My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
The Dream's Answer

POV Gus hafidz

"assalamualaikum umma"

"waalaikumsalam wr wb, how are you doing?" umma's voice was so soft over there. I became confused with him

"Alhamdulillah hafidz is fine. umma itself how healthy?"

"Alhamdulillah, umma the family here is also healthy. sorry yes umma can only pick up the phone from hafidz, because it just happened to be a group with ustadzah and some princess satri" he explained, as if I know what I want to ask why he just answered a call from me.

"ko most umma? indeed what is it, if you can hafidz know" asked me curious, usual if umma want to convey something for sure with all santri princess instead of part. unless he is teaching or advising the princesses who violate the rules of the cottage.

"today there are so many santri princesses and sons who commit violations of the cottage. So umma must gather them to be questioned for their information, and umma also want to ask something to you son"

"what about umma?"

"eummm,, does hafidz like nurain?"

DEG

I keget is not playing, because so far no one knows about my feelings for him. why umma can ask about it, from where umma know about my feelings for nurain.

"why silence, son?" ask again when I have not received an answer from me, because I myself am confused to answer what.is this the right time for me to say my heart about nurain to him?

"euummm, that's umma hafidz,,,"

"don't be so nervous, it's umma you fidz, why cover up"

"it's not so umma, it's just,,"

"you wonder where umma knows?"

"yes," I replied slowly

"from your writing that you love to nurain"

"the writings given to nurain umma?"

"yes, son, are you the one who wrote the letter to Nurain? umma knows very well with your writing"

"letter? sorry, hafidz doesn't understand umma"

"sorry umma, but hafidz has nothing to do with nurain"

"then what letter if you do not have a relationship with Nurain? why was the letter on Nurain?"

"hafidz also doesn't know umma, hafidz has never written a letter to him"

"but son it's clearly your writing, umma know very well"

I was confused why there could be a letter from me in the hands of nurain. As I recall, had never given him a letter, even though in fact I have tried repeatedly to write it. but everything I have never given to nurain. because I do not want to interfere with his learning, although in fact this heart is already impatient to want to immediately ask him, saying that I love him.

"fidz, as good as you're honest as umma son. don't get anything covered"

"iya umma, hafidz liked nurain, hafidz loved him.it has been quite a long hafidz pendam. hafidz also often wrote letters to him, but all the letters were never there up to nurain. because hafidz knows, it's not his moment.it's not his time to hafidz say all his. hafidz also does not want to interfere with his learning. therefore hafidz never gave a letter that hafidz wrote for him. For the sake of Allah umma, hafidz spoke honestly" I tried to explain everything to umma, and maybe this is when I tell about my feelings on nurain to umma.

"iya umma believes son, but umma is also confused how. umma not have the heart to see the law with a severe punishment"

"umma tried to ask nurain where nurain got the letter. honestly hafidz so feel guilty to nurain"

"insyaallah later umma try asking again, hopefully nurain want to tell the umma honestly"

"iya umma thank you"

"kalo so umma close first yes phone, you are good there yes son. focus on learning because soon you will finish your education there"

"yes umma, god willing"

"yes it's closed, assalamualaikum"

"waalaikumsalam wr"

I immediately searched for the book that I used to keep the writings about my heart on nurain, but nothing. I did not find his. stupid, stupid, why do I just remember the book after a long time I returned from Indonesia.Last I wrote in the book when I will return here, and the contents were torn. is it possible that the paper fell and was found by Nurain? but why can? not the paper that I live in my room so where might nurain find it, or maybe BI Nani who found it and gave it to nurain?

o Allah, why am I so careless.If it is such an event, then I sin on the nurain, he who is not wrong and knows nothing should be punished for this. but why did he not just tell the truth to everything there. masyaallah nur, so this is the answer? why do I dream about an anti who cries himself under a tree?

forgive me for making anti-punishment, I am sure at this time anti must be sad, that's why this heart is restless considering you, hopefully anti not hate me more. because honestly the thing that I fear the most is how anti feelings towards me. whether anti also has the same feelings as me, or quite the opposite, but after I found out about this, I knew about this, I'm sure the anti is currently hating me a lot, although in fact what I am most worried about right now is how anti-current conditions are.

Afwan nur,, sorry,,,