Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 04's. Chapters 25.
I sat with a blank look. In his hand held a figura containing a photo of a beautiful woman. I held onto the figura and looked at it with a clear melt flowing down the cheek.
My appearance is messy and unkempt. Ruffled hair. The eyes of the panda and the body also look thin.
"Where are you, Arin? I miss. I miss your cooking. Where are you?" While rubbing the figura.
I put the photo over my chest, responding to the events of someone who's been missing for the past few months. Missing. Go awayl. Not sure where?
"What you say is true. That I'll regret it after you're gone and gone. But can I regret wasting you? I don't love you. But why do I feel like my life has been empty ever since you left my life. I feel like my life really doesn't matter" I said. My regrets won't find the end of a story. It has already thrown my body into reality.
I stared blankly out the window. A mirage of the beauty of the stars scattered in the night sky. They lined up like they were deliberately making fun of me.
This house looks quiet and quiet. No more women would greet me every time I came home from work. No more sweet, spoiled smiles asking me to taste the food.
"Star, I'm a bad husband to a good wife. Now I regret hurting my wife. Now he's really gone and proved his word but why do I feel like half my soul is gone. Am I starting to love my wife? And realize my feelings after she went missing and left me?"
A miss who finds no common ground. Farewell is a living proof that there is no eternal togetherness in this world. Longing is about a sense that cannot be fused separated by sparse space and time. Then what if it misses someone whose existence is out of nowhere? Its existence is hidden in the bowels of the earth. I feel that miss is so torturous.
I closed my eyes for a moment. Remembering the cry begging my wife that night again made my heart feel like it was hit by thousands of tons of stones to make her heart shatter formless. Evil, so evil that's who I am. Even if I do a lot for my wife, I will not be able to atone for all the sins and wrongs I have committed.
"I missed you. Miss you so much. God gave me one chance to go through all my mistakes. I promise I'll make her happy and look after her for the rest of my life." I held onto the chest holding tightness that started attacking.
I'm tired of crying. Crying as hard as anything won't make those who leave come back who are lost appear again. If I could regret it, he was very sorry. Hugely. Deeply sorry. But is it just regretting that everything will return to how it was. Can't take something that's missing in your hand.
I stood up from my seat. I rubbed my face violently, then walked towards his bed. He broke down my body and hugged a shabby shirt to treat any longing.
I lay in my wife's room. Impregnate the smell of his body that is still attached to the top of this thin mattress. Tears are unstoppable how many have fallen.
"Sister."
I glanced at Shaka who walked into the room. I don't care about anyone, I just want to meet Ariana. I just want to see my wife's face. I want to find him and say sorry.
"Until when will you be like this? Brother must fight to find Arin."
In fact I can't persuade Auny to say where Ariana is. He seemed to deliberately torment me with endless regret.
"If this kind of brother continues? Brother won't be able to see Arin again."
How could I not be fragile after knowing many things that really hit my chest. I'm tormented by all the regrets that remind me of all about Ariana.
"Sister is sorry, Shaka," I said softly with a clear melt dripping down my cheek.
"Shaka knows Brother is sorry. But you can't keep thinking without trying. Come, Brother. Find Arin's sister!" shaka urged.
However, even if Ariana is found. He won't pick me because Mas Angga has woken up from his coma. I know how much Ariana loved that guy. In fact, he used to look very spoiled at Mas Angga.
"Sister regrets hurting Arin" I said.
"Shaka knows, Brother," said Shaka.
I've been trying to find Ariana's whereabouts. However, until now I have not found him where he is. He was lost like he was swallowed by the earth, not even a trace of him was visible on the ground. Where the hell's he going? Is she okay? Is he still alive?
"Come, Brother. Rise up!" Shaka reached out to me so I could wake up.
I welcome Shaka's hand. Then look at the face of my sister who is still sitting in this college.
"First, Mas Bintang also did wrong and wasted Kak Nara. But he struggled and tried to get sorry. And prove that he regretted all his actions. Now, you can see! They've been living happily together" explained Shaka, which made me realize what had happened to me all along.
"But Brother's mistakes are not forgivable" I said. I'm a pessimist I can't get an apology from Ariana. "And, Arin. He must have felt pain every time he saw Brother," I looked down embarrassed by all my actions.
"Sister, everyone is guilty and everyone deserves a chance to right their wrongs" Shaka said.
"Come on. There's Daddy with Mama outside," Shaka asked.
I nodded while wiping my tears violently. Then get off my wife's little bed. Some time ago my family chose to stay here and accompany me through all the turmoil in the chest. Although it feels tight but I try to be strong and able to pass all the pain that feels strangling the neck.
"Son."
"Ma."
I hugged Mama. Apologizing to this woman because I have failed to keep her chosen wife.
"I'm sorry Naro, Ma. Forgive Naro," I said regretfully.
His fragile hand stretched out rubbing my shoulder. I know he's disappointed and angry at what I did to my own wife. However, he tried to hold back his feelings so as not to hurt me. Mama was the best woman to rebuke me when I was wrong.
"Naro failed to keep Arin, Ma. Naro had already wasted a woman as good as him."
I can feel the tears of Mama who fell on her cheek and then hit my shoulder to absorb on the clothes I wear.
"Naro loves Arin, Ma."
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