I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Episode 46's

"I want you to be my girlfriend" without hesitation and without shame or anything.... Alvin just shot me

I was shocked to hear her saying that it made my lips unable to say - words, we just stared at each other and were silent for a while. I with my surprised expression and Alvin remained with his flat expression, my heart skipped a beat for some reason. Maybe because it was my first experience being shot by my opposite sex or because I was mad at him.

"Huh? whatdidyou say?" my chirps seemed to be the thing that everyone was sure to say when he heard but was still surprised and did not know what to answer.

"A hundred percent I'm sure you heard what I just said, Luna" he replied flatly, I scrunched my forehead and I looked into his eyes very sharply to show how angry I was at him.

"Well, then what percentage do you think I'll take for your statement?" ask me back and with a pressing tone

"Zero percent if I see your current expression" he replied

"What are you thinking? do you have a plan? what do you really want?" I asked again, Alvin sighed and walked over to me.

"The chances of Jester accepting you are only twenty percent when you say you have leukemia, Gates is a distinguished family and will not be rash to choose his daughter-in-law" Alvin replied

"Ta. but we love each other! she.. she won't leave me.." I'm sorry.

"Luna's... Luna.. You live in the real world, not a single parent who is so rich wants to have a daughter-in-law from the bottom and sick.." not yet done Alvin talk, Alvin, somehow this hand was so light it slapped Alvin's cheek so hard.

Too hard maybe until Alvin's glasses were released and thrown away, at that moment my eyes were twitching, my hands were shaking violently, my tears were dripping down. No. I'm not angry because of what Alvin said about me, about a poor sick girl who expects the prince's love from such a rich job... but I'm mad because Alvin just woke me up from my dream...

"The slap of the emotional overflow because it is aware that if he has been living in a dream world, I can accept it" Alvin said and then walked to take his glasses that crashed, he said, I threw away my face to avoid looking at Alvin

"Are you beginning to realize? not everything can go as you wish, but all you need to know is that you have a choice to stay happy" he said again as he walked closer to me, I looked back at his face and I found the glass from his glasses cracked because of me.

"I know why you keep lying, you don't want Jester's dream to end. But what a pity, my presence is like a clock that wakes you up from your sweet dreams. You woke up and destroyed the clock like you slapped me earlier, but you were the time to wake up from your dreams" said Alvin

"What... have I ever been... evil to you?" my question was stamped, with Alvin's head bobbing my question

"Why....why are you this bad...What did I do until you were this bad as me?!!" I snapped at him, then Alvin was heard sighing

"I accept you saying that I'm evil, but it'll be even more evil when I, as someone who likes you, let you continue to live in empty dreams. You'll be hurt when your lies are exposed, I'll see you dumped by Jester and you think... Can I be happy if that happens?" alvin said back to press me

I squeezed both my hands so hard that it made my whole body shake, I was so emotional because what Alvin said was true. I kept lying so that my dreams with my prince did not end, this time? brother Jester? a school? or me? am I lying to myself?

"From your expression I'm sure you've really woken up from your dream, now it's up to you. You can continue your sleep and dream of staying with your prince until the next working hour wakes you up, or you wake up now and accept that reality" Alvin said and walked to his chair, I was still silent in my place with my thoughts

Slowly I walked to my chair and sat there, daydreaming maybe almost ninety full minutes because I was not aware of Selena's presence and when Selena patted me on the shoulder. I flinched and looked at Selena's face that was so worried about me, she asked me why but I just answered with a headband.

After that, I followed the lesson normally until the break, as usual, Jester picked me up in front of the class. I stared at her smiling face flatly as if nothing had happened, but I actually still kept the various questions I had just thought of after the two chatted with Alvin.

"Are you really going to leave me when you find out I'm a leukemia sufferer? is it true that a commoner like me would definitely be rejected by a wealthy family like you? what if you and your family knew that I was just.." I hadn't finished all that thinking, I suddenly woke up from my daydream because...

"Huh? whahuh? aah I'm sorry sis.." I replied as I turned my body and turned my back.

"Did I do anything wrong?" asked Brother Jester to me, I again gasped at his words and briefly rolled back my body so that I could look into his eyes.

"Aaa. no really!! I'm fine and I'm not angry" I replied in a panic, slowly, Jester's brother's hand gestured for us to join hands to go to the elite cafeteria where we used to meet Luke's brother, Harry's brother, and Justin's brother.

"Can we.... to a place where there is only me and... you?" as I greeted her hand, she held my hand so tightly as if she did not want to lose me.

"Of course, we can buy some small meals and.." Not finished, Jester said, I cut it.

"No need to buy anything, I just want to be alone with you" I forced her a little, I saw her so surprised by my request.

"Ooh.. Eeeh, all right.. Want to go to the mini golf park? there are few people and there is a comfortable place to chat" said Mr. Jester, I just nodded my head and then Mr. Jester started pulling me to go to the school's mini golf park.

The place where I first managed to get information about the type of woman my prince dreamed of, where all my love stories with brother Jester began, where I managed to get into his circle of friends for the first time, the first place I fell asleep in a dream - a beautiful dream with my prince...

Arriving at a gazebo close to the school's mini golf park, Jester and I sat facing each other. Brother Jester's face was so worried and afraid to see me looking at him sharply but with my flat expression, I knew why he was like that... maybe he was thinking I was going to say something that essentially I wanted to end this relationship...

"Lu.. Luna...really... I didn't make a mistake?" his question broke the silence between us

"No. I'm not judging or angry with you brother" I replied

"La.. and then why?" tanyanya again stammer

"Tell me sister...What could possibly make you hate me?" I asked him with a pressing tone so that Brother Jester would speak honestly to me, I saw that Brother Jester frowned probably looking for a reason why I asked like that.

"There's no need for you to know why I'm asking this question, because I don't want to make you hate me. I just want to know so I can avoid what you might hate" I said in a firm tone trying to convince him that Jester did not hesitate to answer my question

"I can't possibly hate you, even if you stab me. I'm sure I can't hate you." replied Jester.

"Why?" much

"Because when I hate someone, I prefer to forget and keep it in my deepest heart, I don't want to remember anything else about it" Jester replied.

"How is it?" much

"I'm going to lock myself in a room and I'm going to keep washing my brain so that I forget that person and disappear from my memory, there will be a point where I will completely forget that person even if I meet him again one day. And if it happens to you, I probably won't hate you because I'll forget all the memories between us." replied Jester.

It sounded sad when Brother Jester said it, but I can understand if what Brother Jester just said was serious and a little scary. Can people really do that? obliterate memories that have ever happened? I don't know if it's true, but I don't want it to happen to me....