My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
motherhood

mom had to go to the hospital after I found this unconscious.I never thought that mom hid her illness from all of us.

"sorry, you're too busy so you don't know"

my father was crying in my arms, and so was I that ever since my mother was taken to the hospital, these tears were flowing incessantly

"dad, you're gonna get well, right?"

"we pray to the healer. I know Ade is a strong child also Sholehah, so God willing will hear the do'a of the children of Sholeh and Sholeh"

I hugged my father tighter and wept deeper.

never imagined before if now the mother lies weak unconscious on the bed.

the mother who always smiled cheerfully at us her children never once showed a sad face let alone angry. the mother who always gently caressed my head when I was so spoiled for her as well as my brother, never once did she act favoritically towards us.

mom I miss mom's smile,

I miss mom's hug, though,

I miss mommy's pampering, though,

I'm healing fast, yeah,

mom quickly realized,

I am afraid of losing my mother,

"Ade eat first yes, you have bought Ade's favorite food"

My brother came with a bag of crackles filled with food.I just looked at my brother's smiling face but it was clear that his eyes were holding on to sadness. then I hugged my brother while crying in his arms

"Dragon, I'm still unconscious"

"god will also realize ko de, we pray'a the same God yes. now Ade eat first, let Ade not follow the pain as well. kasian mother later if you are aware but even see Ade sick"

I also obey my brother's words to eat first, actually I have not eaten from yesterday but the hunger does not feel because it is too worrying about the condition of the mother.

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"nur," Maryam and Asyila came to the hospital and immediately hugged me.

"Our servant has just come here" Asyila wiped my tears that were still flowing from the corner of my eyes

"how's mom? no why, right?" Maryam asked with a worried look on her face

"hopefully not why-why Iam, ana is also afraid because the mother is not aware"

"mashallah, be patient nur. insyaallah healthy mother again we pray it"

I secured Maryam's words with a nod.

"de mommy was conscious" suddenly Brother told me who was sitting outside with my best friend about the state of mother.

without a second thought I immediately ran into my mother's room, which was then followed by Asyila and Maryam.

"Mom, this is Ade" I kissed my conscious mother but her face was still so pale. she smiled and tried to grab me with her hands, and she was still so pale, but it was difficult even just to raise his hand.

"bang mom why? ko rich who's hard to move?" I turned the question to my brother who was standing to the left of mother.

"the mother had a mild stroke de, so her movements were a little sluggish"

"is mom sick? tell Ade that someone's sick"

mom just smiled as she shook her head, but then she said something I didn't understand.I brought my ears closer to my mouth

"mother a__us" she said so quietly

then I quickly picked up the drinking water that was already available at the table near my mother's bed.

I gave her water using a straw, so that she could easily drink her water.

but unexpectedly, the water could not enter the mother's mouth again and again the water came out without a single bit can pass through the mother's throat.

"mother why? his throat hurts, huh?"

I asked with tears that flowed back without me being able to stand, as well as my brother and my friends.

mother shook her head while smiling at me.

finally, the mother returned to sleep without being able to drink the water she asked for.

my best friend and I are still beside my mother, my father is still in the doctor's room and my brother is allowed to go home just to change clothes because he does not bring a change of clothes.

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four days have been treated, there is no change in the condition of the mother and it is getting worse.

the mother's body is getting weaker, there is no food or drink that can enter the mother's body until finally the mother must use a hose to help food and drinks in order to enter her body.

it was an event that struck me deeply, seeing my mother as helpless as it was, as if it made me more helpless.

"assalamualaikum," I heard someone say hello and went into my mother's ward

"waalaikumsalam wr wb" answered me and everyone in the room.

it turned out that the nanny mother who came to visit, accompanied by Ning Farah and Gus hafidz. I, Maryam, and Asyila immediately greeted him with reverence, except for the father who only cupped both hands on his chest.

I smiled kindly at Ning Farah who was then reciprocated by her. Then I turned my gaze at Gus hafidz with a polite bow as a sign of respect.

actually I was confused why Gus hafidz could come here, because to my knowledge he had returned to Turkey waiting for his graduation. but all that to the tepis because this mind is still dominated by the mother's state.

the nanny's mother, Ning Farah and Gus hafidz, walked over to the mother's bed and greeted the conscious mother, who couldn't do much.

the caregiver then recites the do'a for the mother's health, and then invites the mother to talk.

me, Asyila and Maryam chose to wait outside so that the room did not feel stuffy because there were too many people.

"syil, Iam, ana go to the toilet first yes. later if the same mother Ning Farah wants to go home please tell ana"

"let's Anter, huh?" asyila held my hand

"no need, ana can be alone ko no papa" assyila and Maryam nodded and let me go to the toilet alone.

in the toilet I just want to wash my face and make my eyes fresh again because honestly the taste of these eyes hurt because too often cry since my mother was treated here.

while looking in the bathroom mirror, I saw my eyes that were already swollen and swollen face because of her frequent crying.

but again and again even though it is swollen, these eyes can not stop crying if it is remembered mother.

hopefully the mother is strong and healthy again.nur has finished carrying out the obligations nur in the cottage, then let the nur can carry out the obligations nur to the mother before nur back away.