Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 04's. Chapters 17.
I was standing in front of papa and mama's mansion. Ever since I got married, I've never been home or just asked for news. My family really doesn't care about me.
"Guild me, Lord."
I came here just wanting to say goodbye before I finally left life in this world. After this I will undergo routine chemotherapy. Maybe my time is not much. I want to apologize in the last moments of my life. I wish I could still find an apology from the mouths of papa, Kak Al and Kak El.
"Come, Brother!" bring Anggi.
I looked at Anggi with a bit of hesitation. What if I get kicked out of here? I still remember how papa kicked me out of the room when he found out I was pregnant out of wedlock. I'm afraid it happened again the third time I came here.
"So don't be afraid, there's Anggi here." Anggi rubbed my arm as if to calm me through a swab of his hand.
I replied with a nod. I cannot deny if my heart beats when I see the house that witnesses me growing up. In the past, I was a princess who was treated well by my twin brothers. Loved and given everything I wanted.
"Eh, Non Arin," said Bik Zaenab.
"Bus."
I hugged the housekeeper who had been working for a long time in our house. I was very familiar with Bik Zaenab whom I had considered to be like my own grandmother.
"How are you, Non?" asked Bik Zaenab to release my embrace.
"Good tones, Bik. Aunt how are you?" my question while displaying a knotty smile.
"Bibi's healthy, Nope." Bik Zaenab seemed moved when she met me, this was our first meeting after I got married.
"Who's Mom, Bik?" my many.
"There's inside, Non. Let's get in!"
The three of us walked in. Every time I enter this house my heart is always comfortable and safe. I felt like this house was the best place for me to go home.
I took a deep breath and again my stomach hurt. Moreover, the age of this content has entered the fifth month, so it has begun to feel.
"Papa. Mama."
I saw my mom and dad sitting together and telling stories in the living room. They have always been so, even though the age of marriage is no longer young but their romance and harmony do not fade by time. I also want to be like that, at least before I leave this world.
"With." Mom stood up straight. Papa showed his flat face.
"Ma."
My mother walked towards me and hugged me with tears. If my mother knew that her daughter was not okay. If you knew that this daughter would not live in the world for long. Why does it hurt so much to remember that I will soon be leaving the world I live in.
"Arin kangen same mom. Forgive Arin, Ma. Forgive Arin." My crying broke instantly. I want to tell my mom that my life after marriage is not okay. Brother Naro does not treat me well. I'm just a cheap woman who doesn't expect it in her eyes.
"Mama misses you too, son. How are you doing?" Mama let go of my embrace and wiped the tears that fell rolling down my cheek.
"Good country, Ma. Mama how are you doing too?" askaku.
"Congratulations si_"
"Sister," call me.
Their faces were both cold. My two brothers sat on the couch with my dad. Both of them still refused to see me. I smiled wryly, it's not long. They will no longer be ashamed of having a child like me.
"What are you doing here?" ask Brother Al coldly.
"Son, don't do it" Mama scolded. "Come, Honey. We sit down, have you eaten?" asked Mama gently while taking me to sit on the sofa. Anggi followed us and sat down on the sofa as well.
"Arin is still full, Mother," I replied in a raucous voice.
"No need to put on a plain face, Arin. What are you doing here? Where's your husband?" ask El to chimed in.
"Sister, can't you? Don't be rude to Arin. Don't judge people as if you were the truest brother. Do not let Brother regret later," Anggi sergeant who looks with a big breath.
"Negg." I'm shaking.
"No, Brother. Brother's family has gone too far. Brother is wrong but Brother has feelings too. They can't just treat you, Brother" Anggi explained to me.
Papa, Kak Al and Kak El were like throbbing when they heard Anggi's speech. Even if they knew I was sick, they wouldn't care. For them I am a child who has defamed the family, especially papa. Papa is a respected state servant and former naval captain. Of course, she would be very embarrassed if her daughter got pregnant out of wedlock.
"You don't interfere, Anggi. You're an outsider and you don't know any of your family's problems" sister El said.
"Who said I was an outsider, brother? Arin's sister hummed my niece-in-law and she's my sister-in-law. So, he's my family too. I won't let Brother hurt Brother Arin" Anggi said with emotion.
"Fig, already. Don't mention it, "please shake my head.
"But, Kak_"
"Sister please Anggi, the purpose of Brother coming here is not to argue" I said.
Anggi seemed to take a long breath. Then nod slowly and give in. I knew Anggi meant to stand up for me but whatever he said wouldn't change my family's mindset about me.
"Son." Mama's tears were dripping and looking at me pitying. "I'm sorry Mama, yes" he said softly.
"It's not your fault." I faked a smile.
Then I looked at the three men I loved the most. In the past, I was the light and lamp in their lives. The love they give makes me want to live longer in the darkness of this world. The laughter was created as if I were the happiest person in the world. However, who would have thought that due to my stupidity I lost all that. They already hate me.
Can I be a child again? Where I don't know pain and tears. When I was a kid, I couldn't wait to grow up. But when I grow up I want to go back to the old days.
"Pa, Brother. Earlier Arin apologized that Arin embarrassed you. Forgive Arin." I bowed with a clear melt dripping.
"Arin came here, just wanted to say goodbye because after this Arin would go far, Pa. Forgive all of Arin's mistakes. Arin regretted that he had put this family to shame. Arina,... " I can't continue my words.
"Arin is happy with Arin's way of life. Arin hopes you're happy too after Arin no longer embarrasses you."
Seriate...