My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
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Aisyah POP

"son are you sure you want to come back to live here?"

ask my mother when I arrive that I will return to practice in Indonesia

"yes ma'am, Aisy would like to return to practice here, but Aisy will practice in another hospital"

"in the cottage too?"

"while Aisy is still not ready if you have to practice again in the cottage"

"are you sure of your decision, son? I don't want if your decision to come back here will make more heartache. I don't want to see my son cry and fall back like yesterday"

"mother calm down, insyaallah aisy is already stronger aisy can already be more spacious chest accepting all this"

"yes, whatever your decision you'll support as long as it's good for you son"

"thank you ma'am, I've always been next to Aisy, but Aisy asks me not to tell me the same umma or anyone related to hafidz that Aisy is back here. aisy is still not ready if you have to meet them often, especially hafidz"

"yes son, I will always protect you from anything that could hurt you"

my mother hugged me lovingly.

well, mother is the one who will always love us without expecting a reply.

when I fell down and cried because my ego felt destiny was not on my side, my mother was always there to remind me and strengthen my fragile heart.

mom always hugged me and held my hand when I almost fell. Her sincere and great affection, made me able to come back strong even though I had to be trained.

his Do'a that can penetrate the sky, give me peace of heart so that I can be more spacious to accept all the provisions of God for me. Syukron mother, your presence always gives good to me.

"aisy came out first, ma'am, there are some letters that I have to leave to the new hospital"

"you have breakfast first well, mom is ready for your favorite food"

I raised my thumb while smiling in response to mother's request

"mother's child is already big, has grown up. The new feeling yesterday mother held and taught you how to walk, treat you when sick. now you can treat many people, now you can treat many people, with my hands always dexterous, and your never-tired feet stepping in kindness"

"my mom said that, Aisy's so sad"

"ah, dear mother"

mom hugged me back lovingly

"you are the happiness of your only mother"

"aisy is also very dear to mother. mother happiness aisy is very valuable"

"it turns out that two of the father's angels here again are busy hugging, even though the father is waiting at the table while holding the increasingly noisy stomach"

suddenly my father came and made me smile

"oh yeah forgot, brother if you've been chatting with aisy always forget time"

"forget the same father, right?"

"hehehe dad can do it"

"that's your mother's habit, son, if you forget the same father"

"important is that Aisy never forgets mother and father"

I said while kissing their cheeks in turn

"yes we have eaten now yuk, then hunted stale food"

"dad, could do it"

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"so you don't want to practice with me anymore?"

asked Nilam when we accidentally met at a cafe near the hospital where I used to practice

"why not here anyway? rich we used to work together again, so if you want to meet it is not difficult either"

"did you know that Hafidz's wife is pregnant?"

"yes I know, because at their wedding reception, my parents and I attended the event, and at that time his wife fainted from exhaustion, after I checked there was a possibility that her wife was pregnant, she said, so I suggest they go see an obstetrician, but who do you know who the pregnancy from his wife is?"

"a number of times I saw hafidz and his wife go into Rini's doctor's office, especially if she didn't want to check her wife's pregnancy"

I smiled wryly at Nilam's words about hafidz. Well, inevitably this heart hurts a little when it comes to knowing that hafidz will have a daughter from another woman.

"yeah do not need to discuss them, better today we spend time to shop or go for a walk where it is. mempengpeng me again holiday"

said Nilam who tried to take my mind off hafidz

"like I can't Nile, I have to go to the house to learn to see the kids there"

"look at her kids or her Alfan ka?"

"what the hell, I'm the same as Alfan there's nothing to do but about the kids"

"yes, if there's nothing too papa if isy. You guys both stop by right? besides, ka Alfan has clearly said he wants to be your companion rather than waiting for the uncertain right?"

"it's ah, now's not the right time to talk about such a thing"

"when is the right time? keburu ka Alfan nyerah continue nyari others deh"

"well, it means we are not a match. ah, I went first well. You still want to be here right?"

"yes, I don't want to say I'm alone here.I also want to go rich"

"yes, let's go with me, or if you want you to come with me to the children's study house"

"can you?"

"yes may be Nile, whoever forbids it"

"well, I'm afraid someone's got to bother me"

"what the hell, yes already we leave now because before there I want to buy food with toys for the children there"

nilam and I finally decided to go together to see the state of the children in the study house, the feeling was very bad for them. ever since my departure at that time, I haven't seen them again until now.

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"how's de Aisyah doing?"

ask Alfan when Nilam and I have arrived at his study house

"Alhamdulillah well ka, sorry before her for suddenly going without saying goodbye to ka Alfan and the children"

"it's okay brother understands, surely de aisy has a strong reason behind it all. although actually his own brother was confused and wondered about the reason de aisy left suddenly.but if you may know, de aisy left not because of the incident at the restaurant at that time?"

"oh__not ka because that's why Aisy left suddenly"

"Alhamdulillah then, sorry if it was a sassy brother"

"no ko ka, it's not a plan"

"ekhem, rich, I'm here just selling peanuts"

"mash God, forget that there is Nilam here"

ka Alfan said in a guyon tone. Nilam had known Alfan for a long time, because he had been here several times to accompany me.

and maybe Nilam is more familiar with ka Alfan in my appeal, because he is a jolly person and easily familiar with anyone.

after the adzan asar reverberated, Nilam pamit first because there was an impromptu call from the hospital where he practiced.

I just have to finish my activities and the children until it is finished and return to clean up the study house to keep it clean.

"de aisy, eeeuummm, about that time__if you may ka Alfan still waiting for an answer from de aisy. sorry if the impression of his sister like forcing, if the impression of his brother like, but if you may ask de aisy Alfan to pray istikharah first, then answer him"

ka Alfan's words were when I was about to return home tingling.

at that time I did not give certainty to my answer, because suddenly the child at home learning there was sick and required us to go see the state of the child.

should I give you a chance to build a relationship? is this the time for me to forget hafidz? can I love you Alfan?