My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
Why Should He

Agam POV

since I first entered the Al-Ihsan boarding school, I have fallen in love with him.His sincere heart when helping his friends makes me always want to see him even from a distance, also her courage when telling the truth without fear made me admire her even more.

when Ospek entered school, his friend fell and was then angered by the class brother who became the committee, he bravely helped and defended his friend to become the center of attention of everyone, but it didn't scare her, and that was the beginning of my first fall in love at first sight.

I expressed all my heart when I had the opportunity to express it, but who would have thought that Nurain actually considered this feeling as wrong, but it did not make me despair. until I finally found out if he's now been edited by the son of my teacher.

whereas at the same time I wanted to come to his house to meet his parents, but it turned out that fate was not on my side. God did not let him be mine, but this heart still could not turn away from him until I finally decided to leave his world and its surroundings.

here I am now, Istanbul Turki. mwneruskan my education and try to go from the shadows about his.

"are you sure you want to go to college here, gam?"

ask my brother who has already studied at one of the universities in Turkey

"insyaallah ka"

"but didn't you want to continue studying in Indonesia majoring in law?"

"it was like that, but now it's changed its mind"

"why? what is it because of the love that didn't reach you that made you choose to live here?"

I only smiled wryly when I heard the plunge from my older sister.

"now is not the time to discuss about me. Now is the time to discuss about brother who when ready to go home with the new appearance of brother?"

"why my appearance?"

"what's with my sister's appearance?"

ask me back to ask my sister who is busy making coffee in the kitchen, and I just wait for her in a chair that has been used to mojok in her place.

"come on my handsome brother, don't because you graduated a pesantren so pretentious and act like an ustadz that forbids this and that. brother likes this appearance and sister is also comfortable like this"

he said while thrusting a cup of coffee in front of me.

"it's not me who forbids it, but our religion, our God who created us is in this world, so inevitably we must obey His rules, right?"

my brother was silent for a while, I don't know what he was thinking, but I pray that my brother gets guidance to want to become a full Muslim

~

"is today a visit to universities in Istanbul?"

ask my brother when I'm ready to go somewhere

"don't know"

answer me simply

"let's go, where's it going?"

"want to go somewhere"

"yes where? sister should know where you are if it's easy to find her"

"what the hell, I'm already big. besides many tour guides in this country, so just calm insyaallah I will not stray"

"yes, if that's good"

without answering the conversation again I went straight to the place I wanted to visit.

Blue mosaics, blue mosaics,

this is the place I would most like to visit when I go to Turkey one day, and that is today.

I enthusiastically photograph every corner of this building.it is beautiful, magnificent and unique of course.

I am very interested in the architecture of this building.

Mosque built in 1609–1616. During the reign of Ahmed I.

One of Mimar Sinan's students, Sedefkar Mehmet Aga, was the architect of the Blue Mosque. Mimar Sinan was the chief architect of the sultans Suleiman I, Selim II, and Murad III.

well the characteristic of this Blue Mosque is that it has many features such as a dome, half dome, and a lean tower. The six minarets characteristic of the mosque are unusual in Ottoman architectural style.

and I think it's a special attraction for me to admire each building of this mosque.

'tired also surrounds this mosque, let alone its spacious courtyard.It is better to take a short break under my inner tree' while walking towards an empty chair under a shady tree

"ko there's a name for her nur bang? When did you do the painting?"

I heard a woman's voice talking, and I knew whose voice it was.

doubtfully I swatted this body to the origin of the voice that was beside me.

'what are nurain and Gus hafidz?'

when I see a couple who embrace each other in love, but I can't see exactly who they are.

because a woman uses a veil so that it covers her face, and a man whose position is turned his back on me.

honestly I was very curious, because the sound is exactly like the sound of nurain.but is nurain wearing a veil now?

'ah I'd better not remember about him. It's just gonna make this heart hurt'

{gam where? hunt home anyone wants brother to talk to you}

one message came in and it was from my only brother

{iya now rang}

after sending a reply to a message, I immediately stood up and left the place.although I was actually still curious about the veiled woman earlier.

~

"what are you talking about?"

ask me when we are at home together.

"what is it?"

"wait minute"

then my brother went into his room, and before long came back out with a bag of groceries

"eumm, this is what you deserve to wear"

ask her while taking out a dress with a pink flower pattern

"you're laughing"

"no, not laughing, but Agam only smiled happily because he wanted to change his clothes.Yes now he wears well, now he wants to wear his sister, Agam want to see for sure brother is more beautiful if you wear it"

"no ah, not so. later only his sister use it if you are really sure"

"that ko? brother already bought means brother already sure dong want to use the game, why not now even be?"

"hmmm, actually brother bought it to attract someone's attention anyway gam"

I immediately looked at my brother asking for certainty from the look in his eyes. Because it was strange to hear him talk like that. so far there has never been one man who really made her fall in love even to the point of making her want to change.

"yes, I know you're wrong, changed only because you want to be seen by someone"

"don't ko, Agam doesn't think brother is wrong. Sometimes to go to the level of sincerity we need a chance that makes us get to that direction.like brother now, like brother now, who knows through that person brother can really change.and who knows that person to be a will for sister to get guidance"

I tried to give a slow understanding to my brother, who began to want to change even if it was just to get the attention of someone he liked.

"but gam, the guy that sister likes it__dia_"

my sister hesitated to continue her sentence

"he why you?"

"hmmm, it's nothing, later aja his story brother. Now we go out yuk, find food"

"no, Agam's not coming"

"come on, when you eat alone, there's nothing cool"

"usually the same with older friends, right?"

"they're all busy, and brother is also no longer in the mood to gather together with sister's friends. So you're the one who made sister eat well, please"

"yeah, but briefly I have to change clothes first. sultry"

~

after arriving at a restaurant not far from home, my brother immediately ordered food and drinks for the two of us.

"you wait here for a minute, brother, you're going there first"

"where's ka?"

"as awhile"

he said as he walked towards the table occupied by one man and one woman.I don't know who, maybe it was my brother's friend.

"hafidez"

I immediately turned to look at someone sitting not far from my seat.

'was my brother calling me hafidz?'

these eyes continued to notice two people were sitting with my brother, or perhaps more precisely the table my brother was approaching.

'is that Gus hafidz and nurain?'

I'm getting curious about the couple, who exactly are they? if I had noticed, wouldn't they be the same people I saw on the blue mosque page this morning?

I don't know what my brother and them are talking about, but I can clearly see there's a gurgle of disappointment on my brother's face when I talk to them.

"who are they?"

I asked my brother when he was back sitting with me, but I saw my brother as holding back the sadness after returning from the table.

"big brother why? brother crying?"

"no, it's as good as we don't eat here Susana's uncomfortable"

without waiting for me, my brother immediately walked away from the restaurant, and I immediately followed my sister from behind.

"ka, who was that really? why are you crying after you talk to them"

ask me when we get in the car.

"so it's a boy that big brother likes.but he's now married to someone else, hysteria"

"do you mean he betrayed you?"

ask me with anger

"no, he's not betraying you. It's just that you feel hurt when you know suddenly he's married.when you're painstakingly finding out about him, brother, whatever his favorite and how his life is, but it turns out he had rejected his sister before he said it"

"who is she, anyway? is he a real person here?"

"no, he's from Indonesia. His name is Muhammad hafidz athary, the son of the leader of a pesantren. somehow pasantren what his name brother forgot"

"al-Ihsan boarding house?"

"yes, that's the name of his boarding school. oh yes brother forgot, instead of you go lodging there right? you know her too?"

ask my sister with a cry that is beginning to subside

"well, I know ka and I also know who his wife is. already yes brother don't cry and expect her again. there are still many out there better men for sister"

I tried to comfort my wounded brother, although actually my heart was already hurt. Because the person I like, the person I want to have is already taken by him, he said, the man who made my sister cry.

why should he? why should they? though I came here to avoid the news about them, but it turns out that God even kept us here.