My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
Small Quarrel

Aisyah POV

I didn't expect that Alfan's ka would follow me to this cabin, but where did Alfan know that I was here? and how did he know about the address of this cottage?

"ka Alfan?"

I said slowly.

"assalamualaikum Ayesha"

"wah, it turns out that Neng Aisyah also knows her friend Gus hafidz this. sorry well, aunt does not know, because this time aunt saw her want to play here"

"yes BI is not papa"

answer ka Alfan kindly

"please come in, son"

the aunt said, ka Alfan entered politely. After ka Alfan sat down, I sat down while holding Naura.

true, Naura shidqiya athary is the name of her baby hafidz and nurain which I am currently caring for and I love like a child myself.

from the beginning of his return to this house until the age of almost four months, in addition to umma and Farah, I was the one who always took care of him if my practice schedule was complete.

hafidz actually forbade me to take care of her baby, until one day her baby was fussy and did not stop crying until I held her and she immediately stopped crying. I don't know what the bond is between me and this baby, but obviously I love him very much and I'm always comfortable if near him.

"umma knows even though you are not married and have children, but your soul is so motherly, so that the baby hafidz feel comfortable if near you son.Please love him like your own child, he said, so that she does not feel the lack of a mother's affection"

umma said one day, while we were busy babysitting Naura together.

"how's de aisy doing?"

ask Ka Alfan when BI Nani has passed after storing a glass of water on the table.

"Alhamdulillah aisy good ka"

answer me slowly while continuing to bow

"Alhamdulillah if de aisy good. brother just feel worried, because lately de aisy never answer messages or call brother. sorry brother does not know that de aisy is busy this, because lately de aisy has never answered a message, to the extent that de aisy did not have time to visit the children's learning house"

DEG

Alfan's words touched my heart.

well, for several months now I have never been to the children's study house because it is too busy taking care of Naura. I have Abai and may forget my obligations that I have run first.

"sorry if Aisy is negligent with her obligations to the children there, because aisy__"

"karna de aisy loves her baby hafidz more than the children in the study house who so need tutoring from de aisy"

alfan said cutting off my unfinished words.

suddenly I looked at Ka Alfan when I heard his words.There was a sense of disappointment in my heart because without hearing my reason, ka Alfan easily judge me based on his view alone.

I was wrong not to tell about all this to Alfan before her, but she mustn't talk like that without knowing my real reason.

"does anyone want de aisy to explain to sister?"

fight it again.

"aisy think ka Alfan does not want to hear any reason from aisy. because before aisy said her reason ka Alfan had already concluded based on the thoughts and judgments ka Alfan himself"

there was no reaction from ka Alfan, he just looked at me with a look that I did not understand.

I just kept quiet without answering every word from the ka Alfan.it was nothing, only after hearing all the words of ka Alfan, my heart became very confused and worried.

"it seems like the arrival of the older brother was very unexpected by de aisy, sorry if the presence of the older brother made de aisy uncomfortable"

he said while standing.

"and please send your greetings to hafidz, the man who always fills de aisy's heart. Pamit's brother, assalamualaikum"

DEG

once again my heart felt slapped by the words ka alfan. I didn't expect ka Alfan to say that. How did he know if hafidz was the man who had made me fall in love all this time?

am I so mean to her? am I being so selfish with my attitude?

god, my logic and my heart are at war.

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"hafidz, how is nurain now?"

ask me when I just entered the house and saw hafidz was ready to go to the hospital.

"still the same"

answer it cold

"well, are you here? kirain will be noon after practice"

suddenly Farah appeared from the inside with a bottle of milk that must have been her for Naura

"yes, it just so happens that today is aisy holiday so she can come here early in the morning"

"good, so you can be all day here.Farah also happens to no longer have a lecture, we can be together deh ngasuh Naura. ya already aisy enter yuk, yuk, Naura again in the park behind the same umma"

"yeah you first, then sister will follow"

I said when I saw hafidz was already outside, I immediately followed him out.

"hafidz, can I come see Nurain?"

asked me when Hafidz was about to get into his car, he just kept quiet without looking at me

"i'm taking my car, so I'm not getting in your car"

"sorry Aisy, I just want to be alone with my wife without anyone else present between us"

DEG

the pain of hearing what hafidz had said just now.even with his indifference he got into the car and left without saying goodbye to me.

I know, since nurain comatose heart must be very hurt. Even his body becomes thinner, because too busy taking care of his wife who is still in a coma in the hospital.

hafidz became very quiet and moody, even if he played with his son he just wanted to be alone in his room without anyone to disturb him.

his smile has never been seen, even his appearance was a little messy as if it was not taken care of. umma, Babah, even almost everyone close to him has tried to comfort and advise him, Babah, but hafidz seemed to close his ears and live with his heart that had been fragile.well, this was the first time I saw this hafidz as screwed up.

but, does he have to be like that? should he be cold and rude to me?

hafidz,, now I really don't understand you