Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Nara's Fragility
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Feelings will continue to grow with the things that are fought for. With all the dreams and efforts to achieve. Love is not limited to spoiled. There are some things that must be accepted. Job name. This one human curse often drags the body to places that make us far away.
I try to explain everything that is gone and lost. I want to live my life, like a woman in general. Take care of children and shape their future. Trying to forget everything that hit the chest. I know this isn't easy. But I want to keep walking while holding the hands of my two children. Even after this I don't know what will happen to me. I'm afraid, the thing I'm afraid will happen. Where I felt that everything was fine, then came a bitter reality that I should not have known.
"Hiks hyks hyx."
Nara's crying still broke inside the BTN restroom I bought.
"I'm sorry Mama, son." Only an apology can I say.
"Mama, Nara wants to see Papa. Nara kangen Papa, Ma," Nara's retarded still keukeh wants to meet her Papa.
If I could wake the dead, I would make Nara's request come true. But I am just an ordinary human now living in the horn of destiny's journey.
"You must be sincere, dear. Papa was happy there. Papa stayed in Nara's heart for as long as he did," I said, stroking her fragile back.
Little Nara, my 10-year-old daughter has had to feel the destruction of her life. Imagine being at an age that should have enjoyed playing with her friends, but she instead became a precocious adult.
"Hiks hyks, Mama."
My clothes got wet from Nara's tears. I understand his hurt feelings. I understand how girls are devastated when they lose a father forever. I understand that, I understand that. Now I feel the same. When I found out that I was also present in an undesirable state.
"We have to get through this, honey. There is Mama and Naro who will accompany you. You are not alone" I said softly. I must marry with my heart and feelings, to kill all the yearning that swoops in.
"But Nara wants to meet Papa, Ma," Nara's fiancee.
I closed my eyes for a moment. It felt like my chest was being overwritten by thousands of tons of stones. The thing that I was afraid of actually happened, where Nara would still yank away asking that she be met with Mas Galvin. If I could, I'd like to see Mas Galvin too.
I let go of Nara's embrace, "Honey, Nara can no longer meet Papa. Papa's gone forever. Papa won't come back to us" I explained, rubbing his wet cheeks. While Naro, crying in silence. I know Naro is not as strong as he says he is. He is a heartbroken boy who lost his father.
Nara was silent when I said that. Does Nara understand death? Does he know that a man who has been gone forever cannot return even if the world is turned upside down five hundred million times.
"Hiks torso Mama." Her tears were shedding again with great force.
When you lose a loved one, your tears should not be completely dry. Crying can, even. But remember not to wail. But that sentence doesn't apply to me and Nara.
Long Nara cried in my arms, so I could not hear the song of the sobbing sound from her mouth. Tired of crying, Nara fell asleep comfortably. Tears still shed even though his eyes were closed.
I lay this little body down slowly. Her eyes swelled and her hair was strained as most were crying. What a pity my little daughter, her body must be hit by an unusual disease. Now his soul was shaken violently after the departure of the person he loved.
"One day you'll understand, son. Why is Papa doing this for you? I hope you don't blame yourself. Stay strong, dear."
"Son, let's just sleep here to take care of Brother" I told Naro.
I rubbed the wet cheek of this little guy. My source of strength is the two of them. I promise I will provide the happiness that both of them deserve later. A bright future and a good life. Maybe it won't be the same as before. There will be something missing in our chest cavity.
Naro climbed onto the left bed and hugged his older brother. I was on the right side and also hugged Nara's body.
The three of us hugged each other. Embracing each other and strengthening in helplessness, there are many things we cannot explain after losing someone we truly love.
"Mama, good night" said Naro.
"Good sleep, Mama's son, too" I said.
I can't sleep. I have tried to close this eye but still it feels reluctant to be closed, especially in a state of helplessness like this. My mind was running everywhere. Thinking of all the burdens that hit my shoulders.
I woke up and sat on the bed. Nara and Naro are asleep. Tired of crying to make Nara unconscious that she slept in a state of crying.
I'm out of the room. BTN has only two rooms. While the room that I used to occupy, is now a resting place for father and mother.
"Not sleeping, Ra?" ask Mother.
"Not yet, ma'am" I replied.
I sat on a wooden chair in the living room.
"Nara's okay?" guess Mother.
"He's like he's in shock, ma'am," I replied with a long sigh.
"It's okay. Later he will understand and get used to it," explained Mother.
Yes maybe Nara will understand, but it's not an easy thing for her. Let alone the mind of a child who is still very innocent and continues to hope his Papa can return. But the truth is that it is impossible.
"Ra," call Mom.
"Yes, why?" I smiled warmly at this woman I loved so much. While Dad's resting.
"Didn't you want to find your biological parents? Who knows Mr. Dante could help, or his in-laws Mr. Dante is your biological family" explained Mother.
I'm silent, I honestly can't think about it. I'm not ready to find a worse reality. Especially when later I know the reason they dumped me, it would have hurt my feelings a lot and maybe I better not know.
"Mom doesn't mean to add to your problems but you need to know where your biological parents are" she continued.
Seriate....