My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
The same feeling

Aisyah POP

"isy, are you sure you want Nerima's proposal to Alfan?"

that morning before I stopped by the cottage, I took the time to meet Nilam in the hospital just to hand over some files requested by Nilam when I was still practicing in the same hospital with him.

"why are you lam? isn't it you who supported me to open my heart to ka Alfan? but why do you doubt my decision now?"

strange so with Nilam's attitude, yesterday was supportive but now seems to doubt my decision

"not that is, I mean do not immediately apply, but try Deket you first the same as Alfan, if he can replace the position of hafidz in your heart, then you go to the proposal"

"you mean you told me to make that date? you know that courtship is the same as courting zina and I never want to be with her name dating"

"yes I know, but__what yah__eum,,, ah, I'm so confused to explain it to you. I mean not dating as well, but rather friendship but close"

I increasingly do not understand the meaning of Nilam's words

"hhmm, I don't know what you mean lam. But maybe this is the best decision, I just ask for prayers and support from you as my best friend and cousin. so that everything is smooth, smooth, and my heart can open for you Alfan"

"well, I must always support and pray for all the good for you isy. hopefully this is indeed the right decision. So after this you want to go to the cottage to meet hafidz's parents?"

"yes, I have to go to the cottage to tell you about my proposal to umma and Babah, because no matter how much I consider them to be my own parents"

"must I go with you?"

"don't do it, I can be alone. Besides you can't possibly miss your practice schedule"

"you sure you don't want me to go? later if I meet__"

Nilam hesitantly said his exact name already I know who he is.

"hafidz and his wife you mean? what if I meet them? anyway, I don't want to be sure I'll meet nurain and hafidz"

"not that, now his wife is again pregnant big loh. I'm afraid her heart you have not been strong to see it, because hafidz will soon have children from other women"

"hmm, well how else.he married another woman automatically she must have a child from her right? no need to worry, God willing I am okay - why - my heart is sincere"

"yeah, I was horrified"

"yes I have gone first well, hunt noon, later not hunted anymore because I have to pursue my practice schedule.dah Nile, assalamualaikum"

and now I'm here, at the hafidz house after I was in the hospital, accidentally bumping into Farah and Nurain.

I was stunned to see his enlarged stomach, not expecting soon hafidz will become a father, but not the father of my children.astaghfirullah, why the mind is always wandering in my mind.

"not that de, Abang just wants the best man for Aisyah"

hafidz said with a look on his face, which, I myself do not understand what he really means to speak like that

"god willing he's good fidz"

I said I try to be ordinary with the attention given hafidz today.well, he thinks his worry is a form of attention for me, of course only as his best friend, no more

"whatever he is, he must be very lucky to have you praying, he is the best man God has chosen for you"

"amin, Syukron umma"

I hugged umma tightly and tears began to fall between happy and sad.happy, because umma always loved me like her own daughter, she said, sad because I can't be her whole daughter.well, this heart is still the same, hasn't changed

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"Alhamdulillah doctor Aisyah has arrived, the patients are waiting for the arrival of the doctor"

said Nindy who was my assistant in the hospital

"yes I'm sorry I'm late, there was a business first earlier.just call the patient first order.I went in first"

"yes doc"

in a bit of haste I put on a white coat and washed my hands, then returned to my desk to greet my first patient

"please sit down, ma'am"

welcome me kindly to an elderly patient

"well, I just saw the doctor who uses a veil. his usual mask is not a veil, must be a Muslim doctor really well"

he said while sitting down, and I just smiled at him while continuing to focus on checking the blood pressure of the mother.

"Alhamdulillah normal tensionnya, now mother lay well let me check thoroughly"

"his doctor is not married yet"

he said again while sleeping on the patient's bed, again I just smiled in response

"i have a granddaughter who is not married yet, her handsome son already has his own business, if the doctor wants me to match my grandson, how would the doctor want?"

"well, I don't think you have any grandchildren yet because you look so young"

praise me for turning the conversation around

"the time, doc? my age has been six seven tablets even lately I often have back pain, plus my cough is getting worse and worse.that means I am very old"

"in addition to his complaints what else?"

"it's rich, it's doc"

"if so, I have to check to the lab first well, after the results come out bring it here and later I make a recipe"

approximately thirty patients who came today was quite tiring, especially today I was out of travel, starting from the hospital where I used to practice, hafidz house and directly here. I even forgot about lunch.

but Thank God, I was able to complete all the examinations, and before I went home I decided to go for food first, because my stomach was already very rumbling from earlier.

suddenly a familiar voice greeted me as I was walking through every hospital hallway.

"waalaikumsalam wr, ka Alfan"

"yes this is ana, sorry in advance because I did not tell you first if you want to come here"

"oh, yes no papa. coincidentally aisy has also finished her practice.but by the way is there well, ka Alfan to have to come here nyamperin aisy?"

ask me curious

"eum, this__"

"assalamualaikum to aisy"

a woman appeared behind me suddenly, as I turned to her.

she wears a Milo-colored robe with a matching hijab, and it is perfect for her pure white skin.

she smiled sweetly at me, I returned her smile behind my veil. I turned my glance to ka Alfan to ask for an explanation of who the woman who was now in front of me.

"famous ka, I'm Ade ka Alfan, Husna khoirunnisa"

"oh, yes, I'm Ayesha"

"sorry well de aisy, he Husna maksa want to see de aisy. his word is too long if you have to wait another week.so we are here, all__"

"all you want to invite your sister to eat together, can ya"

Husna continued her brother's unfinished sentence.

"oh, yeah, I can"

without waiting for long, we went to find a restaurant near the hospital.I by my car and ka Alfan with his sister with his car followed from behind

"as ka Alfan fell in love with aisy, her people were soft and kind indeed, when there were so many women who deketin ka Alfan, but none of them that ka Alfan choose"

husna said on the sidelines we were waiting for food that had not yet come

"ah, you're overdoing it de"

ka Alfan said that like her felt bad with me for her Ade

"oh yes ka aisy, out of this ka aisy want yah nemenin Husna same ka Alfan shopping.if ka aisy who choose it would be good taste because both women"

it turns out Husna is quite spoiled when viewed from his tone when speaking.

actually, I'm very tired of wanting to rest, but it doesn't feel good to just reject it.

"de, it's not good when you just met already asked for payment shopping.there is a sister, so the same sister shopping her de aisy de course must be tired after a day of practice"

"well, it's not cool if it's just the same for Alfan"

husna said in a disappointed tone

"don't ko aisy not tired, don't papa let aisy temenin Husna shopping"

with a little forced I also want to accompany Husna shopping.hopefully my body back fit after eating, so there is energy to walk around accompanying Husna shopping.

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"de aisy, sorry Husna so her troublesome de aisy because must accompany her shopping"

"no papa ko ka, aisy doesn't feel bothered"

"ka Aisy here, I want to buy a robe but I want a picky sister"

Husna pulled my arm towards the line of gamis emblazoned on the hanger

"according to which sister is good?"

"eum,, this"

I chose a dress with an abaya model with baby blue color, but at the same time a hand also touched the clothes that I wanted to take.

"Dad?"

"hafidz?"

we were both surprised, because we accidentally met here.

"doctor Aisyah is here too?"

nurain said that was behind hafidz. I did not immediately answer him, but instead focused on the nurain hand held tightly by hafidz.

"if the doctor wants to take this color, just take another color"

"no ko, please aja. this is not for ana but create__husna"

"who's de aisy?"

ask Alfan, who was beside Husna

"this is my friend ka, hafidz and his wife nurain, and hafidz this ka Alfan and his sister Husna"

I also introduced Alfan to hafidz without mentioning who he was. because I'm sure hafidz already knew without me explaining who ka Alfan.

"then excuse us first. please continue shopping, hopefully later can be happy again"

hafidz turned around to leave us. I still look at him who took nurain so romantic.even occasionally he memapah nurain with full attention, because maybe afraid nurain fall.

hafidz, can I open my heart to other men??