Fake Princess
CHAPTER 38
Aunt Vania looked dark as she looked at me. Maybe it was because of the magic I just learned flowing inside me, or maybe it was because Aunt Vania was thinking about it so hard that anyone could see it emanating from her face, but I could hear the words she said. I turned my face, to the north, towards Vivaskari.
Maybe there is no place that makes me feel at home. It will probably always be in two worlds, and never find peace anywhere.
A day later, I returned to Vivaskari.
As the chartered carriage drove towards the City, I could not help but stick myself out my neck to look at the city wall that lay before me. Fortunately, the people who drive with me,
a thin woman who came from a village south of Treb & her husband who was also thin, was,
also was staring out the window so as not to see my reaction that was like a hick.
I managed to refrain from showing any more suspicious behavior until I passed the south gate and entered Flower Basket, where we dropped off the couple, and continued to drive to G district, but I can't stop my heart beating. Go home, go home, come home, as if that's what my heart says. Fortunately, it seemed like only negative emotions caused the magic inside me to flow out, as the air did not twist or heat up even as my heart was pounding ever more.
However, I can still feel it, because now I already know of its existence. Magic feels like a tiny sun inside me, but a sun that has consciousness. He wanted to get out, I somehow knew. I just need to hold it for long enough to practice its use.
It turned out to be true, and not for how long I was sheltered in a room. The only worrying part in the transaction happened when the innkeeper who looked like a hostel mother looked at me with a fierce expression & asked,
“ How old are you?”
“ Eighteen years,” I lied, trying not to blink. Although her mouth shriveled suspiciously, the woman finally nodded and accepted one of my coins. Looking at his wide-eyed eyes, I suspect most of his guests did not pay with gold, and I promise tonight I will hide my small bag of gold coins, then exchange it for silver coins & copper soon.
It was late at night when I sat in the room with a tray of dinner, I did not want to eat downstairs. Although I used to rarely wander outside Vivaskari's upper district, I was worried about meeting someone who might still recognize me as a fake princess. After the covert friendship made by Jose, which I could not think of without feeling an unpleasant rumble in my stomach, I tended to judge everyone with suspicion and disbelief.
Surprisingly, that feeling also applies to myself. Once again I changed from the self I knew before. & I don't believe in new people.
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