Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 3's. Sib
By believing deeply. I have chosen him. And I want to fall in love with her every time I have. Want to make him someone who is united with me with all prayers and plans. I want to make him my happiest friend. Lover lives faithful. There are promises to be kept. May I wish that someone would embrace me, quieting me in the silence of the night. Hold my hand in the dark. Let time enshrine in its salty and foreign life. In the sweet and bitter way all paths are faced. In prayer and praise to the almighty, he and I call us all ages.
"Sister."
I just realized that from now on just silently daydreaming staring at the emptiness in front of me. Though the atmosphere in this cafe is quite crowded especially lunch hours like this.
"Ehhh yes, Why? What's up?" I looked at my three sisters in turn.
"So why daydream?" ask Tata.
"Sister, if there's a story problem with us. Who knows, the three of us can help" Naro said, grasping my hand gently.
My eyes glazed over at how much my three sisters cared for me. I should have been the big brother who looked after them but this was reversed.
"Sister it's okay," I said.
My sisters don't need to know that I'm fragile right now and I'm not okay. It was enough that I took them down because of my breakup with Mas Bintang and now I am not ashamed to make them anxious just because of my relationship with Kak Rimba.
I try to think positively that Rimba is sincere in helping the Princess without any intention. I hope he is really just pity. But if she has special feelings for her ex-boyfriend, what can I do? It is my fault that I did not investigate what is the past of Mr. Rimba after so many years of separation.
"Sister Rimba is fine, right?" tata asked looking at me full of search. "The woman who yesterday was really just a friend of Kak Rimba, brother? Kok Tata see they are very familiar," said Tata.
Naro quickly nudged Tata's arm as my sister spoke out. Tata was like that, he was always unable to resist what he wanted to say. Perhaps her late mother used to have the same traits as Tata.
"That's her friend. Her name is Princess, her son is sick and_"
"Where is your husband, brother? How come Rimba's sister is bothered? Kayak Kak Rimba her husband only," cut Shaka quickly and grit.
I took a long breath. Among these three younger brothers of mine, only Naro was calm and mature. It is cold but very calm. And he was the most caring and always sensitive if I experienced a variety of different feelings. Even Naro became the most comfortable place for me to go home. I feel like I have a sister when she's my sister.
"Sister, is Brother okay with Brother Rimba? Or is Rimba's brother my neighbor?" keep Shaka kepo. Though this Shaka is young and a teenager he should not have to take care of the problems of an adult like me but it seems like he does want to know my problems.
Naro looked at me silently. My sisters must have seen my unusual moves so they were very panicked and wanted to help me solve my problems. This is how we are if one of them has a problem then we will gather with each other and discuss our problems.
"Sister is fine. You guys just calm down. Brother is indeed a little problem with Rimba. But in relationships isn't that common? So you don't have to panic or worry" obviously I'm trying to convince you that I'm okay.
"Sister," Tata's tenacious squat while leaning against my arm.
I'm speechless. As much as my energy is resistant to tears that began to grow in my eyes and I look at my three brothers in turn. My heart really hurt to remember everything that happened to me.
I finally lost and this cry broke instantly. I'm not strong, I can't. What am I supposed to do? Do I have to go and give up on this journey of my life that I really don't want.
"Sister."
The three of them hugged me and the four of us wept at each other. I know that my three sisters also felt a great pain stabbing my chest.
At times like this, I sometimes get scared to go through all this with her. When we are busy with our own world. I was busy with my target, Brother Rimba was busy with his concern for the Princess. Then, slowly we became loose. I was afraid that it would weaken us. I was also afraid that it turned out that time did not always agree with us. I live my days not always meet him, because he is busy with caring for other people's children. Will we get to everything we have planned. Our dreams will stay the same forever.
"Sister don't cry" said Tata who also sobbed.
Naro and Shaka were crying too. The four of us were crying out for each other. My three sisters don't know what makes me cry.
I felt a warm rub on my back from Naro's hand. While Tata wrapped her hands around my waist and Shaka hugged me from behind. We are not as conceived but we love each other without distinguishing who is biological and who is not.
"Sister."
Naro let go of his embrace. Then she wiped my tears slowly. So did Tata and Shaka who rubbed their wet cheeks.
"Sister, if this relationship is too heavy. Let's go, Brother. Don't force yourself to love a man who doesn't appreciate you. Naro is sure one day Big Brother will find the right and good man. A man who can appreciate Brother." Naro cupped my face.
Will I fail a second time in a relationship? Is luck not on my side this time?
"Sister Rimba is not a good person for Brother" continued Naro. "If she's good, she won't leave Big Brother for another woman. Moreover, that woman had once existed in her past."
Let go of Rimba? Can I do it? I don't know how I feel about her. But seeing his attitude like this I'm not sure I can love him like I loved Mas Bintang first.
"Yes, Brother. Brother Naro is right, don't force Big Brother's heart for someone who doesn't appreciate Big Brother. Brother will be tormented if it continues to survive the wrong person," continued Tata.
All this time my mind has been tormented by two different men. They cut the wounds at the same time. After being heartbroken because of the separation with Mas Bintang, now I am also broken with his attitude Kak Rimba.
"Leave Brother Rimba, Brother!"
Seriate..