Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 3's. Move away.
I know that happiness is a choice, even though there is really nothing a human can choose. No one can be a certainty. Life is really a group of anxieties, a group of disguised fears. A strengthened fear.
And I finally chose to give up fighting for the love I had always wanted to get. There was no intention to leave because of love but this is how I erase all the chest-strewn memories.
"Nara, we're completely separated. I don't know why I always hoped that you'd come back with me. Although I know, it's all impossible. Nara, please tell me how to forget you. Why does it hurt? Why do I feel you are unhappy with Rimba even though you admit you are happy now."
Somehow I was able to catch a lie in Nara's eyes when she said it was fine in her relationship with Rimba.
I sat on the lip of the bed hugging the figura in my hand. Our wedding photo was taken a year ago. Short but full of meaning.
"Ra, if I'm not happy. You should be happy. You should be happy, Nara. Even without me. I'll be fine there. May we meet in the end as strangers."
I put my things in a suitcase. Today I will move to Singkawang with a big family. If I'm honest, I'm not ready to leave this town. I'm not ready to get out of here. But what else I need to wait for, isn't it too late? All the remaining memories will never be meaningful again.
"Son," call Mother.
Soon I wiped my tears because I didn't want to be found out that I was crying.
"Yes, Mother?" I greeted the woman with a smile.
"Is it ready?" ask Mommy.
"Already, Mother," I replied.
If there was still love in Nara's heart for me maybe I would fight for our love. But it seems that Nara's heart can no longer be owned even though I do a lot of ways.
"Yes already, come on," take Mommy.
I'm gonna try to forget about Nara. Although every time I say that sentence there's happiness missing from my chest. He could actually make everything that was originally fine crumble immeasurably. He managed to get me into that part of his life. Then I feel important there. Suddenly he chose to get rid of me with great heart. He played too sweet. I never thought that everything was called love. No more fuel to heat memories. I'm sorry, I was impressed to blame Nara when she wasn't wrong. I was wrong from the beginning. But my heart is always dissatisfied with all the pain that comes in.
Mommy and I got out of the room and dragged my suitcase. There the family members were waiting, there was my best friend Betrand too.
"May be happy, Bro." Betrand greeted me and we hugged each other.
"Thank you" I replied.
"Is everything ready?"
We all nodded. I walk towards the car. I don't know why I wish Nara would come and prevent me from leaving like in big-screen movies or FTV. But that doesn't actually apply to me. Where could Nara come? He was happy with the jungle.
"Son, why? Come on in," take Dad.
I nodded and got into the car. The journey to Singkawang is quite time consuming.
"Are you okay, Son? Can I drive?" ask Daddy who seems worried about me.
"The star's okay, Dad," I'm running a car engine.
"Mother, if later Bee has been born. Don't forget to take Kak Nara," said Bee who managed to make the three of us silenced especially me.
Mother replied with a nod. Though I know deep down his heart feels hollow.
"Oh yeah, Son. Who's the girl named Ve?" ask the father who deliberately switched the conversation.
I glanced at Dad when I mentioned the name of the girl I knew so well. These few days Ve and I rarely met because I was busy with the Bee case.
"Why, Dad?" my many.
"So, I heard that he's involved in the portitution case," Dad explained.
I was shocked and looked in disbelief. I don't know Ve's nature but he seems like a good kid especially at such a young age.
"Can't you?"
"This is viral. He said he was trapped with his friend" Dad explained.
I was silent for a moment. Ve is Nara's step-sister and until now Nara does not know where her sister is because Ve seems to deliberately keep her distance from Nara.
"Dad saw you at the same restaurant" continued Dad. Dad asked me if I knew that girl.
"Yes, Dad. The star knew him for accidentally bumping into him a few days ago" I explained. "He's Nara's half-brother" I said again.
Not only Dad was surprised but also Mother and Bee were sitting on the back bench.
"Sister Nara's stepbrother?" repeat the three of them simultaneously.
"Yes. Son of Nara's second wife. Ve's mother is still in prison for the childhood accident of Nara and Naro. Papa Nara died donating his heart to Nara." I don't really know what Nara's past was like. I also just found out that he had a heart transplant a few dozen years ago after I investigated everything.
"Nara ever had heart surgery, Mas?" ask Bee on the back bench.
"Yes" I replied.
We all fell silent. I guess the only one who doesn't know Nara's past turns out to be both of my parents as well. Maybe they are close to Daddy Dante and Mama Ara but maybe both of Nara's parents never discuss the past experienced by Nara.
"It turns out Kak Nara's past is really complicated, Bund. It's a pity, Brother Nara," said Bee leaning on Mother. "If only she was still Bee's sister-in-law. Bee must be very happy," said Nara with her own face.
It managed to make me quiet. After trying to escape from the broken and fragile heart. I tried to stand up. Anyway, I have to keep walking. I have to keep going until an unspecified time. Because I believe. One day he will return to tell me why he chose to leave. I don't know if I was too confident hoping Nara would come back.
"Although Sister Nara is no longer Bee's sister-in-law. But Brother Nara still loves Bee. So do not be sad, dear," persuaded Mother rubbing Bee distended stomach with affection.
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