Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 3's. We are left behind.
"What?" pekik Ve was surprised. "Seriously Sister Nara's ex-wife, Om?" ask Ve again. The girl seemed surprised to find out that Nara was my ex-wife.
I responded with a nod. The look in my eyes didn't shift a bit from Nara. Just a few days apart from her, that woman had already made me miss half to death. If only time could be reworked, I promise I would never waste it.
"Why divorce, Om?"
Questions I can't answer. Even though I was wrong because it had cracked our household life. However, I somehow refused to tell Ve everything. Moreover, we just know each other and he is still a child, of course, will not understand the meaning of the pain of a separation.
"Badah Kak Nara seems like a good person, Om," Ve continued.
We were both busy talking about Nara like people were gossiping. As Ve said that Nara is a good person. My ex-wife is a kind and gentle woman. It's just that I'm the fool for letting go of him just because of my own ego.
"What's the problem, Om?" ask Ve once again without caring about me who just kept quiet.
"You're a kid. I don't understand adult affairs" I said. "Rapidly eat, after which take your medicine. Let me drive you home and you rest" I said, taking my food.
"No need to be in between, Om. Ve can go home alone. Ve's leg is no longer sore" he refused.
I'm nodding. I forced the rice into my mouth. My throat was blocked when I saw how happy Nara was there with Rimba and Naro. That smile used to be mine and always welcomed me warmly. But now the smile is gone.
We are still left here with a million unresolved feelings of selfishness. Not us, I mean me, yes I am still leaving a feeling for Nara who now does not even want to look at me anymore. Does Nara know? The hardest thing in life is to forget and erase everything about it. I need some time, how long do I know?
"Om, still in love with Sister Nara?" ask Ve again after I've been quiet for quite a while.
I didn't answer. If asked if I still love Nara? I still love him and even love him. I can't describe my feelings for my ex-wife. For me, Nara is a woman I will never forget.
"Eat, don't talk much" I said.
"People ask not even answered," protested Ve eating in annoyance.
We both continued our food. People say if you have never eaten while crying means the wound in your heart is nothing. If a person eats while crying it means that the wound in my heart is really bad. As strong as my energy is resistant to tears that want to come out of my eyes kerling.
After I finished eating I immediately took Ve away from the restaurant because I could not see the view that completely crushed the entire chest.
Understand, I can never get to anything. If I never really wanted to let go completely. I just want Nara to go through this with something new. Let all that has been past be truly left behind and dated. Don't bring anything, because I've done the same. I love her by letting go of the story of my last day. However, for some reason the shadow of Nara's face still flashed and flashed in my head.
"Nara."
I don't know when I'm gonna be like this? I don't know when I'll continue to mourn Nara's departure? Being in my position is not easy. Perhaps this is the law of karma I received for betraying my own wife.
"Aragh!"
I hit the steering wheel repeatedly to vent the anger and also disappointment that settles in there. How long am I like this? How long can I live as quietly as my past life? Losing Nara is like losing the most important particles in my life.
In prayer and as I still hope that Nara will come back to me. I wish he would accept me again. Although the reality is very small.
My eyes glazed over and tears blotted out the cheeks rushing as if to indicate that I had been defeated by a fate that could blow it away. It took me a minute to fall in love with Nara but it took me a lifetime to forget the woman I love.
Release, he said. Or at the end of the day I will get hurt. Nara said those words to me many times when I asked her to give me one more chance. It was as if he had prepared everything for me. I'll be the one who gets hurt. Then, was I the only one in love while Nara wasn't? But how can it be? From the beginning Nara said that she fell in love with me at the beginning of our meeting at that time. I never wanted to blame him. Although seidh feels separated in this way. Where I found out those feelings after Mona's betrayal.
"Nara, sorry. I never knew how you suffered before. I'm sorry if I even hurt you more at our wedding."
Hearing Ve's story earlier I understood that Nara's childhood was much more painful than I imagined. I did know him from childhood but we were not close, especially when I chose to continue my studies outside the island. Nara is a cheerful woman who rarely tells her mood to others. He seemed strong and strong in the face of all the realities in his life.
My car entered the yard. His intention was that I wanted to finish my job. However, the meeting with Nara at the restaurant earlier left my mood shattered.
"Mas," call Bee.
"What's up, Bee?" I wiped my tears violently. Don't let Bee know if I just finished crying.
"Mas, crying?" ask Bee to look at my face.
I shook my head, "No," I.
"Definitely still thinking of Nara?" guess Bee again. "Yes, let's sit down, Mom. It just so happened that Dad and Mommy were having a meeting with Uncle Zaenal," Bee asked me to sit on the sofa.
"What do you want to talk about?" I asked Bee.
Bee let out a long breath. Then I looked at me with glass. What's wrong with my sister.
"Bee, what's wrong with you?" I was panicking wiping Bee's wet cheeks.
"Dude, Bee......"
I looked at my sister inside. I've never seen Bee cry like this when she was an adult. Although she was a spoiled and stubborn girl but abstained from tears. If she had cried like this, there must have been something that had really happened to her.
"Come on, tell me why are you?" my insistence. Seeing my sister cry makes me panic if she feels pain or something happens to her.
"Bee's pregnant, Mas."
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Seriate....