My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
Disappointment

POP Gus hafidz

me and umma looked at each other when Aisyah hurriedly went home, even she did not shake hands at umma first.

I know exactly what the reason he behaved like that. I actually didn't mean to hide all this from him, it's just that this is what I was afraid of was hurting his heart.

just so I will deliver it directly at the right time and by talking slowly, but what can make the rice into porridge is impossible to return.

Aisyah already knew it from umma indirectly.let me later who will explain to her also apologized to Aisyah.

"fidz Aisyah why?"

umma's face implied worry as she saw Aisyah leaving in a great hurry

"maybe there's been a rush of umma business"

I tried to cover up why Aisyah's attitude could be like that

"but according to umma not because there is a fidz business.there are other things that make Aisyah suddenly leave even she did not pay attention to Farah and also did not greet the umma. did you make a mistake on her, son?"

tanya umma full of searching

'yes, hafidz may have made a mistake for not being able to reciprocate his feelings umma', I replied in my heart

"let hafidz call aisy aja umma, and apologize if hafidz made a mistake.but by the way Babah where umma? isn't it the same umma?"

I switched the conversation so that umma would not ask anything deeper about Aisyah.

because I am afraid umma will think and feel sad if she knows the truth, she really loves Aisyah deserves her own child.

"Babah is going to meet Abah to tell him about you and Nurain"

"ko can be so umma? hafidz meant why Babah went straight to Abah's house when we also only got an answer from nurain today"

I asked a little confused because Babah already knew that Nurain would accept my proposal

"maybe, umma also asked Babah the same thing, but Babah just smiled and asked umma to go home first"

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in the room I tried to contact no Aisyah but there was no answer, her calls were always diverted.

{assalamualaikum aisy, ana tried to contact anti but why not appointed at all? or is anti really busy? umma asked anti to ana, he said why go home in a hurry? hope anti is good there yes. sorry if ana has the same anti}

finally I decided to send him a message, and for a while chose not to know about his feelings towards me.

it's not me, it's just that I don't want to make him sicker.

I feel very guilty for being the cause of Aisha's grief, but this is also out of my control, because everything has been arranged by the all-will.

I can only pray that Aisyah does not dissolve in her grief and that she soon meets the right man who is much better than me, amen.

"assalamualaikum"

there were knocking sounds and greetings from outside my room.

"waalaikumsalam wr wb, what's the matter?"

I asked when the door was opened, but Farah instead of answering went in and pulled me into the room.

"Abang, is it true what umma says? answer honestly"

"what's the honest answer?"

answer me relax

"nurain? Are you really looking for Nurain? when's bang? ko Farah wasn't told?"

"is everything you have to say to you, de?"

"Abang ko the same with Aisyah? I love you so much, Brother"

"not my brother, but I feel it all here de (pointing to the chest).if your heart for Ayesha may be that Abang Lamar is not Nurain"

"but is not the same brother ka aisy already from childhood always together. the hell time there is not the slightest love for ka aisy? brother also knows how dear ka aisy his same Farah and Lutfi, he has regarded us as his own sister as well as Farah had considered him as his own brother. surely now you're sad and that's because of Brother"

said Farah with a passionate tone. I understand how she feels at this time because Farah always wants if I only mate with Aisyah.

"iya Abang apologized for making Aisyah disappointed but this is beyond the power of Abang de. This feeling is not for Aisyah even though we have known for many years but does not mean we have to mate right. I hope Ade understands and understands what__"

"you ah bang"

then Farah left my room in anger.

hopefully Farah can understand this.

~

"bah, ummah hafidz wants to marry nurain tomorrow"

I said as we were gathering in the middle room. umma and Babah immediately looked at me with an unexpected look.

"why rush, son?"

ask umma

"hafidz just wants the bus to keep the nurain freely and without any restrictions"

"we have not prepared anything yet, nor have we told our distant relatives and brothers"

"no need for a luxurious event umma, enough ijab aja first it can be followed hafidz taste"

I try to give understanding to umma

"but why rush fidz, can Babah know why?"

now Babah is asking me why I want to marry Nurain

"when hafidz in the nurain house ate his mother's corpse, hafidz accidentally heard the nur family conversation. nurain's father will be transferred to Surabaya and his brother Nur must return to duty in Tangerang.was his nurse will stay at his house accompanied by his aunt, his aunt, but his aunt could not be finally nur will be brought by his father to Surabaya, so according to hafidz it is better if hafidz immediately marry nurain so that hafidz can take care of him completely"

I explained to Babah and umma what reason I wanted to marry nurain immediately.

"it's fine if that's why we want Babah and umma agreed to it. tomorrow God willing we will go to the house of Nurain to make a marriage contract"

"Syukron umma, Syukron bah"

I kissed the hands of umma and Babah and hugged them alternately as a sign of my gratitude for having granted my wish to nurain.

subhanallah it feels like this heart is very happy, because God made everything easy for me to be able to justify the nurain.there is nothing most valuable in establishing a bond without the blessing of our parents.

because their blessing is the blessing of God as well.and God willing all of it will be easy if we have got the blessing of both our parents.may this also make Farah to open her heart to receive nurain. amen