Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 04's. Chapters 27.
I have always believed that there is nothing eternal about sadness. Or from whatever it is. There are only people who have survived together throughout their ages. And, that's not an eternity. It was an attempt to keep the deal. While someone who can't keep the chance. So, there's no more reason to let you stay here. Although it comes occasionally to the head, really my chest no longer needs taste.
"Slow down, brother," said Anggi helping me lie on top of the hospital cage.
"Can, Nggi?" Galactic brother looked at us both.
"Can, Brother," said Anggi.
We are currently conducting examinations and ultrasonography to ascertain the position of my baby. Ah, I'm more and more impatiently waiting for their arrival that will coincide with my death.
"I'm going to get his shirt up, ma'am" Dr. Novi said as he lifted my belly.
I replied with a nod. We are currently at Timberland Hospital, Malaysia Cat. Yes, Galactic Sister, Anggi and Doctor Novi brought me here to undergo treatment according to the direction of the doctor. Here we stayed in one of Mas Angga luxury homes in Malaysia. No one knows where we are. I asked Mas Angga, Galactic Brother and Doctor Novi to hide my whereabouts. Let me pull over and disappear from the surface of the earth. So that everyone will no longer be ashamed of what I have done in the past.
"Breath yes, ma'am."
I nodded and took a deep breath as I could. Then Doctor Novi poured the gel over my stomach before pointing at the object he was using to detect the condition of my three children inside.
We all looked at the monitor. There were three things moving in there. My eyes are glazed over, is that really my son? Is it true that the baby I almost threw out just for not accepting his presence?
"Mother's baby is in good health" said Doctor Novi.
"Thank you, Doc."
I woke up slowly. Although my gestational age had only entered the seventh month but my stomach was already very big like nine months. Maybe it's because I'm humming three kids at once so it's huge.
"Rin, let me help you!" Galactic brother helped me get down from the cage.
"Thank you, Brother."
I sat in the front seat of Doctor Novi's desk and was ready to listen to his explanation.
"Mom." Doctor Novi sighed softly. "Mom's condition is declining, ma'am. For the birth process it seems like we can't wait for the ninth month. Because cancer cells have entered the nerve. My advice the following week or Sunday we've had surgery so that Ms. Arin can get chemotherapy right away."
"Is it that fast, Doc?" ask Galactic Brother.
Anggi clasped tightly onto my hand and held back the crying that almost broke from the corner of his eye. Then me, I was so scared. What if this was the last time I lived in the world and left everything on earth?
"Dok, does the operation guarantee safety between mother and child?" ask Galactic Brother.
Doctor Novi seemed to take a long breath. He tried to smile even though I knew that behind their lips there was a difficult feeling he could explain.
30% chance of success? Is it 70% of deaths? That's the small chance of me surviving. Even my baby will be forcibly removed at 7 months of age.
"Please prepare yourself, ma'am. I'm just a doctor. But above all, God determines the life and death of every human being. I'm sure you can get through this with your three babies. You are strong people" said Doctor Novi to calm me down.
Doctor Novi is like my brother. Even he was willing to move in with us to help me survive.
"Thank you, Doc."
Let it be 30% for my three children. Even if it's time for me to leave behind everything in the world. I will try to live it all. I am sure God has prepared a future for my children after I am not there. I hope the world isn't cruel to the three of them. I hope they don't experience the story that I am currently experiencing. Although the chest feels tight to get through all this but I try to convince everything that I am okay.
In this life, I don't have much wishful thinking. Still being able to live in the heart tomorrow is a privilege for me. I don't need to be happy, the most important of the people around me are living well.
We got out of the doctor's room. Galactic Brother and Anggi's face looked tense. They even let me walk as if afraid if anyone tried to take me away from them.
"I'm sorry, Brother. Arin's a hassle," I said. Galactic brother is doing too much and sacrificing for me. He gave up his life so I could survive here.
"Fig, I'm sorry Brother. You have to leave everything for Brother."
I looked at the two people in turn with thanksgiving. At least in the last second of my life there were people accompanying me to death.
"Sister, don't talk like that. Anggi darling with Sister. The brother was Anggi's brother and hummed Anggi's son." Anggi hugged me from the side.
Galactic Sis said nothing. He was like a dead man whose mind looked empty from the look in his eyes. The three of us got into the car. Being in this neighboring country made me learn to value time.
"Rin, tomorrow Brother will return to Indonesia to retrieve some of your data before the operation. You're careful with Anggi, aren't you?" said Galactic Brother.
"Sister, don't tell my family. Arin please, Brother. They don't care about Arin's condition. Arin doesn't want them to be cared for just out of pity, not out of concern" I asked.
Galactic Brother nodded, "You take it easy. Brother will say nothing to them" said Galactic Sister.
I can't deny that I'm afraid of death. Sometimes I'm afraid to fall asleep and never wake up again. Then it was somewhere else, quiet, quiet and I was cold with no one there. Is it natural to fear death? I'm an ordinary man who can't escape all that.
I leaned on Anggi's shoulder while enjoying every breath that felt stuck to the chest. Without tears falling down the cheeks. My body was suddenly cold, was I really going to lose and give up on death which led me to go find destiny?
'If going as far as possible can make your hearts calm, then let me go. I will not return to this mortal and cruel world. Let me calm down with the cold wind that hits my skin and the smell of the soil that feels stinging.'
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