Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 04's. Chapters 26.
Arianna POV.
Feelings will continue to grow with the things that are fought for. With all the dreams and efforts to achieve. Love is not limited to spoiled. There are some things that must be accepted. Job name. This one human curse often drags the body to places that make everything feel far away.
"He's healthy, honey. We're safe here. There will be nothing to hurt the four of us" I rubbed my stomach. I can't wait for my twins to arrive. Ah I think I want that day to come soon though maybe, I won't be there.
There are a few things from falling in love that end up overwhelming someone. Fighting for hope alone, for example. Something that should be turned on by both, even faced by itself. That kind of thing that will slowly kill love. Although some love is too strong, it still survives even though dying. Some choose to die rather than languish on their own. There are people who hold up to survive even though many times their feelings are sad to pieces. There are people who love blindly, no matter how often they are lied to but still choose to believe. Love is sometimes out of logic, understood only by the crazy. People who fall in it.
I might be the second. Choose to die in pieces rather than torture yourself with all the feelings that hurt the heart. Brother Naro and Mas Angga, are the two men I left behind to survive here.
"I'm sorry, Mother, yes. Mother has not been able to give the best for you. May you not experience what Mother has experienced."
The cancer cells in my body have spread to the nerves. I decided not to go through chemotherapy anymore because I was afraid it would affect my babies. I don't want them to do anything. My goal is to survive so that they stay even though I won't be able to touch or even see their faces.
"Mother misses your Dad and Papa. Forgive Mother, Son. You must be born from the womb of a cheap woman like Mother."
The words of Brother Naro who said that I am a cheap woman and ***** are still ringing in my head. Every time those words were recorded again, I had no intention of going back. It's too comfortable here for a worthless woman like me.
"Mas Angga, may you wake up again. To take care of our child later. Don't let them grow up without the affection of both parents." My tears are shed.
May I ask God to give me a chance to come back alive for a little while. I want to hold my children and give them breast milk. I bathed them. I want to put them to sleep in the silence of the night? May God have mercy on me a little? I know I'm a dirty man full of mistakes. But is there no chance at all to improve.
My pregnancy is entering its seventh month. In two months I will give birth to my three children. My time in this world is not much. But until now I have not received any forgiveness from my parents and my brothers. Will I die in hatred? Bringing up a tempestuous sin?
But with my family, I want to have a good relationship. Although falling cannot escape the pain, I can still choose more carefully. So that not suddenly the wound is not able to control the taste. Agarbtak easily crazy for ignoring logic. A feeling that grows and thrives in the chest. Let me give with all my happiness. Senaua will go well, because it must believe in the love of the universe.
However, if in the end all the apologies did not accompany my departure. I don't want to carry grudges and muffling wounds. Let me calm down with all the feel that suffocates the neck.
"Father, Mama, Brother Al, Brother El. Arin kangen with you. Why don't you forgive Arin? Do you know that in a moment, Arin will leave you. I'm sorry Arin, Pa."
If these tears could be money maybe I can already afford the plane so many tears that come out. I'm a spoiled and loathsome woman. Being used to living in luxury makes me awkward to deal with all this.
I wanted to die but in the face of death. Why am I so scared? How will my son be? Will they also have days as heavy as me? I don't want my children to suffer. I want them to be happy without me.
"Sister."
I immediately wiped my tears when I heard Anggi's voice. As a result of chemotherapy a few months ago I had to wear thick glasses because my vision began to blur and not clear. All the hair that became the crown on my head eroded away with the drugs that made it fall out.
"Sister." Anggi looked at me softly.
"Strong sister yes, the twins will be strong if the mother is also strong," said Anggi smilingly rubbing my queen's stomach.
Galaksi and Anggi are two people who have contributed to my life. They love me selflessly. Even they are willing to lose a lot of things for the sake of me surviving.
"Sister kangen with Papa and Mama, Ngi," I complained to Anggi.
"Fuck out, brother. But they've already thrown Brother. So, there's no point thinking about them anymore."
If it were all as easy as Anggi said, I might have long forgotten my family. But in fact I can't.
"The numbers have good news for Brother," said Anggi smiling widely.
"What, Nggi?" I wiped my tears violently.
"Mas Angga has woken up from his coma" Anggi said with a big smile.
I immediately fell silent. I should be happy, but why am I afraid? I'm afraid Mas Angga knows my current condition. She must be sad and hurt especially this is related to her three children.
"Big brother why?" tanya Anggi looked at my face full of probing. "Sister is not happy to hear Mas Angga is awake?" asked Anggi again looked disappointed.
I shook my head, "No. It's just that Brother doesn't want Mas Angga to know the condition of Brother now. He must be sad" I said.
"But, Kak_"
"Mas Angga is too good for Brother. Brother doesn't want to make him worry because of Big Brother's illness. Brother has not been able to meet Mas Angga and Kak Naro in this state," I said with teary eyes.
"Sister." Anggi held my hand. "However, Kak Naro and Mas Angga are two people who play a role in Big Brother's life. Mas Angga the father of a baby brother. While Brother Naro's brother's husband. They must know everything that you have been through all this time," explained Anggi.
"No, Anggi. Brother doesn't want to be a burden. At any rate, my brother is only two months away. In a moment, Big Brother will be one of the forgotten humans," I explained trying to give understanding. I don't want my family to know that I'm not okay now.
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