I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Episode 3

The next days I passed poorly, I who was a child at that time still could not understand why I often fainted and nosebleed. I often miss my school days because I have to go out - in the hospital and in an unmitigated period of time.... once in I could be one to two months in Scott's hospital.

By the time my elementary school graduation exam was getting older, I was getting older, I also often ask my father and mother about my health condition but they say that what I am experiencing is normal as one of the signs if I am getting bigger. But the lie will not be able to be covered continuously and I have begun to realize that my health is not good.

On my graduation day, I got both good and bad news at the same time, in the morning Selena and I rejoice because we graduated with good grades even though I rarely went to school and in the afternoon.... something that made me aware of my true health condition I had to hear right then and there.

In the doctor's room that afternoon, along with my father and mother...

I sat right in front of the doctor who handled my health from the beginning I entered until now...

A man in his thirties at the time, he told me that I had a hard illness and had to get ongoing medical treatment. I don't know what it means, but what's in my head at the time is just "I'm going to die young..."

The doctor explained in such a way but my ears seemed to be not functioning properly, but it seemed that at that time my father and mother were very sure if I would be able to recover after hearing the doctor in front of me talk at length about what - what should and should not I do as long as I'm taken care of by him.

My tears could not hold me, and finally I shed one tear after another, soaking my hands and thighs, after that I saw that doctor Richard stopped to explain and his eyes now looked at me so deeply in sadness. Slowly doctor Richard came over to me and sat right in front of me and grasped my hands, our eyes met very deeply but I was still petrified.

"Whatever the type of treatment, if the patient does not have the spirit of life then all will be in vain. Let's help me get you back to health so you can enjoy your wonderful life in the future" Dr. Richard told me

I cried so much - when I heard the words of Dr. Richard, I did not know how many times I cried when I regretted what I was going through. But at that time I was still able to maintain my optimism and told myself "I will definitely be healed!" while continuing to undergo all the very painful examinations and treatments.

In the first grade of Junior High I spent my days in torment, various medical therapies I did until I did not care what the name, the process, and the pain I would suffer. I still believe I will recover someday, but until I go to second grade Junior High all changed...

Body weakens...

I fainted while I was in class while I was studying...

And again - again when I woke up. I was back in the hospital...

"Where am I...?" I muttered at that moment when I finally realized from my fainting, I heard the sound of footsteps approaching and it turned out that it was Selena who was looking after me.

Selena with her tomboyish appearance despite stepping on Junior High always faithfully accompanied me through the days - days that were so hard for me.

"Luna... You realize? I called the doctor first huh.." Selena's voice sounded so sad in my ear, although I didn't have time to see her face but I'm sure she was crying at the time.

Not long after the doctor came with several nurses to check my health, my condition doctor was stable and he advised me to rest more often. When the doctor and the nurses came out, I was in that room with Selena. We're speechless... Selena seemed not to want to come back to me. Maybe because in the end she knew about my health condition...

"Selena.." I muttered to him, I'm sure he asked for an explanation of the reality he just found out about.

We were like that for almost two hours, Selena was still crying while I just fell silent until my pillow felt so wet from my tears. Until finally my father and mother came along with Selena's parents, not long before both Selena's parents invited her to go home.

I had a chat for a while with my father and mother until suddenly I went back to sleep because of the effects of drugs that entered through my infusion, but in the middle of the process I slept I heard my mother's voice crying so bitterly as to replace Selena's crying voice. The sound of mother's cries gradually did not sound and just disappeared, until suddenly I woke up in the bright afternoon.

As soon as my eyes opened, I saw Selena standing next to me changing the flowers that were in the vase on a table. Our eyes met and I saw Selena's surprised expression looking at me who had just woken up from sleep, but we were still silent to each other for a while.

"Selena.." murmured to melt the atmosphere, but Selena threw away her face and continued her activities.

She did not answer me at all even until she finished replacing the flowers in the vase and threw the withered flowers into the trash basket, he said, I looked for the remote and pressed a button to raise the back of my bed so that I could look up at Selena sitting on the sofa right in front of me. I looked at her with anger, as did Selena who was also looking at me with anger.

"What the fuck is this?! why are you mad at me?!!" ask me with a clash

"What are you?!! why aren't you being honest about your health condition?!!!" ask Selena back with a glance

"I just don't want to worry you!!" answer me with a snatch

"That's not the way to make me not worry!!!" timpal Selena with a clash

"Then in what way?!! you're the one who made me not to the heart to tell the truth!!" this time I snapped as if I could silence him and this was the first time I had won a debate with him, but the expression on his face that had suddenly turned sad made me unhappy with the results I had just achieved....

"So that's it...Is it because I said I didn't have any friends besides you? or because I said I couldn't get along with anyone other than you? or because.." Selena said so sad I cut because I know where this conversation is going.

"Enough Selena!! don't you keep saying!!" I snapped and asked Selena to be quiet, slowly looking down at the table.

"Or because... I used to say if I didn't want to have friends because I thought that they would betray me and also said that school was just a gathering place for people who want to use others? or because of what I said that I didn't want to hang out with them and didn't need them for my reasons?" selena asked again as if pressing on me, we were silent again for a while.

When I remembered the incident when we were in elementary school, when Selena in the bully was exhausted because of a problem with one of our classmates who was also one of our close friends both. Just because Selena didn't want to give an answer she could have done that heinous thing to Selena, didn't get there.

"Selena.. whatever the reason... I just don't want to worry you, that's all.." chirped me in the middle of our silence.

"I have friends besides you now.me and Naomi are very close now, so promise me that there are no secrets between us... you don't have to worry about anything from me because I'm fine thanks to you." Selena said with tears so rushing down her cheeks.

For a moment I was relieved by Selena's words, either because she said everything would be fine or because of the fact if Selena finally had another friend since she felt her bitter memories with our schoolmate...

I just stuck out my hands to signal Selena for her to approach me to hug her, Selena ran up to me and hugged me so tightly. We cried together in each other's arms....