Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 3's. A cold heart
"Please eat, Mas." Nara put the food on the table.
"Here you go, Mommy" he answered.
Betrand and I ate together and were accompanied by Nara. My wife seemed to be busy with the phone in her hand. Unlike usual, Nara did not like to play mobile phones when we were sitting together. He'll turn off the phone and focus on talking to me. But this time it all felt different and changed. I don't know what Nara thinks of me. I hope there is still a chance for us to repair this relationship.
"Later to go home with me. There's something I want to talk about," I said as I glanced at him.
"Yes, Mas. I called Mr. Rimba first, so as not to pick me up" he said with a smile. I knew that smile was just a falsehood where he covered wounds in that way.
I just nod. Bertrand stared at the tinge of sadness in my eyeball. He was always sensitive to what I felt. Because we became friends since we knew Mother Dusk.
I smiled wryly. Even in front of me my wife dared to give permission to another man. I know this is the law of karma because I created the wound first. But why does it feel like I don't accept it? Why do I feel like I want to be angry? Why does it feel like I don't like Nara's permission on Rimba? Rimba is a stranger while I am her husband. I should have given permission or not.
"Here are you cooking, Ra?" betrand asked to switch the conversation between us.
"Oh yes, Mas. Like?"
"I love it, you're good at cooking" Betrand said with a thumbs up.
"Thank you, Mum. His praise," Nara said displaying her wide smile.
I glanced at Nara at a glance. I remember back last day about him saying he loved me and asking me to open my heart to him. He said that the love he had existed since we first met as two people who would be bound in marriage.
I once laid my heart on Mona, the woman I love so much. To make me let myself drown in what slowly kills me. This guy I love is stabbing me in the heart. He betrayed everything I fought with all my heart. He dumped me and chose someone else to run away. He flew to the furthest valley. Disappeared after all my dear feelings were dying, killed by him and then died slowly. He said I was the one he no longer needed. At that time all I knew was that falling in love could make a wound feel that bad.
Maybe now it's my turn to feel the pain of betrayal. I used to bring Mona into our household and tell her that Nara was my cousin's sister and made her a maid. Now, maybe I'll be in Nara's position. Feeling the same thing over and over again that slowly kills to death.
After finishing eating. I asked Betrand to come home with my car. I went home with Nara in her car. The last few days this car was not in the garage was Nara left in his cafe.
We were both silent and busy with our own thoughts. I don't know what he's thinking, I don't know if there's me in his heart that's hurting right now.
"Ra," I called out to break the silence after only the roar of the car sounded echoing and noisy.
"Yes, Mas. Why?" I could see the wounds in his eyes. But he covered it with a big smile. True, said Bee, if Nara can fool others through the laughter he created.
"I'm sorry" I said guiltily. Will Nara accept my apology and give me a second chance?
The sun drifted with a frown in wonder. He seemed to be confused by my sudden apology.
"I'm sorry for what, Mom?" the question is still astonished.
"I'm sorry I hurt you" I said with a burning feeling. It was the first time we had ever been close and talked to each other with four eyes.
He just smiled and nodded. But I know that smile is fake. I know Nara was hurt just as much as I was hurt by Mona's betrayal.
"Forget it, Mom. I don't remember that anymore either" I said. She just said she didn't remember it but Nara couldn't hide her feelings through the look on her face. I can see that he's hurt.
"Me and Mona have broken up" I said. Why do I not know why I said this? Whether I meant to be sorry or did I want Nara to know that Mona and I are not in a relationship?
I glanced at my wife. Nara says it without burden? Does he really want me and Mona together? Or is this Nara's way of not looking hurt in front of me?
"He's pregnant."
Nara was silent for a moment. He must have misunderstood me and thought I was impregnating Mona.
"By Ikmal," I called later.
"The thermal?" reset Nara.
"Teacher friend and co-worker," I replied smiling wryly.
I took a quick glance at my wife and wanted to know what her response was. Nara is just a mangosteen as understand what I explained.
"Prophey, Mas" he said wiping my arm.
Patience is a language that is often thrown out whenever people face problems. I know, Nara said this not just for me but for her as well.
"I'm sorry about you. I've brought Mona into our household."
Nara breathed out a rough breath.
"It's not your fault, Mom. But I was wrong. I'm the third person between you and Mona. I'm sorry, too, Mom."
A wife is not the third person in the relationship of her husband and lover. But I'm the one who brought the third man to ruin our household.
"You're not wrong, Ra. I'm the one who's wrong. I have hurt you and even ignored you" I said with a feeling of guilt that could never be lost at any moment. The fused feeling creates destruction in the chest.
He nodded with a smile then went back daydreaming and stared blankly out the window.
"Ra," call me.
"Yes, Mas. Why?"
"Will you give me a second chance to mend our relationship?" my door is hopeful. This time I really hope that Nara gives us one chance to be together for longer.
Nara looked at me. I can't see the look in his eyes. I caught nothing but sadness and fear. How I realized that I was afraid of losing this woman in front of me.
"I don't think you can smile, Mom. Until I thought that you would never smile because of anything. But when you brought Mona into our home the one thing I realized was that your heart would never belong to me" she said.
"Ma."
"I want us to get divorced, Mom."
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