Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 05's. Tata Story 38's.
"Tag."
I looked up when someone called my name. I was surprised to see Queen Ma'am sitting in a wheelchair with a bandage around her head.
"Sir Queen?" muttered.
A nurse pushed Queen's wheelchair closer to me.
"What's up, Ma'am?"
The resentment and disappointment that has been transformed into the debris of revenge. I consider Queen as my own brother. However, he instead had the heart to destroy the trust I had built up with great difficulty. He stayed in our house with the intention of doing good. But he took my husband.
"What else do you want, Ma'am?" many cold.
I just got home from Lala's funeral and tried to calm myself down with everything I'm going through right now. Trying to find the existence of the heart that I should inhabit.
"Bak's sorry" he said, sounding soft.
If an apology can bring my little family back to what it used to be, maybe I'll forgive Queen. However, the apology is like no longer useful and free to be issued.
I just kept quiet and had no intention of getting a word out of my lips. I feel tired of talking about things I don't really want to talk about.
"Bak knows what Mbak has done really makes you disappointed" he said again.
The woman nodded for a moment. He rubbed his flat stomach. Last time I met yesterday, his stomach was still bulging and big, but now it's just flat petit.
"Mr's sorry," he continued.
I sat on the lip of the bed. While Ma'am Queen is not far from the position I sit. I took the still intact family photo. If I could go back a few months ago, I wouldn't have wasted the opportunity. I want to be a full-fledged housewife and just take care of my son and husband. Prepare supplies for them and hug them when morning comes.
Now everything is different from what was once called a plan. I have chosen my own path, though no one accompanies me through all this. I let everyone stay away, because what it means to keep something that always makes it fragile. I learned a reality I never thought of before. I'm looking for a way to understand what's going on. Although never with all my heart.
I thought this was God's plan because he wanted me to be a better human being. However, it turned out that this was indeed the path of destiny that I had to go through. It's hard to be between the three points between yesterday and the life I never wanted to have.
There are a few things from falling in love that end up overwhelming someone. Fighting for hope alone, for example. Something that should be turned on by both, even faced by itself. That kind of thing that will slowly kill love. Although some love is too strong, it still survives even though dying. Some choose to die rather than languish on their own. There are people who hold up to survive even though many times their feelings are sad to pieces. There are people who love blindly, no matter how often they are lied to but still choose to believe. Love is sometimes out of logic, understood only by the crazy. People who fall in it.
"Why should you regret it? Isn't this what you wanted, to take Mas Gevan and destroy my household?" I said and did not intend to look at the face of the woman who looked dying with her current appearance. I heard from Galactic Sister and Auny that Queen Mother had a permanent paralysis in her leg.
"I'm sorry Ma'am." Her crying sounded from the direction I was sitting. But I don't care at all. Whatever he explains will not be able to return Mas Gevan and Lala back into my arms.
However, with my ex-husband of course I want to have a good relationship. Although falling cannot escape the pain, I can still choose more carefully. So that not suddenly the wound is not able to control the taste. Agarbtak easily crazy for ignoring logic. A feeling that grows and thrives in the chest. Let me give with all my happiness. Everything will go right, because it must believe in the love of the universe.
"I'm sorry it's just free. Those who leave will not come back. The lost ones will not appear again. Life's ruined. Everything I have is gone. Now, I'm alone. I lost everything good in my life. Mas Gevan was my first love, the man who loved me really. Although in reality it was he who broke my life completely."
The crying that I had been holding back broke through my cheeks. There is nothing in this world that can be the reason I live happily. If these tears could be money maybe I can already afford the plane so many tears that come out. I'm a spoiled and loathsome woman. Being used to living in luxury makes me awkward to deal with all this.
"I've raised Mbak as my own brother. But, what did Mama do? Ma'am with the heart to ruin all the happiness I have. What's my fault, Ma'am? Am I really wrong in my eyes? Am I really the evil man in Mommy's eyes?" I looked at him with hate. I hate him so much.
"Yes!" Queen's mother was crying too. "I'm sorry Ma'am. Maam regrets. I'm sorry, Ta. You should know that Gevan loves you very much."
I grumbled at his words. If Mas Gevan loves me, he shouldn't have put a third person in our household. But in fact, he instead let the wound on this chest grow bracing.
"Mas Gevan never loved me. If he loves me, he can't have betrayed behind me" I said, staring at Queen's mother.
"Everything wrong Mbak who teases Gevan," he said.
I laughed sweetly. If indeed Mas Gevan's love is very big to me, he will not be easily tempted even if tempted by other women.
"Yes!" call Queen Mother again. The nurse pushed Queen's wheelchair closer to me.
I kept quiet without even looking back or answering. The pain in my chest had incarnated into hatred.
I have always believed that there is nothing eternal about sadness. Or from whatever it is. There are only people who have survived together throughout their ages. And, that's not an eternity. It was an attempt to keep the deal. While someone who can't keep the chance. So, there's no more reason to let you stay here. Although it comes occasionally to the head, really my chest no longer needs taste.
"It's from Gevan. Ma found this in his room. Gevan has everything ready for you." Queen's mother handed me a large brown envelope.