Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 05's. Tata Story 32's.
Just enjoy the wound process slowly but surely everything will improve again. No one knows how long it takes to heal a wound. Only, one thing is certain, later there will be someone who again fills the empty space in the heart to fall in love. Although I myself do not know, if after this can fall in love for the last time. It could have been the same person, who came back with regret and had loved me forever.
I heard Mas Rey's words. I looked into his eyes repeatedly trying to find the lies from the words that came from his lips. I don't know, the great heartbreak I've been through has made me a little cautious and hesitant to start a relationship.
"Mas." My tongue.
Because falling in love is things that are not always able to be called by the word; sometimes only incarnate eye-to-eye and degup in the chest. So, I just leave all this frozen lips in the face of his eyes, in the span of your arms, on the small talk that I hold so as not to quickly pass. I, have tried brokenly cursing the time holding you back with all the rumbling in my chest. Something I ended up concluding as a longing.
"Mas knows the heartbreak you feel is still imprinted," he said slowly as he rubbed my head. "Mas is different from Gevan. Mas doesn't promise to make you and Lala happy but Mas will prove that Mas loves you sincerely and as you are" he again assured me.
There are a few things from falling in love that end up overwhelming someone. Fighting for all hope alone, for example. Something that should have been brought to life by both, faced by itself. That kind of thing that will slowly kill love even though some love is too strong, still survive even though dying. Some choose to die rather than languish themselves. There are people who hold up to survive even though many times their feelings are sad to pieces. There are people who love blindly, no matter how often they are lied to but still choose to believe.
"Mas." I forced a smile.
"Mas knows you will refuse" he said smiling wryly. "Mas not forcing, Ta. Your feelings will not change until anytime. I've been in love with you since we first met" she said.
I don't want to be eaten up by that. All men are always so if first want to get. However, after getting into the grasp of his hand he will be released so easily, for example Mas Gevan.
"Mas." I am not afraid, but rather afraid. "I'm still scared" I said honestly.
"Mas understand. Mas won't be forced but allow Mas to always be by your side." Rey pulled me into her arms. "Mas is just like you, afraid to fall in love."
I wrapped my hand around Mas Rey's waist while closing my eyes. The Queen Mother's accusation was still ringing in my head. Lala just wanted to feel the process of happiness. However, he had to be broken by the reality that blew away his body.
I'm not as good as him at forgetting. Can't get to me that fast. However, I believe that second by second I will kill all the beats that still want it. I'll immerse him deeper in the deepest recesses of the wound. I won't let a second for him breathe quietly in my head. There is no place for someone who has hurt my heart. It's just, I need time, things aren't easy for me. Let everything go slowly. Because in the end he will no longer be in the part I want.
"Mas, don't leave me!" shirihku.
"Mas won't go, Ta. They will always be there for you. We're dealing with this together."
Unknowingly my tears are dripping. It's not just about the wounds in my heart. However, it was also about the pain that was in Lala's heart and body.
"Mama, why are you crying?"
I immediately let go of Mas Rey's embrace and wiped my tears and walked towards Lala's bed. Rey came from behind.
"Mama's okay, son," I replied forcing a smile.
"Mama, where's papa? He said he wanted Lala's bribe!" Lala's face looked sad.
Mas Gevan should have understood and understood, I survived for months. I became half sane. Approaching sakau. He knew but was like half-hearted and let me give up in time. He was not able to convince me like I fought for and defended him. I won't regret anything about his treatment. I understand, I'm in great love with him. This feeling is too hard for me to break, even though my heart has been defeated. He is still someone I love very much. Someone who once drained warm water. Gevan is still my love. The earnestness of the life I missed, although it felt sad when I remembered it.
"Later papa will come," I replied.
"Ma, why is Aunt Queen angry with Mama?" This child of mine has the highest soul of knowing desire. So, he would not stop asking until he found the answer to the question he was asking.
"Lala, bribed with just Om Rey, will you?" mas Rey is chiming in.
"You, Om," Lala replied.
"Alright, now open Lala's mouth!" have Mas Rey point the spoon in Lala's mouth.
Lala ate voraciously while being fed by Mas Rey. I know he misses his father. Hopefully, Mas Rey can really be the best person for me to come home to. Become the most comfortable place to lean later.
"Eat a lot to heal quickly. Lala's not bored here?" ask Mas Rey while poking Lala's chin.
"Yes, Om."
I smiled knots, at least the presence of Mas Rey was able to treat the wound in Lala's heart because of her own papa.
Not long after, Galactic Sister and Doctor Hansel entered Lala's hospital room.
"Ta," said Galactic Brother.
"Sister." I stood up and hugged my brother.
Galactic brother rubbed my back. "You are strong" he said.
"I'm scared, Brother. I'm afraid I'm losing Lala." It's not that I don't know if after chemotherapy Lala's condition isn't okay. Galactic sister has explained all the possibilities that Lala will pass after this.
"We leave everything to God." Galactic Brother took off my embrace and rubbed my wet cheek.
My ex-husband, Mas Gevan, half my soul still settles on the rest of my pocket. In the rest of the soft kisses that slowly finish me off. He remains someone I know very well. Don't give up on life. Now I let him walk away. However, I never really let go of his soul binding my soul. He never really could be erased from my memory. It's just that, I get it, I'm learning to be happy again. I need to be able to calm my anxiety. I must be able to learn that reality is now destroying the defenses I built to love me.
"Prepare yourself! After this Lala will experience all the conditions that might take her life."
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