Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Old feelings
BEFORE READING DO NOT FORGET TO CULTIVATE LIKE YAA YES GUYS..........
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We gathered at the dinner table. The Doctor of Heaven and Dusk and with his two children, Bintang and Bianca. This family always looks happy. Honestly, many are envious of the life of the Sky and Dusk Doctor, many hope that later they will have the same family as them including me.
Senja Mentari, I used to be really crazy about this woman. She was a quiet woman who looked mysterious. When betrayed by her husband she seemed devastated, let alone the betrayal occurred due to Dusk barren by doctors. But look now, his life is much better when he finds someone truly right.
"Let's eat, please" said Papa.
"Thank you Sir" said the Sky Doctor.
"Bee want to eat with Daddy or with Mommy?" Dusk seemed to be stirring up the food in his plate.
"Just like Mother" replied the five-year-old girl.
Me and Ara were both silent. To be honest, she had a feeling of envy embedded in her chest. We both failed in our homes. The couple we had chosen with all our heart turned out to be heart-piercing with a dagger. Then let all the flavors become dead. Until slowly the feeling that used to be passionate now does not want to live anymore.
"Mama, bribe."
Until our daydreams spread when we heard the call from Al and El who asked Ara to feed them.
The gaze of eyes was directed at me and Ara let alone hearing the nickname pinned by my two twin sons.
"Here dear," said Ara softly.
We continued eating and occasionally interspersed with warm and short chats. Nara and Bianca's babble echoed on the table let alone there was Mama who was chatty not playing. While Ara and Dusk just smiled knots. Papa, me and the Sky Physician were also in conversation. Unlike the Stars and Naro who seem silent and engrossed in eating as well as with their own world.
Every now and then I glanced at Dusk who had become someone else's wife. The only way to make the heart feel calm because of the love that cannot be held is to pull over. Get far. Keep distance. Things that all this time might have done pocket. I always had a reason to leave and always had a reason not to remember the taste that was still in my chest.
I went as far as I could to forget all the feelings that were in my chest and chose to marry Chelsea, hoping that she would be the last port of love that I had not been able to find a place to stop by. However, all of them created such a deep wound in my heart.
Now, why am I still pounding when I see a smile that actually belongs to someone else. There must be something wrong with my heart. I shouldn't have let this long-overdue feeling settle in my chest. I don't want to sin because I love people's wives. It's enough, the hurt that I felt because of the betrayal of Chelsea, now I don't want to be hurt anymore because of the impossible feelings.
Memory likes to take steps. However, everything that went away eventually changed. All that is lost, let it be lost. Now a new step has arrived. Start with a more loyal heart. Maybe I just need time to be able to rise from all the heartbreaks that make me live helplessly. After this I will start a new life and set a new heart. Twilight and Chelsea are the two women who have been the most important part of my life. I don't want to be stuck with the feelings of the past. Even if one day I do not find true love, I will not force my heart. As long as my two children are fine then my life will also be much better.
I accidentally glanced at Ara. I understand his hurt feelings right now, because I already felt the pain of a betrayal. I hope the same, may Ara also find her happiness later.
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"Yes Ra," I said.
Ara raised Nara's body while I raised Naro's body. These two children were like he had fallen asleep from exhaustion. Just finished eating these kids playing chases in Al and El's room, moreover there is an active Bianca so amazing.
"Thank you, Ta" said Ara to take me to the front of the car.
"Together Ra," I reply.
We both stood in front of the car staring at the stars scattered in the night sky. New life is much happier. Sadness and pain that used to be impregnated, I swallowed it already. It becomes a new spirit. Chelsea was the one who failed to break my spirit by breaking my heart. Because, I understand, life is too precious to be spent with a taste of grief. Now, everything has returned well. I make sure there's no time to mourn this pain. I have fallen and surrendered to a new heart. But I don't know who I don't know, maybe it'll come right up to me.
"So much the same feeling?" guess Ara glanced at me.
"The same feeling?" my forehead shriveled in wonder.
"Senja Mentari," said Ara chuckled softly.
I pranced in shock, from where did Ara know about this. Though I never tell the problem of feelings towards anyone, including Ara.
"Definitely surprised?" Ara laughed softly.
"You know where it came from?" ask me to investigate.
"We don't know a day or two, Ta. I've known Manh since a dozen years ago, so it's only natural that I know what you're thinking" explained Ara as she looked up at the night sky.
"You want to laugh at me?" I squinted my eyes suspiciously.
Ara smiled, "Make what? What's in it?" ask her while smiling. "I just want to say, Ta. Before you drown far away with your own feelings. You better immediately forget the taste that should not exist," said Ara while giving advice.
I looked into his eyes under the starry sky. Why Ara's smile this time was so much different than usual. My heart that normally could only be shaken by Dusk was now pounding staring at Ara. Yes Ara was right before I was completely immersed in this impossible feeling, I had to take action to immediately remove all the twilight and Chelsea.
"I said it because I used to be in your position. But now that I realize Ta, happiness is not just about being with the people you love. But happy is when you sincerely release something that is not created for you," explained Ara.
I nodded in agreement, which Ara said was true that it was when it was able to accept the path of destiny that the Creator had chosen.
Seriate...