Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 05's. Tata Story 39's.
I know sometimes it feels sad when longing feels so painful. When wanting to share each other unwind, but must learn to accept to be able to meet easily. I want to share my grievances through mobile phones like people do when they feel longing for people separated by distance. It felt so tight and tormented the chest.
What I and Mas Gevan have been living this heart we never planned before. Suddenly time brought us back together after a few days apart. We agreed to separate well, even though in the end only get hurt because there is still love in the heart. Learn to develop feelings for new people. We learn from each other. I try to understand the love that once stirred in my chest. Trying to put the past aside. Trying to cultivate new feelings in order to grow bloom beautifully. But in reality forgetting is not that easy.
Does anyone know? Sicker than losing someone? Imagine a time when someone loved. He's the one on the side. However, his heart could never truly be possessed.
Happiness comes when feelings are reciprocated. The love he used to say was reciprocated by the same pronunciation, he also loved. He was soulful beside me. Make good plans with him. There was no one else in his heart. No love was flowing in his chest.
After the rain is over, the leaves will again try to rise from the storm and water. And the sun is not tired of shining again. In life there are always strong people.
In time, the future is always replaced with readiness. Nothing makes this heart feel calm and comfortable there will always be worries when facing things that have happened beyond expectations. I don't know until when all these feelings will get better as before.
"Mas Gevan."
I opened the brown envelope. The heart was pounding as if it was racing showing its vibration.
"Sir, Ta."
The only way to make the heart feel calm because love that cannot be held is to pull over. Get far. Keep distance. All this time it was impossible to do. I could never really feel like leaving, now I have to slowly walk away and keep my distance from Mas Gevan. Loving Mas Gevan is the greatest gift even though it will only be a memory later.
However, God always wins to give what His servant undertakes. I have harbored all these painful feelings for a long time and I can. If I am tired now, maybe it is also God's way of giving time to stop or enjoy a pause. I really have no choice. Stop or pause. I can't really stop thinking about Mas Gevan but I can pause and take a break to gather the absorbed energy because of all the events that have befallen my life.
I saw the home certificates and other valuable assets in my name. Everything belongs to Mas Gevan he gave me. I don't know what that means? There was no Lala's name or anyone else there. My name is the only one. Is it possible that Mas Gevan already knew of his death and Lala?
"Dear Tata's.
Hi, Sweetheart. Howareyou? Sorry for everything. They have hurt your heart. They betrayed your trust. You know, honey, I'm sorry for betraying you. I know that whatever you do will not be able to heal the wounds in your heart. One thing that Mas knows that all this time the child conceived Queen is not the child Mas. Mas knew it all while secretly doing a DNA test. At that time I was eager to tell you the truth. But I realized you wouldn't believe it. There's not much Mas wants to say, Mas just wants you to know that Mas loves you very much. If given a second chance Mas will not waste you again. Mas gave all of Mas's belong to you, Mas hope you can take good care of him and for Lala, you must know one thing that Lala will not be able to heal even if doing a spinal cord transplant. Mas pamit yes, somehow Mas feel will not live long in this world. Take care of yourself, Mas and Lala love you. We're waiting for you in the second life
Dearly
Gevan Mahardika's.