My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
My answer

me, Asyila and Maryam stayed behind the kitchen curtain that connected to the living room.

after hearing what Gus hafidz had to say about the meaning of his arrival, I was really shocked.

I never thought that Gus hafidz really liked me even came to my house to see my father to propose to me.

I turned my gaze to Ashila who was sitting not far from me. There was no reaction from her, somehow her feelings. But here I was very dilemma with what happened.

Mary looked at me questionnaires that I didn't know what to react to.

I was happy, because this feeling began to grow for her and did not clap one hand.I am sad because this is still in mourning for the passing of my mother. I was confused and felt guilty because my best friend also liked people I started to like.

oh, my God,,,

"nur, here the son of the mother and the pak kiai call, there is something important that he wants to convey, especially Gus hafidz"

atheu Risma who is the sister of my late mother called me

"iya teu, pause" I replied as I continued to look towards the assyila who was looking down at the table in front of her

"don't be long, baby"

"yes to teu"

atheu Risma went inside first, while I stood to approach Ashila who was still silent.

"you're going to the bathroom for a minute"

asyila immediately stood up and went into the bathroom as I wanted to sit next to her.

"same?"

"no papa nur, insyaallah assyila must sincerely accept this fact.now stay back to his anti, willing to accept or not his proposal from Gus hafidz. ana as an anti friend can only support all anti decisions and pray for the best for the anti. but if ana may advice, follow the word of conscience. if anti likes Gus hafidz then accept, he said, god willing he is a good man who is devoutly religious, but if the anti does not like him even sure to be with him, then say it with the best words, say it, moreover, he is our teacher"

"yes Iam, inshaallah"

"nur, ko is still here son. have been waiting come on" ateu Risma again called me and immediately grabbed my hand.

I can only obey and follow the steps of my atheu.

I turned my eyes to Maryam to follow me inside, but Maryam gestured for me to come in first.

~

in the living room, all eyes were on me. I was ashamed not to be upset because it was like being the main character in an art stage.

"here son, sit next to dad"

I nodded and sat down next to my father.

"Alhamdulillah be healthy Ma'am"

"Alhamdulillah if it is healthy"

"let's see, our arrival here is actually not just a visit. in addition to our friends, we also mean another come to this house, namely ushering our son who is sure neng nurain already knows his name is muhammad hafidz athary who has a wish to propose or propose neng Nurain, do you think neng nurain is willing to accept a proposal from hafidz son of the father?" asked pak kiai very gently who was able to make my heart shake violently so moved and happy.

I still lowered my head without daring to look at his face.Even in my submission, these tears fell without my being able to hold back.

because on the one hand I miss my mother, she could not be present to watch all this. Maybe if there was a mother beside me my heart would not vibrate as great as this because of the haru that enveloped.

"nur, kiai sir asked nur?" my father's words awakened the reverie of my heart.

"nur, if nur is not ready do not force, because we also will not force not so fidz?" said the nanny's mother who turned her question to Gus hafidz

I glimpsed, Gus hafidz just nodded as he kept his head down in response to his mother's question.

"we are also sorry for coming so suddenly, which may have taken nur by surprise"

"no ma'am, nur even very happy father kiai and mother can visit the house of nur parents who are no one. but for the answer nur to the intention of Gus hafidz, Gus, if nur may ask permission nur want to convince the nur heart first by asking for God's guidance.not nur doubt but nur just want more to ask for confidence in the owner of the heart. sorry if these words and nur requests are presumptuous"

with great difficulty I tried to say what was in my heart.

"no son, even that's the best answer. indeed you should ask for His guidance first. let alone this for your future that will be lived together for the rest of your lives"

said pak kiai wisely who was greeted by a nod from the mother of the nanny and Gus hafidz as a sign of agreeing with what was said by pak kiai.

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"nur, anti-love is the same Gus hafidz?" ask Asyila when we had performed the prayer together in the mosque near my house

"receive the proposal well. ana sincere and ana also aware that ana can not force what has become god's destiny.maybe for now ana will feel a fairly deep pain. but Ana believes that God has prepared better for ana someday.well, itung-itung you all practice patience ana in waiting is not it?"

asyila hugged me with a knotty smile as if to convince me not to hesitate because of her

"iya nur if anti likes anti sure Gus hafidz is an anti-accept soul mate just do not hesitate. assyila is sincere too right?"

Maryam also convinced me by saying the same words as Ashila

I looked at them in turn.day, happy but also still tucked sad mixed into one.

"Syukron, because you are always there in every situation for ana. even when your sick mother who has always been faithful to ana nemenin until now after mother is gone. ana does not know that none of you strengthen ana, ngingetin ana and even you are trying to entertain ana. Syukron,, Syukron is really for the two of you who are always there for ana. especially for Asyila, ana apologizes if he has betrayed her indirectly because he has liked the same man who is also anti-loving even though this feeling is pure coming from God, and Ana is also very grateful for the anti-cautiousness to accept all this. Syukron Iam, Syukron syil, you are indeed ana's best friend"

I hugged them together with tears that kept flowing.

Thank you, Lord, for you have brought forth good people who love me sincerely.