Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 06's. Shaka's Little Wife 11.
"Yes, too!" He sighed softly. "This time, Om stayed in Pontianak. Once a week fly to meet Lea. Our marriage's only been a year, Om. Why so complicated he thought."
Lea's words managed to make me realize that indeed our marriage was my matchmaking and on our agreement. Then, what's with the heart that I think is okay? It hurts a lot to remember the beginning of this marriage.
"Dih, you think Pontianak to Jakarta with that close?" my protest.
"Here you go, Om. Take the plane for two hours. It's rich, lots of money. Buy a noh private jet kayak in novels so you can meet Lea every Sunday," he said.
"I don't want Leah!" press me.
"Om, that's so evil. Want to die from Lea's dream? Lea was since childhood wanted to be a flight attendant. Lea struggled with sports to maintain Lea's posture," he said.
"Lea, I don't want to. I don't want us to separate. Jakarta and Pontianak are too far away, I can not monitor you. Please, please follow! Take a major whose college can be here," I said.
"But, Om–"
"Don't beat a husband if he doesn't want to be branded as a bad wife!" I thumped his forehead with anxiety.
"Aw, Om!" his screams rubbed his forehead.
"Have I gone back to my room first" I said, and left Leah's room without waiting for a reply from the girl.
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"Why did you take Leah for a flight attendant test?" ask Leon.
"Not hold Leon! I can't be far from Leah" I said honestly. Let people say I'm selfish and think of my own feelings. I really can't let Lea live out there.
"Cie, are you in love with Lea?" ledek Leon while nudging my arm.
"Well, who is in love with that snot boy? I just don't want people to think bad about us. Marriage but not at home?" my word.
"Yes. But does Lea want to take medicine?" leon asked a little doubt.
"Had to dong. She cannot deny her husband's orders" I replied.
"But don't you feel sorry for Leah?" leon looked at me. "Or gini anyway, Lea nganggur first in a year. You complete all the projects in Kalimantan. Well, then after all this is done. You guys moved to Jakarta. There is a company Papa and Mama who are not taken care of. So you can take over. While your company's here ask for Kak Naro's backup," suggested Leon.
"You can't kill Leah's dream. Since childhood, she aspired to be a flight attendant. I get it, Shak," Leon said again patting me on the shoulder.
I'm nodding. It seems Leon's advice has a point, too. For a year, let Leah be unemployed and stay at home. Let's just say we were together during the marriage because next year we'll be apart. I might be said to be an evil man, holding my wife but instead intending to marry another woman. I just can't get away from this shitty wife.
"Yes, your advice is good. Hopefully Lea will be unemployed," I said chimed.
"Yes hopefully. You see, he's stubborn" said Leon sipping the coconut ice we ordered.
I was silent and stared blankly ahead. Somehow all this will go on like I don't want to. However, time can never be guessed. Sometimes feelings are tested by things that are never imagined. The things that make it weak seem not strong to defend each other. Not that weak. But life always has unexpected things. Sometimes the heart feels doubted by the conditions and circumstances. I understand, there's a lot of things I can never do for sure. All I know is that I'm just trying my hardest.
"You why? Daydreaming from earlier?" leon asked while chewing on the snacks we ordered.
"That's okay," I said.
"Oh yeah, how's your relationship with Felly?" ask Leon. "I heard he was fooled by the son of ustadz," he continued.
Throwing something away takes time, it can't be instant. Let alone releasing someone so dear. Not easy, not easy at all. It's just that, something that forces itself to be released, as hard as it maintains it will still come off. Likewise with me and Felly, no matter how hard I hold Nara's hand and tell all my grievances when I complain about being separated from her. He will not come back to embrace me like he is today. However, my decision to marry her has been unanimous and I will have no regrets. Hope so.
"Yes," I said slowly.
"Ikhlasin, you married Leah. Lea was actually good. He is spoiled, but if guided properly. I'm sure he could be more than Felly. He just needs time let alone all this time Papa and Mama did him," explained Leon.
There's nothing better for me than Felly. That woman can't be compared to anyone. To me, he only has one in this world. So, no one will be the same as him.
Slow down, to live something that is very difficult to accept cannot be with instantaneous time. Enjoy process. If having to be clumsy is okay, it's a sign of still having feelings Nara said. Because every heartbroken person has the right to be a crybaby. Time will answer everything. How long does it take? No one knows. Each wound has its own time to heal. Every love takes time to grow.
"I believe you're a Lea fox. Please don't ever hurt him. He is like in our lives. His birth brought calmness among the soul that felt desolate. So, love him wholeheartedly. You two can fall in love with each other if you want to change your chin for another greeting."
I looked at Leon. I could see from the look in his eyes that he loved his sister – Lea very much. Why is there any guilt to hear that hopeful remark? It hurts so much. I can't imagine how they would react when they found out that I was going to marry another woman.
What Felly and I are living this heart we never planned before. Suddenly time brought us back together after a few days apart. We agreed to separate well, even though in the end only get hurt because there is still love in the heart. Learn to develop feelings for new people. We learn from each other. I try to understand the love that once stirred in my chest. Trying to put the past aside. Trying to cultivate new feelings in order to grow bloom beautifully. But in reality forgetting is not that easy.
"Yes, I went back first. The hour of rest is running," said Leon while standing up. "Jaga Lea is good! Watch out if he gets crybaby because of you, I'll take you to move planets!" threaten Leon while chuckling softly. Although it was a joke, but I took his words seriously.