Fake Princess
CHAPTER 109
I must have been married for political reasons; we both knew it. There is no reason to admit that we can be more than friends. Even so, it was just a thin outer look, all I could see, if I wanted to.
And after I don't become a princess? Did I know that? If I had looked at it carefully, would I have known? Yeah, I have to admit, I definitely saw it. But it feels like knowing you need air to breathe or water to feel thirsty. Something I already knew, but without ever thinking about it, without really considering it. I've held Devan's heart for so long that I forgot I had it, tucked away behind my own.
So, yeah, I already know. Doesn't Devan's face always appear between me and Jose, no matter how hard I try to forget it? Didn't I feel guilty kissing Jose, as if I betrayed Devan? And didn't Devan come looking for me in Treb, hasn't he been with me since I came back to town with me every time he has time? I said the opposite to Paula, but didn't I feel weird for weeks with Devan, awkward, after noticing that things had changed between us?
Or maybe it hasn't really changed. Perhaps only now had all of that turned into something he had been craving all along.
Something I've been craving all along.
Because I craved it. I felt it in that one kiss, how the relationship between us could be formed. And I want it. Oh, how I want it.
But I had thrown it all away, by casting the spell without Devan's permission, by preventing him from doing anything he thought he should do to protect me. I saw a surprised expression on Devan's face while using magic on him. I don't know if he can forgive me, after everything I've done.
I've ruined my chance to be happy with the only person who's understood me a long time ago.
Everything I did was to save the kingdom that abandoned me, or maybe just to prove myself that I could do something.
“ The king,” the woman standing in front of me tells the pharmacist. “ She's sick. All the doctors are in the palace, along with half the magicians from the campus. They didn't tell me much, but I heard a rumor about red pulse fever.”
The pharmacist leaned over the counter. “ Red pulse fever?” he exclaimed while shaking his head. “ If the appearance is very fast, usually the patient dies. I—“ the man fell silent, looking at me from behind the woman's shoulder. “ Miss, are you okay?”
It turned out that my body was unknowingly staggered, stretching out blindly to lean the body against the wall. Red pulse fever. I closed my eyes and shivered. Omar. He's out of town with red pulse fever. And the astrologer, he also died of the disease. The one who could threaten Melani's plans and know her plans, and feel guilty. Strangely enough, they suffered from the same disease. However, red pulse is a rare disease. Even more strangely, the king contracted the disease.
Very strange
I shook my body. “ Fine, I'm fine,” I said. “ But the king—what do they say the disease is severe?”
The woman looks agitated. “ Yes. They say the king had a nightmare of a fever that was too high, and no one could wake him up from that dream. The queen and the princess were beside him, day and night.”
Seriate