My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
Hope and Do'a

POV Gus hafidz

"son, you have to calm down so that the concentration of driving. remember not to let us all go to harm"

the word umma sat beside me, and was just a nod I could give in response.

still in tears, I continued to see the weakly lying nurain through the rearview mirror.

'you are strong, baby'

after twenty-five minutes, we reached the hospital where Aisyah practiced first.

"please get the anchor, there's an accident patient"

immediately Nilam friend Aisyah asked the nurse to bring anchor for nurain.

without waiting for long, the nurse immediately pushed the anchor wheel inside.

"you're strong baby well, brother's here"

I clasped her cold hand tightly.nurain just smiled while enduring the pain.It felt like seeing all that, nurain, she who is very young must become a mother before she can pursue her ideals, even to become a mother, it is not easy as imagined.

'forgive Abang nur, because Abang you have to go through all of this. because Abang, you have to wait to be able to pursue your ideals, because Abang your education must be delayed. Abang promised after this, Abang will support all your ideals and hopes that have not been achieved'

in a panic, I kept shedding tears waiting for how my son and wife were doing in there.

"you who are patient son, God willing, Nurain and your son are safe"

umma stroked my back gently

"this is wrong hafidz umma, if only hafidz did not go to the cafe it might___ maybe all this will not happen"

"istighfar son, you cannot say that. This is all arranged, we cannot be as if all this is in our power. istighfar fidz, he said, now we pray to God that Nurain and his son be saved"

well, umma is right now is not the time I complain about all of God's destiny, not the time to blame the circumstances for what happened to Nurain.

"how's Rin?" tanya umma when Dr. Rini is out of the examination room

"hmm, look, to save the baby, we have to do surgery right away.but__"

"but what's Auntie?"

"but for her mother the chances of survival are very small"

his sense of this body was unable to stand after hearing what Dr. Rini said.

how can I live without Nurain? how can I go through my days without him?

o Allah if this is the time for us to part, his sense of this heart is not ready to face all that!

"Rin, is there no other way for the two to survive?"

tanya umma with a trembling voice

"Zahra, we are only ordinary people who have limitations. regarding whether or not nurain will survive, we leave all of it to God, even though according to medical vision his salvation is only 20%, he said%, but we still have God who has power over power.we leave everything to God, we ask the ruler, we ask the ruler, to the owner of the life to give us a chance to be reunited with our daughter nurain"

"you were right Rin"

said umma who then cried in the arms of her best friend.

so did Aisha and Farah, who had been silent with their tears.

"you're now joining Auntie ya fidz, because there are some files that you have to sign"

I followed Aunt Rini into her room

umma gently stroked my head that was bowed in grief, after I returned from the doctor's room Rini.

"umma, hafidz wants to go to the mosque first, before the operation starts"

umma just nodded in response.

a glimpse of Aisyah who was still sitting down lowered her head in her cries, and Farah tried to calm her down.

well, I know very well the nature of her Aisyah.she must be very guilty of this incident.

but I can't comfort her, or just say 'that this is not her fault' because my heart is not okay either.

my heart is broken and scared, because of this guilt, beyond what Aisyah feels.

"fidz what else is here? it just so happens that we meet here, ana abis nganter temen ana who got lost"

the voice of someone I had memorized alerted me while I was pensive after performing the prayer at the mosque.

"ente__ente is fine, right?"

asked Alif who was now sitting next to me. He held my shoulder, with a probing look.

"fidz nothing happened, did the same happen?"

ask her again, when no answer comes out of my mouth.

I rubbed my face violently, so that this conscience could return.

"nurain, accident elevator and now she's fighting for her life"

the tears came back, as this tongue called the name of the wife I loved so much.

"innalilahi, you are patient yes fidz. insyaallah nurain will gather again with us in good health wal'afiyat"

"god, help do'a ya lif"

"certainly, ana also pray for kindness for your wife. kept the baby how?"

"doctor Rini said, God willing her baby survived if the operation was done today as well.but if for her mother__"

"already, you're giving it all the same God. the doctor's observation and vision is limited, and it's only a possibility.we have a God who has certainty without hesitation"

"but the elevator, ana can not afford if indeed nurain must ninggalin ana first"

"ana know for sure it is very painful if the person we love, we love goes away for us forever, but for now, we still have hope by continuing to pray for the safety of nurain. ana believes you're a strong man"

true what Alif said, there is still hope for nurain to be healed again, leave all his to Allah, to the owner of life.

I shouldn't have to dissolve into an uncertain sadness, because my wife is still with us.

"yes we've been there now, ana also want to see the state of nurain there"

alif and I went back to the room where Nurain was going to be operated.

when we arrived, there was already Babah and Ustadz Ilham who were sitting with umma.

while Farah and Aisyah are no longer there, maybe they are going to the mosque to perform asar prayer first.

"you who are steadfast, son, God willing, Babah's daughter and grandson will be saved"

this time it was Babah who tried to strengthen my heart.

'honey, you know you are a strong woman, and the perfect wife for you. God willing you can get through all this, we are here all loving you, wish you could get back together and laugh with us'