Love Is Hurt (Wedding Polygamy)
Season 05's. Tata Story 35's.
For God's sake, it's really hard for me to go through. Without you being with you. It's hard for me to refuse to remember any more, all the memories we've been through. Together.
And I'm here heartbroken can't take it. Your departure and all this reality. I can't live like this, I can live without you.
Eternal farewell is death, no matter how great the office you sit in, how much money you have and no one will be able to avoid it.
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With my deepest trust. I have chosen him and want to fall in love with him every time I have. Wanting to make him someone who is one with me dakams all prayers and plans. I want to make him my happiest friend. Lover lives faithful. We are the promises we will always keep. However, her heartfelt and cruel destiny brought in someone to melt the love story we had painstakingly built.
"Mas Gevan."
This guy hurt me once and left me with Lala. However, he left and disappeared from the look of my eyes, I can not deny that the pain is increasingly incarnated into the rubble of destruction.
"But wake up, wake up, Mom."
Eternal farewell is death. No matter how good a position you have, how much money there is. No human can avoid death. No matter how hard you refuse, he will still approach the people you care about. Taking her by force, eroding her just like that. No matter how badly you are hurt, how long you cry, if God has taken away His right, whatever you do and say will all be in vain.
You know how the most painful parting is parting because of death. There are particles of death that cannot be explained by words or writing. It can destroy the whole body and soul.
I look at the stiff body that has been worn the suit and tie. A pale face without blood. He was sleeping and without pain.
"Mas." I wiped the pale face of Mas Gevan. "I've forgiven all your mistakes. I'm just disappointed but I never really hated."
"Galvin," cried Mama Meysa.
If everyone were to cry hysterically at Mas Gevan's departure, I would be as silent as a living statue. I am not hysterical but tired of crying. My soul was hit hard by a reality that made everything feel empty.
Does anyone know how broken I am now? My dark world found not the slightest bit of light.
"You're strong for Lala." I leaned on Mas Rey's shoulder. I closed my eyes for a moment trying to get rid of all the painful feelings that were suffocating my neck.
Why is fate so devastating to my life? Doesn't he pity to see me as fragile and helpless as this one? I'm an ordinary man, I'm not as strong as I look. Sometimes I have a point where I want to give up and leave this mortal world.
Although my feelings for Mas Galvin no longer exist, but this sense of loss makes me broken.
I was the one who was silent just fell on the ground. I was unable to hold the body that I had been maintaining.
"Tag."
Rey helped me up immediately. I'm like a woman who can't walk on her own and still needs someone's guidance to help me walk. Why does it feel like my energy is drained?
"Mas promised to be there for you." Mas Rey pulled me into her warm embrace. Everything that I thought was a good thing is now slowly making me fall into ruin.
I closed my eyes for a moment. It's the pain that settles in there.
"I don't know how Lala reacted after her Papa left, Mas."
It was still in my mind at our last meeting. Mas Gevan came carrying a bag of crackles and a panda doll Lala's favorite. I don't know if it'll be the last time I see my ex-husband's face.
"Mas." Rey hugged me tight.
The funeral atmosphere is getting crowded. Along with Mas Gevan's coffin that was put into the ground, so did my tears break. I can't believe my love is over forever. Is this what it feels like to lose? This is what it feels like to let go of someone who has been in life. Now, I understand how Kak Naro felt when he lost Ariana.
"Mas Gevan!" my yelling.
'Happy love, happy parting for good. Thank you for the eleven years we spent together. I never thought our love would end like this. Thank you for your sacrifice for our son, Lala. I promise to be a father and mother to both of them. Sorry for a lot of things. Sorry for everything. I used to hate you so much, but now I realize that your sincerity has made my heart melt again. I hope to meet you in the second life. If given one chance I want to be your wife again, Mas."
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I looked at Lala who was still closed. If Lala woke up and knew that the Papa she loved so much had left the earth. I can't imagine how he reacted. I know how much my little daughter loves her Papa. But what can be done if fate alone does not allow to live together longer.
"Lala forgive Mama, honey. You have to lose happiness in childhood. Get well soon, son."
I pecked Lala's forehead with my darling. I love my children more than anything, but I can't provide them with the happiness they want.
Honest feelings of guilt are now seeping into my chest.
I clasped Lala's hand and buried my face there. Me, I failed to be a mother and wife.
"Hiks hyks hyx."
If I could be born again, I wouldn't want to be here. I don't want to be in this difficult position. I want to live happily like any other woman.
"Papa will be forever in your heart forever, son. Grow up to be a strong woman. Mama's sure you can get through this."
Silenced at night, I cried in my prostration. The roar and groan of helplessness seemed to bear witness to how broken I was right now. Is there a bright light that can take me away from this life I don't want at all? If I could, I'd like to just go so that all this pain goes away with time.
"Mas Gevan, what should I tell Lala? He'll be looking for you, man. Why did you leave us both. Even though I don't need you, Lala still loves and loves you very much, Mas. I'm not strong, I can't afford."
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