My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
My ego

Asyila POP

this morning I don't feel the spirit of doing any activity, but when I see my dirty clothes are more piled up I force myself to wash them, but when I see my dirty clothes are more and more piled up I force myself to wash them, she used to love having laundry aunty here but it's been three days that she's been sick so I had to wash my own clothes.

after I finished washing I was about to go to my room again, but from a distance I saw Maryam standing in the doorway of my room. I'm sure he wants to meet nurain and of course I also to invite us to breakfast because it's his habit if breakfast is always ngajak us both. just two days ago he didn't come to my room to take me or Maryam to breakfast, I don't know if he was busy.

I undo my intention to go into the room, I better wait first in the bathroom until Maryam and Nurain go first. It's nothing but this heart is still dominated by discomfort, from that time on, so I chose to avoid nurain or Maryam because I was not ready to be asked why with my attitude.

"shil, Maryam was here anti-same nurain nyariin" said Widia when I returned to my room, surely after I made sure Maryam and Asyila came out.

"iya Wid, justin" I replied to Widia

"tumben, is it normal that this early in the morning you three like to go together to the kitchen for breakfast?"

"no papa, no more males"

"don't males the same breakfast later sick, mending now after gih let together his breakfast, others are already in order you guys like most Ahir if breakfast" Widia tried to advise me

"yes it will be Wid" I replied lazily, because honestly Widia so a little chatty lately when not her usual she was so

"syil hasn't had breakfast? yuk together with ana, happened to be ana also not let ana there was a meeting" suddenly Hanifah who heard the talk of me and Widia invited me to breakfast together.

arriving in the kitchen I saw no one, there were only aunts who used to cook in the kitchen.not Maryam and Nurain also just had breakfast said Widia, but there was nothing, the time is already settled breakfast.nya after breakfast we do not immediately return to the dormitory if the schedule entered school during the day.we will spend time here to just tell a story, we will just tell a story, joking or sometimes helping any aunts we can' I said in my heart. ah, I miss being together with them.

after a few minutes Maryam and Nurain went into the kitchen, I was a little surprised because it turned out they had just come here, I think they had breakfast turned out to be new here. I silently pretended not to see them, until the end they greeted me. I saw Nurain smiling at me, but I actually turned my face away from him without returning his smile. I focused on Maryam when she apologized for forgetting not to bring me here on the grounds that I was still in the bathroom.

there is a sense of annoyance at Maryam actually for forgetting to invite me, but I can not express it, because honestly maybe this is also what is felt towards me, but it must be how else, too, this heart of his sense still could not accept.

I chose to go back to the dorm first and refused the invitation of Nurain and Maryam to stay in the kitchen for a few minutes just to tell the story as before. I saw Hanifa as if feeling bad for Maryam and Nurain, but I ignored that, I walked away from Hanifah. there was a feeling of guilt, but there was also a feeling of resentment, but there was also a feeling of resentment, because this heart is still too ego.let it be,,,

"why syil? any more problems with you?" Widia approached me, asked in a slight whisper.when I was already in the room and placed my hijab just like that.

"don't ko" I answered again briefly and glanced at him at a glance

" but the rich anti facial expression says otherwise.ana does not mean to interfere in your affairs, especially anti" I stared at Widia's astonishment as if I knew that I had a problem, more precisely the problems I create myself and with myself.

"kalo indeed there is a good problem of his solved, discussed well whatever his problems.do not avoid each other rich gini, gini, moreover, soon we want to pass it is not good to leave the cottage by bringing a problem that has not been resolved to the house, let alone the problem with his own friends.sorry if ana is also pretentious, especially if you also know, because ana perhatiin Now you are so rarely together let alone anti as evasive. honestly ana envy is actually the same as your friendship, anything is always together, mutual support, mutual support, comfort each other when there is one of you who is sad, take care of each other, understand each other's points of love.even if possible, if you can just want to be one of you. wh why? because we have friends who are like-minded, in line with the same we are difficult.not a few people who claim their legitimacy but even talk to each other in the back, plunging each other. but ana notice you guys are different. During the time of the hyacinth here with you, ana has never been heard nurain talking anti, Maryam talking nurain, or otherwise anti who talk them. that's then ana envy but also salute your friendship. Once again Afwan if ana effect meddle, he interfered, ana just does not want your friendship to be damaged because there are problems that might be resolved properly.ana sure there can be no problems that can not be solved, he said, because God tests his servant with a definite problem in conjunction with his solution.Our only remains who must patiently find the solution itself" he continued.

I looked back at Widia who was smiling gently at me, I digested every single one of her words just now. Really I feel slapped with her advice, really, I was ashamed of myself being so easily overpowered by my ego feelings, but what should I do now, one side I want to apologize and come back like we used to be with Nurain and Maryam. but on the other hand this heart can not withstand the pain when people around talk about nurain and Gus hafidz who seemed to approve if they jodo, as if they were, I know that Nurain has always ignored that because he may not have liked Gus hafidz, or perhaps not have been more precise.