I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Episode 32

It was a bright afternoon, as bright as my heart was then... I went back on a date with Jester, the goddess of fortuna, on my side, the prince of dreams who managed to steal my heart and fill my days ever.

In a bookstore in the mall, my brother and I stood in a pile of different types and forms of diary books. There are mahaalll and there are also ordinary, and as usual, me and my prince are different when choosing a diary book, he chose a material that looked so luxurious while I chose a material that was ordinary but light.

A pink diary book with golden color decoration with a size that is not too big but also not small, became my choice because my prince also likes the diary book. There was a hook with a small key that looked cute with a golden color that added to the luxury of the book, we held each other and looked at each other with sparkling eyes.

"This is it" said my prince and I at the same time

We laughed together because for the first time we were able to decide something without any debate, brother Jester paid for the book while I bought some pens that made the diary even more harmonious. When it was finished, Brother Jester gave the diary book with a face that turned red.

"Luna, I hope you will fill out this diary and one day you will give it to me, I want to know everything about you and I want nothing to cover from me in this diary" he said expectantly, I smiled sweetly and received a package containing the diary of our choice.

"Don't regret it when you have it back and read the contents yes" I said, then I gave my finger to tie the promise.

Without a doubt my prince immediately hooked his finger with my flick, he looked at me with confidence as if he would not regret anything when he had regained this diary and read its contents.

"I will not regret it and this diary will always be waiting to read the contents" replied Mr. Jester

I had a moment of silence looking at his face that looked so happy, "You will be very surprised by what you will read, brother, because even until this moment I do not know will survive and accompany you forever or not" I said in my heart.

I did not feel I was shedding tears in front of him, the instant that Jester's expression changed. He looked so worried and panicked to see me who suddenly cried, although my smile was still visible but I really could not stop my tears from coming out.

Unfortunately I who can not hold back my tears, it turns out I am not that strong in front of the prince I love.

"Luna, what's wrong with you?" ask brother Jester to panic and worry

"Ahaha...do not know why, I suddenly wanted to cry.." answered me trying to stop crying, suddenly Brother Jester hugged me tightly and made me surprised.

"If you're why, please tell me right away. I'll do anything to help you, don't hesitate because I'll help you with anything" Jester said as he hugged me so tightly

The hug felt so heavy to me, I was bearing something I could not control.I wanted to tell him not to love me too deeply, but I also did not want this to end... I've been in my biggest dilemma all along...

I cried as well - so in the arms of Brother Jester, I'm sure he doesn't know why - I cried like that but there wasn't a single question Mr. Jester asked me as if he was letting me put all my sadness in his arms. My prince.I want you to know right away that I am very ill and that I will most likely leave you when you are not ready to leave you...

What should I do at a time like this? do I have to tell him? or should I leave him so he doesn't love me too much? all those questions I left to Selena when my sister and I were separated that afternoon, now I'm at Selena's house waiting for my dad to finish work.

"You're crazy!! don't tell me if you want to leave Brother Jester when he's been stabbed to love you so much!! do you know how devastated he was when you left him?!" snarl Selena to me

"I know... But what should I do when it's like this?! I was suddenly worried that my life was not long, Selena" I chimed in with a sigh

"You must seek treatment and tell Brother Jester about your condition!! Let him help you get healthy!!" again, I looked at Selena with annoyance.

"That would make him even sadder all day, he would worry too much and be too much towards me" I chimed in with annoyance, we were silent for a while.

"Certainly do you think lying to him all year will give him happiness?" ask Selena

Selena is a friend of mine who does not know what love is, maybe because she easily gives her opinion to me. One thing is for sure, when with Selena I can become stronger to hold back my tears.

"Luna, your father is looking" said Mrs Parker, I immediately stood up and walked towards the exit of the room accompanied by Selena. But Selena suddenly pulled my arm, I immediately turned my body to look at her.

"I remembered something that might have been your consideration, Luna" Selena chirped, I tilted my head slightly to her face.

"The biggest mistake people make in their lives is to constantly fear that they will make a mistake, maybe this sentence will be your consideration will be taken where your relationship with Brother Jester" selena said to me, I was thinking about what Selena said.

All the way to Selena's courtyard, I kept thinking about what Selena had just said. "Am I too afraid to tell my situation to Brother Jester? or am I too afraid to leave him and lose him? or am I even afraid that I'll leave Brother Jester when he falls in love with me so deeply?" I can't answer that question.

The night came and I was still confused by my own question, when I was having dinner with my father and mother with small talk. After I finished I left the dining room to take my medicines in the room, but not until the room when I heard someone knocking on the main door of the house.

I walked over to open the door and all I found was the arrival of Justin, he smiled at me with his signature smile that he always showed me. I returned his smile and turned to walk back into the room followed by Justin behind me, I opened the door and left it open because I was sure Justin would just walk into the room.

But it turns out that his arrival this time was not for me, brother Justin was seen not going into the room and instead sat with his father and mother. I was curious about what the three of them were talking about, I quickly opened all my medicines from the wrapper and I drank at once like never before. I also ran to the dining table where Justin's brother, father and mother were chatting.

"So may mister and mrs Lincoln permit" that's what I heard when I joined them from Justin's big brother's mouth

"But... Luna can't get to soy sauce" my mom's worried

"Lincoln's Lady is calm, I know how to make Luna enjoy the ride without having to make her soy sauce" Justin said

"What's this?" ask me curious

"Justin wants to take you on vacation to the next town" my father replied, to my surprise.

"There's a place that suits you to understand about the various songs and how to sing" Justin said

"Huh?! what's the?!" I asked Justin's sister

"Your recordings when singing get more attention from music teacher, you can be the main vocalist of the school and represent the school for vocal events. So that place will broaden your horizons on how to sing, won't it matter?" justin's words sounded enthusiastic, I couldn't say anything and could only take my eyes off my father and mother.

"How's Luna? you interested?" ask my dad

"What about? I don't know." I replied confused.

"Calm down, it's still next week's day. You can think of it well and tomorrow you will know why it is important to you" Justin said, sighing and turning to go back into the room.

When in the room I lay my body on the bed, not long Brother Justin also entered my room and went straight to the window of the room. He opened the glass and sat on the window sill staring at the dark sky that night, we were silent for a moment what Justin was thinking.

"Will I.. will my long-lived brother?" my question arrived - suddenly broke our silence, at that time Justin's brother fell from his seat and looked at me with an annoyed look.