My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
The silence of Nurain

POV Gus hafidz

I felt so guilty this morning that I was cold to my wife.

she put on her cheerful smile face in front of me, but I replied with a cold look and it managed to make me unable to concentrate on teaching because of the feelings of regret that arise in this heart.

"Gus, may I ask you a question?"

one of the santri raised his hand to ask something when the discussion of fiqih lessons I had conveyed

"Gus, ana wants to ask about the virtues of tayamum.he means this way if one day we want to pray and in our place there is no water then we do tayamum and we pray. but it turns out that after praying we find water, then do we have to repeat our prayers with ablution first or the prayer does not need to be repeated enough that earlier with berayamum?"

"regarding the answer to that question, Ana will tell about the case related to two companions of the Prophet SAW on a long journey, they both pray without ablution and pray because they do not get water. After praying, they suddenly got water. One of the friends repeated the prayer because the time of prayer is still there with the time to return before the prayer. Another friend of the Prophet did not repeat his prayer because he believed his prayer to be valid. When they met the Prophet SAW they told what they were doing in the middle of the journey that did not get water when going to pray. The Prophet replied: You are both right. To those who do not repeat their prayers, the Prophet said; you have a reward. As for those who repeat their prayers, the Prophet said: you get two rewards, so from there we can conclude the answer is both. Repeat or not repeat the prayer, so from there we can conclude the answer is both, it's equally legitimate.

anything else you want to ask?"

all the students looked at each other to make sure that there was one of them who wanted to ask back

"like her nothing. then close the lesson for today, hopefully what we just learned together can provide benefits for all of us, he said, and God makes it easy for us to practice every knowledge that is in us, even though it is only a little. so from ana, assalamualaikum wr wb"

I left the class and went straight home.

~

arriving at home, it turns out that nurain has not come home.so even umma who attended the meeting of the scholarship recipient student was still not back, automatically the house became quiet.

"well, did you come home? umma where's Lutfi?"

I asked as I looked at Farah who was busy with her laptop in the living room as I walked into the room

"go"

farah answered briefly and without looking at me.

that is, since I married Nurain, Farah's cold attitude has not changed until now.

I miss her laughs, her jokes, and her stories.

faraH is indeed my jolly and cheerful sister.she is close to anyone, including me as her Brother.

even though I am a man, Farah managed to make a closeness between us as a brother and brother without distance.

"de, what kind of hate does Ade have for you?"

I approached him by taking a sitting position in front of him so he would look at me while talking

"I don't hate you"

answer her still with a cool tone and a constantly focused look towards her laptop

"continue until when will you be cold with Brother?"

"until you come back here again, until you want to practice here again, then Farah's attitude will return to how it used to be. sorry farah still a lot of work, assalamualaikum"

Farah stood up and stepped towards her room without waiting for my unfinished words.

~

at eleven o'clock in the afternoon, Nurain just returned from going shopping with BI Nani.

he went into the room and kissed my hand with a greeting.

no words came out of her mouth, even as I looked towards her nurain just lowered her head in silence.

'what's wrong with my wife? was he angry because of my attitude this morning?'

I kept watching Nurain who was busy changing his clothes, then getting into the bathroom, and even when he was done with his needs, still no words came out of his mouth. This made me feel guilty and curious about his unusual attitude.

"Abang has lunch? if not ready yet"

her words with a slightly weak tone of voice were like uninspired

"What do you want to eat? nur to the kitchen first yes help BI Nani to prepare food"

nurain was about to turn to step towards the exit of the room, but I immediately held him back by pulling his hand

"why you, baby? is there something you're thinking about?"

ask me in full search through his eyes

"what was angry with you because of your attitude this morning? if so, I apologize for hurting your heart. Brother is no longer angry with you, so dear Brother do not be moody anymore yes.not good to see him"

"thank you, I'm sorry for nur"

there was no change in her facial expression.nurain still looked rather moody. Actually what made her like this?

"go to the kitchen first yes, assalamualaikum"

nurain immediately turned around and stepped leaving me who was still sitting glued to the edge of the bed.

'kamj why darling?'

~

"fidz, umma and Babah have taken care of all the needs for your wedding reception and nurain. stay printing invitations and praweding photos if you and nurain mau. actually umma has ordered her invitation letter, it's just that umma has not determined a model or picture of the paper, because it is afraid you and nurain want to choose themselves. so tomorrow afternoon if you can and nurain stop by ya to the printing place let all of it quickly finished. because umma do not want his event in later afraid nurain kebur ngisi, because, kasian, he's exhausted"

umma said at length, while we were sitting in the living room.

"iya umma insyaallah tomorrow hafidz stopped by there, but by the way umma Abah when to return from Lirboyo?"

"god willing, Abah is in the cottage again"

"Dragon"

Lutfi suddenly came and immediately sat on my lap

"well, Ade Abang has a new toy car"

"not just ko, Luthfi in this buyin has been a few days. A brother who doesn't know"

"who are you buying?"

"in buyin same time to go shopping with BI Nani. kan Lutfi also come"

"masa? ko Brother doesn't know?"

"Abang busy Mulu anyway"

he said with a little mouth in the crowd

"umma into first yes fidz for a moment"

"yes umma"

umma went inside, while I was still busy chatting and playing with Lutfi while waiting for the arrival of nurain from the MI madrasah

"Abang, you know, when Lutfi joined ka mut shopping, there was a guy who deketin ka mut, kept wondering to ka mut too, too, but that abis ka mut her rich who was angry until she was crying"

"scurvy? Lutfi knows who the guy is?"

I asked curiously when I heard Lutfi's story about a man who met a nurain at that time

"eum, if it's not wrong her brother ever went to visit here, but Lutfi forgot his name"

who was that guy? is it because of that nurain these few days look moody?

"Lutfi wants to play outside the same as Tiara, you want to come?"

"no, Brother here alone, Ade play carefully well"

Lutfi also ran out of the house, approaching a santri princess who was used to babysit her.

"BI, when auntie same nurain shopping. is there a man who approached nurain? does my aunt know what her name is? they just keep talking about anything?"

I followed my aunt into the kitchen to ask her something that intrigued me in my heart

"men? aunty does not know Gus, because when aunt to the supermarket, Ning nurain same Gus luthfi towards the toy place.so aunt did not see nurain meet with whom"

"oh that, kirain aunty knows. yes already hafidz into first yes BI"

I went back to my room, waiting for Nurain to come home from the madrasa.

actually, I can't wait to ask Nurain directly about the man, because I worry if the man hurt my wife.

is that the cause of nurain lately moody? nurain was more silent and daydreaming, several times I tried to invite him to talk to want to tell a story, but nurain still did not want a story.

may it not be because the man is your attitude to be different.