Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 3's. Polygamy of hearts
I gripped the spoon I used to put food in my mouth. I thought all this time Mas Bintang could not smile but at this moment I saw that he was a friendly man with a sweet smile. It looks like he is happy while bribing each other with Mona.
"Ra, let's eat. It was a lot of cooking," said Mona again.
"Yes, Mommy."
"Darling, am I bribing you?" haggling Mbak Mona on Mas Bintang.
Mas Bintang simply nodded and replied with a smile I had never seen before.
"Nake?"
"Taste you always be my candlestick," praised Mas Bintang giving his thumbs up.
As strong as my energy withstood the cry that almost fell on my eyes. I lowered my head and was busy playing the spoon and fork inside the plate. My chest is tight and cheeks are hot and I can feel my heart like it is squeezed to bleed.
Now I understand how Mom used to feel when Papa took Aunt Lucia home in marriage status. It must have hurt a lot. Now I feel like I'm in my mom's position.
"Oh, Ra. Where do you work?" ask Mona. Actually Mona is very good and her language is also soft, I can not imagine if she knew that me and Mas Bintang are a married couple. He'll be very shocked.
"Ak_"
"He's not working" Mas Bintang cut as I wanted to answer Mona's questions.
I don't know what makes Mas Bintang seem to not want to know my job. Every time I want to answer what works, he always cuts the conversation.
"Oh so. It's okay, cleaning up at home is also working," said Mona Mbak chimed.
I just smile nodding. Just let Mas Bintang think I'm a messy wife. He doesn't know who I really am.
"Darling, let Nara do it all. You accompany me to finish my work in the workspace," said Mas Bintang standing from his seat.
"Lho, but this is a lot, honey. Why don't you just want to look for ART" Mona protested.
"Nara's not working anything. There he left, he cleaned the house" replied Mas Bintang lightly. He doesn't appreciate my feelings at all.
"It's okay, Ma'am. Let me just get it sorted out. Ma'am just accompany Mas Bintang," said I relented.
Ma'am Mona seemed to have a long sigh like she wasn't feeling good to me.
"I'm sorry, Ra" he said.
"It's okay, Ma'am."
They both left me alone at the dinner table. I looked at the leftovers and the old dishes on the table. Ma'am Mona's cooking is very tasty and fits on the tongue. It's fitting that Mas Bintang likes Mbak Mona so much, her lover is not only beautiful but also smart to cook and kind.
I stood up while collecting the dirty dishes and taking them to the sink. While the leftover vegetables I put in the freezer so as not to stale and tomorrow morning can still be heated.
"Why do you have it, my dear? Why don't you think about my feelings? I know you don't love me. But can you not hurt me?"
No woman is okay when she sees the man she loves happy with others in front of her own eyes.
"Strong, Nara. You can't let Daddy and Mama down." I tried to brace myself and wiped my tears violently.
If not for Mama and Mommy Dusk, I choose to part with Mas Bintang. Honestly I'm not strong, I'm not a great woman who can stand my husband's treatment like this.
After I finished washing the dishes, I immediately walked towards the room. I feel tired today. Before getting married I had not come to the cafe for a long time so many jobs were left behind, during the holidays I was busy preparing for my wedding party and Mas Bintang even without his help.
For a moment my footsteps fell silent as I passed through Mas Bintang's study. There was a sound of laughter echoing there, I don't know what they were talking about so it created a joke of laughter that made others envious.
"Darling, how many children do you want?" asked Mona who sounded clear from the outside.
"I want to have five children" replied the man who was none other than my husband.
"Well, why so much? I don't want to. Giving birth is not good" Mona protested.
"There's me helping to take care of her, honey. So you don't have to worry" my husband said.
My hands are holding on to the wall as a buffer to my current weak body. Destroyed, melted and left when they heard their dreams. Even I as a wife never asked how many children would I have?
Again these cheap tears flowed and flowed profusely on my cheeks. I cried in silence with a sob. Every now and then I hit my chest when I felt the air supply in there was gripping.
I gathered a million strength to walk into the room. It felt like my body was instantly losing its soul and powerless.
I locked the door and sat on the floor hugging my knees.
"Papa."
If Papa were still around, I would love to hug him and tell him so much about how I feel right now. Although in the past, Papa was not much different from Mas Bintang who could wish Mama and choose other women. But in the end Papa gave up on fate and gave up his heart so that I could survive until now.
"Papa, hug Nara for a second, Pa. Nara's tired. Nara is not strong to face all this," I said crying a mouthful.
To whom should I complain and tell? To whom I had to talk about the painful feelings that were now squeezing my barrel.
"Hyx hyx hyx hyx hyx."
This room bears witness to my current concern. Witnessing the collapse of my home life. After this, I don't know how to go about it all. Do they survive or leave? If I leave, many will be disappointed and hurt. However, the moment I survive and choose to be with Mas Bintang, I will be injured as long as he is still in a relationship with his lover.
I promised Mother Dusk I would be a good wife to her son and make Mas Bintang fall in love with me. What if I finally give up? Wouldn't that make Mother Dusk hurt?
My in-laws are very kind and even she loves me like Mama and hopes I will be the right life companion for her son. However, Mother Dusk does not know if her daughter-in-law is fragile and broken because of the nature of her husband who is polygamous in his own household.
Seriate...