Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 3's. Refuse to separate
I opened my eyes slowly. My head still feels heavy and throbbing pain. I looked into this familiar room.
"Where am I?"
I'm trying to collect a million lives that feel lost somewhere? I leaned my back against the headbord of this king-size bed. I don't know what happened last night? Why am I in my old room?
I fell silent as I remembered Nara, my wife. Where's my wife? Why am I here? Didn't I go home last night?
"Son."
I saw Mommy enter the room with a tray that contained what?
"Mother." I forced a smile at the middle-aged woman walking towards my bed.
Mother put the tray. Then sit on the lip of the bed. His smile seemed to wake me from my nightmare. This woman didn't give birth to me, but I felt comfortable being around her. Moreover, he loves me without distinguishing between me and Bee. He gave me love I never had before from a mother. He took care of me and raised me with tenderness and affection.
"Still dizzy?" guess it's sorting my head.
"Little, Mother." I cringed in pain. My head still feels so dizzy.
"You take a shower first. Still stinks of alcohol. Eat right away" he said softly. This woman has always been able to make my restless soul disappear. His soft language made me feel like I was realising what life should be.
"Yes, Mother." I looked at my blanket.
"After a shower and breakfast, meet Dad in the living room. There's something I want to talk about," explained Mommy.
I'm nodding. Then Mother came out of my room. While I walked slowly towards the bathroom. My head was still throbbing pain like it was being squeezed. I don't know how much wine went into my mouth last night. I avoided the drink but now the drink was like an outburst of anger and disappointment.
I let the water coming out of this shower divide my fragile body.
And now it's time I realized one thing. I really lost Nara. Nara is no longer the most important part of my life. Everything I had ever hoped for and dreamed of, had already become futile. Now the feeling is incarnating away and not coming back. I don't want my wife to be a stranger to something I dream of.
However I never denied, Nara became one person who was so important to my life journey. She's a woman I can't let go of. She was a universe I never fought for even though I insisted on keeping her by my side. She's a woman I can't forget, I can't. Because my feelings for Nara are bigger than my feelings for Mona. Many regrets are now incarnated into a sense of regret even though it is painful to hear the words of Nara who wants to part with me. Nara should know, my heart will not calm when it misses me. There is no calmness in this difficult journey.
"Please don't leave me, Nara. Please don't go. I'm sorry."
I know my request is selfish. I have hurt and healed the wound in my wife's heart. But I also refused to part with him. I wanted to be a wound healer even though Nara would probably never give me one chance to right all those wrongs.
After a long time I have been walking through my body. I wrapped the towel around my waist and came out of the bathroom. I thought after taking a bath this restless mind would be eroded. In fact no, my heart was getting broken and broken when I remembered Nara's words asking to part with me.
I took the clothes in the closet. Then choose one of the clothes that are in there.
I saw the food that Mother brought. My net back glazed until it pulled out a clear circle that escaped. Remembering Nara who had a hard time getting up early that day just to make breakfast for. But I easily said that I would have breakfast with my girlfriend. I can't imagine how hurt Nara's heart is.
I sat down and picked up the tray and held it while crying. The regret that was coming in filled my chest. I can't live this life if I'm really separated from Nara. Getting used to it made me feel like I couldn't turn away. Especially now that I love my wife.
"Give me one chance to mend our relationship, Nara. Ii'm sorry. Ii'm sorry. I love you, very. I know it's too late. But may I ask not to go."
I not only seduced Nara but also seduced God. So that God will take my side to live happily with my wife. I know that my mistakes cannot be forgiven and forgiven. But isn't everyone ever guilty? Doesn't everyone have a chance to correct all his mistakes? Does that not apply to me?
"I think after parting ways with you everything will be fine, Ra. It turns out that losing you wasn't as easy as I imagined. The pain I created now is eating me slowly."
I put this rice in my mouth while crying. The word of the greatest heartbreak is when eating while crying. Although it tastes tight but without taste this food becomes a booster even though it is not a healer.
"Hyx hyx hyx hyx hyx."
It's about a heartbroken boy and that boy is me. I actually let this wound run until it bleeds. If only I had accepted Nara since we were married, it wouldn't have been like this. Nara and I will live happily. But my feelings have been frozen with Mona's false love and finally the pseudo-love managed to become me in the palace of love that we like.
"Nara."
I roared, whimpered, cried my best friend maybe. It doesn't matter if my image as a doctor is tarnished just because of my concern. I don't care how many tears come out and maybe my eyes have swollen because most of them are crying.
"Hyx hyx hyx hyx hyx hyx."
I refuse to separate. I strongly resisted. Can Nara understand my feelings? Can Nara know how this taste is getting hot and melted into my chest? I don't care if it looks like Nara's beggar came back to me and let me have one chance to fix everything. I regret. I regret. Do people know that this curiosity won't go away until later?
"Mas."
I looked up when I heard someone call my name.
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