Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 3's. Learn to let go
Nara POV.
I finally learned to let go of Mas Bintang, not because I no longer love him. Not because my love is finished in my heart. However, I realized, loving her alone was not a natural love. I was killed pounding my chest and anxiety over the memories of the wound. That's why I started learning to let go. Because, I know the best love will always come home but if Mas Bintang does not come, maybe he is destined to be limited to a story that only deserves to be stored as a memory.
"Nara," she called me glazed over. "I beg you not to leave me" he knelt at my feet.
Bintang should understand and understand, I survived for months. I became half sane. Approaching sakau. He knew but was like half-hearted and let me give up in time. He was not able to convince me like I fought for and defended him. I won't regret anything about his treatment. I understand, I'm in great love with him. This feeling is too difficult for me to break, even though my heart has been defeated. He is still someone I love very much. Someone who has shed warm tears. The stars are still my love. Seriousness over the life I missed, even though it felt sad when I remembered it.
"Sorry, Mas. My decision is complete" I replied.
Please if fate wants to laugh at me for losing the fight for the love I want to have. I gave up, I stopped quite until here. The betrayal of Mas Bintang has made me realize that the love I want to fight for half to death will end in tears.
"I can't hold on, Mom. I give up" I said again.
Father Sky and Mother Dusk just fell silent. Several times Mother Dusk wiped her tears when she heard my words that wanted to separate from Mas Bintang. I'm sure Mother Dusk understands because she was in my position. The Mother of Dusk does not hold you back at all, because a heart that has been hurt will be difficult to return unless the person has numbness and does not care about all the pain that slaps his chest.
"Please give me one chance, Nara. I promise I won't repeat the same mistake." The star held his hand.
Had he realised his feelings before Mona's betrayal maybe I would still have given him one chance. But Mas Bintang finally found out if he loved me after losing the woman he loved. Then make me as an impingement of his unfulfilled love. Convince me that her love is sincere and after she gets back better by getting me hurt again, she will return to the old love she wants to get back.
I raised the body of Mas Bintang to stand up. It felt uncomfortable to see him kneeling like that at my feet. I wipe the tears of the Star Gently. If I can be honest I still love and love my husband very much. However, I couldn't step up after what he did by hurting me. Even with the blatant Mas Bintang asked me to go and leave him. However, I instead persevered and hoped to make my husband fall in love. One thing I should have realized is that feelings cannot be forced.
"Sorry, Mas. I believe Mas would be happy without me. Now, let me go and find my own happiness. Maybe indeed parting is the best way for our household problems, Mas," I rubbed his cheek. My heart was still the same still pounding when it touched her soft cheeks. This can be said the first time I touched her intimately. All this time let alone be touched to see me he was reluctant.
"But_"
I grabbed my bag and moved a little away.
"Dad, Mother. Nara says yes." I salami my two in-laws.
"Son."
The Twilight Mother gave me a warm embrace. I could feel her tears drenching my shoulders.
"Take care of yourself, son. Mother dear to you," he said kissed my forehead with love.
If only time could be re-established. I chose not to fall in love with the Star. I chose to be a stranger in his heart. But who could choose to fall in love with whom because that heart would know who it should put its taste to.
"Yes, Nara said yes."
I walked out of the house of in-laws. The tears that I had endured with all my heart were now actually bursting into and torturing in my chest. I got in the car and cried so hard.
My husband is a Star, half of my soul still settles in the rest of my arms. In the rest of the soft kiss that slowly finished me off. He remains someone I know very well. Don't give up on life. Now I let him walk away. However, I never really let go of his soul binding my soul. He was never really able to erase me from my memory. It's just, I get it, I have to learn to be happy again. I need to be able to calm my anxiety. I must be able to learn that reality is now destroying the defenses I built to love me.
Tightness attacked my chest, squeezing between the cavities to create a tightness that infiltrated into it. I hit my chest repeatedly as the air supply in my lungs was thinning.
"Aragh!"
I screamed a few times hitting the car. Remembering everything Mas Bintang did made me unable to withstand this divorce. No, I love her but I can't be with her. I can't continue to be next to her while she's still thinking about other women. He loved me for losing his love.
"Aragh!"
It turned out that shouting loudly in the car slightly made the tightness in my chest slowly disappear.
"You have heart, Mas. You're evil. I hate you."
After a long cry, I turned on the car engine and left the residence of my in-laws who would soon become former in-laws.
All the way I was still crying. These cheap tears won't stop dripping. As if representing a pain that really torments the chest.
The best love is when you can let go of someone you love. Not because they do not love but survive will not lead to love each other. I've finally learned to let go of the love I slowly couldn't have.
The roar of the car sounded earthy with cries that eroded the night. I don't know how long I've been at my in-laws' house from morning till night? At first I came here because I was looking for my husband last night he didn't come home, but who would have thought that my arrival also explained our household that couldn't be united.
"Star Mass. I can't be with you much longer. I let you go for your happiness. From this moment on let me go away without remembering all the wounds you have wrought on my heart."
I'm still an ordinary woman in love with my own husband. Let me be ashes, Mas Bintang remains a fire, burning my shindles many times. Dying but never dying.
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