My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
Mistakes

I just finished teaching the MI children and went straight home, but when I wanted to get in, I saw Doctor Aisyah's car parked in the yard.

it was true that doctor Aisyah was chatting with Gus hafidz's family inside.

I wanted to go in, but I paused because I saw the sad look on the face of everything inside, I don't know what happened.

I also decided to listen to their conversation from behind the door, but it was not very clear what was being talked about.

once again I peeked from behind the window, Ning Farah was like crying while hugging Doctor Aisyah, as well as umma who also shed tears.

'actually what happened?' my heart was getting more agitated, so I decided to go inside, but not yet had this hand open the door, I saw Doctor Aisyah was walking towards the exit. I went to hide behind the wall to the kitchen.

shortly after, my husband came out to try to catch up with the doctor aisyah.I glanced at him at a glance, but curiosity made me follow them.

I chose to stay behind the tree, listening to what they were talking about.

I didn't expect Doctor Aisyah to come here, just to say goodbye to the family.

I was sad to hear all that, especially when I found out that Doctor Aisyah had loved Gus hafidz, my husband.

I feel more guilty, because it seems to be the cause of all the problems here.

Ning Farah who was still acting coldly towards my husband, doctor Aisyah who was feeling hurt to the point of having to leave the cottage.

especially when I saw that Ning Farah's cry that seemed very unwilling if she had to part with Doctor Aisyah, made this guilt even bigger.

with the confusion and guilt so great, I decided to talk to doctor Aisyah without telling my husband.

"sorry, ana is not a woman who can be happy above the suffering of other women"

doctor Aisyah responded to my plea with such a firm voice.

"but the doctor, this is what you're asking for, so the doctor doesn't have to feel guilty"

I tried to convince Doctor Aisyah to listen to my words and not leave the cabin.

actually I said that with a heart that was so shaky, because no woman would share the love of her husband.

but for the sake of family happiness, and I also do not want any division between us, so I decided to take this decision myself.

"sorry nurain, ana can not fulfill the request of anti. Marriage is not something that can be played with. What according to anti with hafidz married me all her will end happily? nour, there will be a lot of hearts that are injured here.so ana can not meet the anti demand, and ana also hopes anti understand the state of ana. for now only need time alone"

I just kept crying behind my veil

"if no one wants to talk about it again, please say goodbye. ana pray will be anti happy always with hafidz. and__seventually"

doctor Aisyah stood up, then entered her half body into her car

"this, as an anti wedding gift. Afwan if ana just had time to give it now. ana excuse me yes, assalamualaikum"

"waalaikumsalam wr"

I answered while taking off the arms of doctor Aisyah, and after that doctor Aisyah left in her car, carrying all her grief and leaving all her memories here.

again forgive me doctor Aisha. May one day God meet a doctor with a man who Sholeh who loves the doctor sincerely.

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"assalamualaikum"

"waalaikumsalam wr wb, just returned home neng?"

bi nani's voice greeted me as I entered the house through the kitchen door

"yes BI"

answer me with a big smile

shortly after that appeared Ning Farah who was walking towards the table that stored gallon water.I immediately approached her.

"Ning want some tea?"

"let's go make it, Ning Farah can wait inside later and bring her tea inside"

I said kindly but actually filled with nervousness.because I've been here almost a week, Ning Farah is still always cold when I try to invite her to talk

"no need, ana has her own hands. anyways anti here as his wife bang hafidz is not a maid"

without looking at me, Ning Farah said with a frown and went straight inside.

"don't be taken heart yah neng, now his heart is no good because in staying neng Aisyah, but later also good again ko"

BI Nani stroked my back trying to make my heart calm

"iya BI did not papa ko. nur into first well"

I stepped into the middle room

"just got back to princess umma?"

greet umma as I enter the middle room

"iya umma" I said as I kissed my mother-in-law's arm that I considered my own mother

"yes already eat first well, the others already at the meal earlier, but hafidz not yet, the rich are waiting for you"

"iya umma, let's go to the room first later just eat with Brother"

I also walked straight to my room

"where's the deck from, ko just got home?"

gus hafidz asked with an unusual look at me

"from MI bang"

I said as I approached her and kissed her arm

"from MI or from the front gate of the boarding school?"

I looked at my husband with an astonished look, why did you know? do you-don't you also know I've been chatting with doctor Aisyah?

"iya bang, nur abis from the abis pesantren gate talk to doctor Aisyah"

"why can you talk like that to Aisha?"

Gus hafidz looked at me with disappointed eyes, and this was the first time I saw Gus hafidz staring at me like that while being my husband.

"Abang nur only__"

"is marriage a game and her toy brother to you and Aisyah?"

"Abang, nur means not like that. nur just does not want doctor Aisyah to leave this cottage"

"but not in that way.you easily talk as if this brother is a doll that you can play with. Brother has a heart of nur, and in the heart of Abang there are only you not Aisha or the others"

"maafin nur bang, nur does not mean nyakitin heart Abang.nur just can't see umma, Babah let alone Ning Farah who is so fond of doctor Aisyah haru crying because she felt the loss of doctor Aisyah"

"but not in the way you have to marry Aisha, right? do you think getting married without love is easy? do you think you can be fair? no, Brother is not that good, Brother is not that great"

I saw Gus hafidz's eyes glazed over describing how disappointed he was towards me.

I tried to get close to her and took her hand to apologize for making her heart hurt.

Nami immediately dodged Gus hafidz and walked outside leaving me alone.

with a sag of this body sat on the floor with tears that I could not hold anymore.

why is it like this? why do I talk without thinking so that it makes my husband disappointed? why am I this stupid? wh why?