life anymore." I muttered with a cry.

"I don't want to.. I want to finish it to the end. Please let me do it, even if I have to use my wheelchair" I whined at my father while hitting him on the back with the remaining energy, I cried sobbing at that moment.

I really don't want everything to end like this, I want to keep going until the end point. I no longer want to live in endless regret as it has - it has happened to me, this time I do not want to end things like this.

"There is one medicine that you can use, but this is only to be done in times of emergency" Alora said at the time, as I, father, mother, and Manda turned to look at Alora's doctor.

But at that time his face looked very sorry, I don't know why but doctor Alora seemed sorry to have said the last way for me. Doctor Alora was silent for a while and she seemed to want to pull again the words - she said, I knew she was hiding something from me I don't know what it was. But if that's the only way I can continue this competition, then I will.

"Doctor... What is it? why silence?" I pressured Doctor Alora, at which time Alora's doctor held her face with his hand and increasingly seen if Alora's doctor regretted.

"Doctor!! why did he suddenly fall silent?! does doctor Alora not want to tell me?!" I snatched at him

"Patience dear, let doctor Alora think first" said the mother

"There's no time, Mom! Peter looks like he's done! I don't have any more time, if there is one more way then whatever I do!! I don't want to regret anything else in my life!!" I snapped at my mom

"But promise me, you won't make this a habit and you'll see Dr. Richard about your condition soon" Alora said

"I promise!" my answer was firm without any doubt.

"There are high-dose pain relievers you can use, but these are prohibited from being used in medical science for patients like you. Giving this medicine to you is tantamount to breaking my doctor's oath, so you have to understand first about this Luna" said doctor Alora again with a tone that sounded pressuring me, I nodded my head several times.

"I'll be right back, you get some rest" doctor Alora told me as she turned to leave

"But I don't have much time, doctor!" my timpal slightly shouted at him, doctor Alora turned to look at me with her smile.

"It won't be long, my house is close to here" he said, then walked back to leave us

Not long after Peter entered the waiting room, Peter immediately approached me and asked about my situation. My legs are back immobilized because it feels pain when this leg moves even a little, when still like this even the pain is almost unbearable. Father and Peter helped me get up and lay my body on a stretcher bed, after which the committee called Manda to perform.

Manda says if I should stay up and pray for my recovery, I smile at her and I encourage her too. After Manda went to the stage, Peter told him that his arm was injured. Peter called the first aid team to treat the wound on my father's arm that was caused by me, I apologized to my father but he said it was not a problem.

Not long after the lady approached me, she said that if I had five minutes to go I should be ready to perform. But seeing my condition that is still lying, the committee in front of me is now confused how to. At that time Peter gave advice if he would perform again, but unfortunately the idea was rejected by the woman by saying it would be an awkward thing for a competition.

In the end the committee decided to take a short break that should have just been held after I performed for the second time, the committee immediately ran to give news to Aiko and Mr. West as MC. I don't know what happened after that, but it seems like the idea worked well.

Not long after, Dr. Alora came back to see me in the waiting room of the participants behind the stage. He sat down right next to the stretcher bed where I was still lying limp, at the same time I saw Manda coming into the waiting room with a worried expression.

"Luna... You know the heavy burden I have to carry to give you this pain killer?" ask doctor Alora

"I understand the doctor, I thank you if this can work well" I replied firmly

"I give this medicine four tablets, two you take now and two others.You drink it while your journey to the capital is ongoing but the pain is back you can not bear. Do not get used to taking this medicine, because it will eat away at your internal organs very quickly. Promise me that you only take this medicine this time" so pressured doctor Alora told me

Doctor Alora's sharp gaze made me very understanding if in fact this is not a drug that can be taken for granted without the supervision of a doctor, I'm even more convinced that this drug is actually dangerous for my already very weak body. But we both knew that if I had no other choice, I had received the four drugs that were still wrapped from the hands of Dr. Alora.

"I promise the doctor, I'll only use this medicine in times of urgency" I promised him